WELCOME TO MY ARMY.
ps: since this post is really long, i may make separate posts for different info like commissions, my moot list etc
Hello everyone!! :D This is the official blog page for Sleepy_Bean_Studios where I'll soon be posting about updates for my new visual novel game 'Have F.A.I.T.H in me'! (^ an self-portrait, A3 piece for my GCSE coursework done in pencils and charcoal)
yami yugi/pharaoh atem here :3
Some stuff about me:
currently doing my A-Levels! (i'm aspiring to do something either med/biochem related so you'll see me complain a lot about school)
sexuality: explanation is here and do note that this can change (i don't think it will for a long time though, given that this has been recurring)
birthday: 01/02/20XX (i write dates like this bc i live in britain >:D sorry americans) for further clarification: 1st feb 20xx
art and music freak (though i'll post more abt my art here than my music, u will see stuff abt it though), currently doing my grade 8 trinity piano exam prep stuff :,)
Current favourite song (also liable to change):
i like memes and silly stuff so i'll reblog random things from my moots :7
FANDOMS I'M INVOLVED IN: BIG MASTERLIST OF ALL THE FANDOMS I HAVE BEEN IN/WAS IN BEFORE/TRIED TO GET INTO
i also like to comment on social issues too and one of the things with me is that i like to hear a lot from different sides so if you see lots of political stuff, i'm not an expert, do NOT take my word for anything, i just like to pop in and see what's going on and what people think
i'm actually indian (ethnically), lol and you'd be surprised by how many people think i'm pakistani >u< but i'm british nationally (accent and everything)
i'm a muslim but suuuuper relaxed (in that i don't wear the hijab, i believe it's not mandatory, i don't follow the hadiths super strictly, i'm not straight and all that stuff) so i get very sensitive about islamophobic posts
going to get tested for autism soon! :> will update about how that goes in a couple months, i believe :D edit: it's at the end of the year i think? edit edit: i don't think i'm autistic, i'm probably overreacting so i'm going to make a post on that and get ppl's opinions! i'm not the kind of person to self-diagnose (mostly because i get things wrong and i am in no way a professional) so here's some posts you might want to see (i'll add some more soon): fruit,
i'm pretty rambly when i text (because of a very distressing encounter that i screenshotted down below) so that i can avoid any miscommunication, i would ask to use tone tags but ive been noticing it's specific to ppl who r on the neurodivergent spec so i'm trying not to use them lots
i am super duper chronically online, so normally YOU WILL SEE ME ON TUMBLR A LOT but sometimes i will be gone for schoolwork and stuff
i'm an aspiring fanfic writer (by that i mean i want to write ao3 fanfics of my sillies but idk when to fit the time so in the meantime, i'll js be making art and stuff)
currently dealing with a really nasty wheezy cough, i think it's because i inhaled a lot of white spirit from painting with oil paints but idk ;-; EDIT: I GOT A TEST FINALLY!! the docs think it's a dust allergy (allergic bronchitis? i forgot the actual name) bc of our house being hella unc
PFP AND BANNER MADE BY THE AMAZING, SWEET, KIND @roxy4life2!! GO TO THEIR BLOG PAGE IF YOU WANT TO GET THE CUTEST PROFILE PICS, LIKE, EVER!!
Sometimes I'll edit this page depending on if my fixations change!
marik down here owo
This is really important and you'll find this on my Strawpage in a condensed form but here is the full version of my DNI list:
R@p15ts, z00ph1l3s and p3d0s (including m@ps, 5h0t@s, r@dqu33r5, tr@n51d5, x3n05@t@n15t5 and l0l1s as well as any other problematic groups of people) please do not interact with my blog. This one is pretty self-explanatory. This does include people who have managed to genuinely recover - as much as I wholeheartedly support and congratulate you for recovering, I want to keep my moots and myself safe, especially because online, we don't know who has gone through something traumatic and we don't know how badly this will hurt them.
Additionally, proshippers and darkshippers are not free to interact here too. I don't want to endorse content that romanticises harmful behaviours in any way, shape or form and I simply cannot take any chances. You've seen what's happening with JKR and I don't want any repeat of that.
Anyone who discriminates against any of the characteristics in the 2010 Equality Act (such as but not limited to: actively spewing harmful rhetorics, using slurs, threatening people and harassing them, blackmail etc). Occasionally, you will see me make big posts about wanting clarification on things (if you scroll down, you will see my big post where I asked a few radfems to help me understand why they think they way they do). This does NOT mean I will necessarily adopt their ideology at all. This is just because I like to see all sides of an argument, even if it is uncomfortable to read what they have to say. I AM NOT AN EXPERT IN POLITICS AND THEREFORE I MAY SAY THE WRONG THING. CORRECT ME IF I SAY THE WRONG THING. I DON'T WANT TO SPREAD MISINFORMATION.
