#slytheclever

Thought #1:

What….the heck??

Its like…

I FINALLY got through it…

Like JUST got over it…

Its almost like….

just coming back from the doctors…

Cured…

Only for me to get home and find out…

things got 10 times worse!

Thought #2:

I graduated…

I have a degree…

Thought that would make things easier…

Negative…

Ive never been….

In such an unpredictable…

Place in my life…

Really like…

Whats Next???

Thought #3:

Don't get me wrong…

I know God got this…

I totally believe that….

But waiting…

And trying to figure out…

Whats going on??

isn't fun….

Thought #4:

There is so much stuff…

That I cant wait to do…

That I Just cant do quite yet..

Because I haven't had the right start…

Im ready to start my life in all angles…

But I don't know when its goin to take off…

Or How long it will even take to do so…

Thought #5:

Im like…

just sitting...

Waiting on my time…

Trying to be patient..

And appreciative in between…

Thought #6:

Ahh…

The Homies...

Were getting older…

Were all doing our own things…

Its interesting to sit back and see…

What were all coming to be…

I love that were all still hangin in there…

That shows me alot...

Thought #7:

Its funny…

Because…

We were starting to step on each others toes…

Just a lil bit at first….

Its like were starting to run into….

Our own…

growing issues at the same time….

Its definitely hard…

but i think were getting the hang of it…

how to coexist….

even though…

our own responsibilities have become greater….

its like wow tho...

It all happened so fast…

We're coming into each of our owns…

Thought #8:

And Mercy Me….

Relationships wise….

Its long term now tho…

And im still loving it…

Even passed the butterflies…

Even passed the first few hurdles...

At a great place…

Im settled…

but…

That next hurdle is coming up…

And I kinda see it…

I hope thats not it…

But whatever…

I guess...

Thought #9:

If so tho…

I was really hoping it wouldnt show face…

Because i didn't want to deal wit it…

But it happens to everyone…

So…

I guess it had to come up sooner or later…

Id be a fool to not think it was going to come up…

Call me crazy…

but i still don't think it should…

Im kinda offended tho… 

Thats its even trying to knock on my door…

That must be my pride tho…

But I guess

This is Life…

Doesn't care who you are...

I tell you one thing though…

AINT!

Aint about to be like the rest…

Thats what we not gon do….

Thought #10:

The pressure though…

My Goodness!

I feel it…

This thing so called Life…

Its about to level up…

If it aint one thing its another...

Thought #11:

Its also crazy that…

Stuff I never thought would become an issue for me…

Has…

Like…

Stuff Ive never thought in a million years…

Just kind of blind-sided me…

And made itself present…

I gotta stop saying never…

Thought #12:

Kind of makes me feel basic…

A typical person…

And I hate that feeling…

Im all about being different…

This is not supposed to happen to me…

Im not the same…

What you mean?

Ima very complex..

Logical Individual…

But know i don't even know…

I mean…

What does it mean to put together?

Is it 22…

is it 4…

Or are we talking figurative?

Thought #13:

Like dang…

No Explanations???

I need more hints!

Foreal man

How do i crack the code???

its like trying to solve a riddle like

"As the river flows…

…so goes the salmon"

What the heck does that really mean?

Anything and Everything!!

ugh!

Thought #14:

LIfe…

is Tryna mess with me…

Im in Gods waiting room…

With idle hands…

And its being annoying…

Play too much…

its okay though….

ima get the last laugh tho

Thought #15:

I know ima be good…

Ima figure it out…

Not gon stay like this forever…

You driving me crazy but…

I have faith…

Nothing can take hope from me…

So ill wait…

And see this Doctor…

See if He can do something about this…

These pains…

These…

Growing Pains...

Thought #1:

Call me a R.E.A.L.I.S.T.

ha…

or a Realist will do just fine…

yea…

i guess you can say that….

that'll work...

And excuse me….

Im kinda random with this one...

Thought #2:

College is like that dirty little secret….

Its like Vegas…

What Happens in College….

Stays In College…..

Its like that unwritten code….

Nobody can judge you….

by anything….

that happened in College….

Thought #3:

Even when your reminiscing with your friends…

And y'all bring up those old memories….

After you state some crazy…

wild…

off the wall thing you did back then….

its always followed up with….

"but that was in college though…"

or "that was in my college days…"

its funny…

its almost like…

we use it as in an excuse….

for all the stupid things we did…

Thought #4:

Its also funny…

that this blog doesn't really have much to do…

with college at all….

ha..

Thats just what i think about when I think of…

fantasyland...

its like the closes thing to real life fantasyland…

(contradiction, yes i know)

well thats the only thing i could think of to compare it to...

Thought #5:

Whats the real definition of a fantasy though?

Fantasy…..

"The faculty or activity of imagining things…

…that are impossible or improbable."

"An unrealistic or improbable supposition."

Thought #6:

But did we really know that though?

People talk about fantasies all of the time..

Especially sexual ones...

lol lets not even get that started…

Thought #7:

Well….

You know what...

lets do it….

ill be honest

I was never really into….

fantasies…

idk…

I just really don't have any…

Thought #8:

Hmm...

Well....

I guess I figured…

If I can actually do it…

then its not a fantasy ….

i mean….

Lets just make it happen….

just be about it lol

(of course….

…Under the proper circumstances)

i meant that….

in all the most classiest of ways lol :)

Thought #9:

Some people though….

just live in actual like...

fantasyland….

Look,

This is how i see it….

If its called a fantasy…

have you ever thought…

maybe…

its not necessarily…

supposed to happen?

Thought #10:

Why is it called a fantasy?

or better yet….

why do PEOPLE CALL IT fantasies?

cuz its not really supposed to happen right?

why isn't it supposed to happen tho?

Is it because of…

The maybe bad consequences that may come with it?

Are the consequences after it happens what makes it so unrealistic?

So unrealistic that we have to call them…

fantasies??

Thought #11:

I mean really…

you know…

if so then…

why do people still act on them sometimes?

we already know its not the best decision...

i don't really get it….

and at this point im not just talkin about sexual fantasies…

this goes for unrealistic wants in general….

Thought #12:

or wait…

its probably because…

nowadays people are so impulsive….

YOLO…

do what you heart says…

do what feels good….

don't use you common sense….

don't use your head….

don't think about it….

just do it….

for Goodness sake!!

Am i the only human being who cares to use her brain?

I know im not the only person who still believes in having sense

forget a YOLO…

you're right….

we only live life once…

so be wise and not stupid….

Thought #13:

I mean…

 ….

Crack feels good….

when you first try it…

but then later….

the consequences come….

And Trust me…

"I want to be a crackhead" 

---Said No One Ever...

Thought #14:

and forget your heart…

because that junk don't work either…

whats that one song?

what it say?

"It takes a fool….

to learn…

that love don't love nobody"

Genius!!!….

Ive learned...

your heart doesn't care about you…

or consequences

it just wants what it wants….

everything that feels good?

Aint good….

Thought #15:

Now…

Sly what about dreams….

people talk about having dreams…

all of the time...

So…

Heres the Definition of Dreams…

" A strongly desired goal or purpose"

" Something that fully satisfies a wish"

"A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration"

they're more reachable then fantasies…

Thought #16:

Excuse me…

i know im bursting bubbles with these…

But..

I don't always have time to be in LaLa Land…

im not a time waster….

im not about beating around the bush…..

I like to face the facts and stuff wasting my life…

I don't like thinking bout stuff I cant do…

I like to think about the stuff im capable of doing…

And stuff thats relevant to my actual life

I mean thats just me….

 thats just what goes on….

IN MY MIND…..