People who say 'kys' whether in joke form or whatnot are not welcome in the slightest. I have tried (and failed) to attempt three years ago on my DofE bronze expedition and last year before my GCSEs so I know what it's like. You're not funny. You're going to be the reason someone will potentially take their life. Additionally, I also have an ick when people say 'commit suicide' because 'commit' kind of sounds like they're ("they're" = people who are considering to take that step) doing a crime.
Islamophobic people. This one gets a big mention especially because of what's happening in the UK and the USA and basically every other country. I'm not stupid and I know that islamists have been causing HUGE problems but I'm not responsible for 9/11, I'm not responsible for gr00m1ng g@ng5 and I'm not responsible for the Iranian government. Please know the difference between an islamist and a muslim. However, if you're respectful and you want to GENUINELY CRITIQUE Islam, do send me an ask to one of my big posts (if you scroll down). I'm not an Islamic scholar and I most definitely do not know the Qur'an and the hadiths inside-out but I can provide my opinion for you! :3
AI 'artists'. I'm (mostly) sure that you guys aren't actively malicious people (I hope) but please don't interact because AI art overwrites all the hard work and struggle normal artists have to go through and deserve recognition for. It's not about the art, it's about the process and to me, AI art will give people the wrong idea about what it means to make art and leave them thoroughly disappointed.
Trump supporters, please stay a whole entire continent away from me. I don't want a political war here and I'm not going to listen to people who think I should be deported/murdered/r@p3d/whatever bad thing you want to happen to people who don't think like you.
TERFs as well, don't interact. You won't be harming me but you'll be harming some of my moots. I don't want you to reach out to people who you think should be dead because that creates an unsafe environment that will certainly hurt a lot of people.
I will also freely block people on top of this so be nice in general to me and my moots.
To anyone who will try to harass me, my moots or whatever, I will screenshot you and post your messages on my blog and I will be asking people to reblog it so that they know exactly the kind of person you are. If you have nothing nice to say then don't say it at all. I AM NOT ABOVE NAMING AND SHAMING AND I WILL INCLUDE YOUR USERNAME.
Remember how earlier on I said I was rambly because of a very distressing encounter? Get a load of THIS GUY:
^ (basically, if u aren't going to stop your troublemaking even after i try to settle it with u in dms/privately and whatnot, this is what will happen to you as seen above)
Please, please, PLEASE do not give me a reason to put you on the pinboard of shame. The pinboard of shame is a last resort when all other negotiation fails. It only applies to people who are actively trying to be malicious. If you said something questionable, I will ask you about it privately first and if you didn't mean it/didn't know it was hurtful then of course I won't hunt after you!
However, if I say or do something wrong, please call me out (nicely) with an 'excuse me, I noticed you did XYZ and I think this may offend some people because XYZ' and I'll of course apologise and try to make things right. I'm just asking for you to word it nicely and things will be fine!
lucy down here!!
CONTROVERSIAL POSTS!
There is one caveat: I like learning about all sides of an argument. This means that sometimes, I will make separate posts allowing people from the DNI list to interact and they will ONLY be allowed to interact with those posts (I will moderate them really hard and I will vet all their accounts frequently to see if they start harassing my moots). What I will typically ask these people are:
Their opinion.
Why they believe it.
What experiences led them to believe it.
Statistics to back this up and a comprehensive evaulation of the sources of these statistics as well as their credibility.
Additionally, I struggle with telling the tone of people's messages (sarcasm is a little bit of a difficult one for me as well as jokes), therefore I would like you to put tone tags (in brackets) so I can understand your vibe.
EXAMPLE (this is going to be a really bad example and it's not representative of my opinion, I'm doing this to demonstrate what I mean in the bit above):
"muslims are ignorant and they don't listen to other people" <- i'm a muslim, i will feel very targeted by this because i don't know you or your texting style, i don't know if you're being blunt because that's how you are, i don't know if you're trying to actively incite hate towards me and i will assume by default that you are (see the screenshots above and you'll see why i will assume this), it doesn't matter what YOU thought about this comment, it matters what I think about it because I'M on the receiving end
also as well, some of my moots may be hurt by these comments, especially if they're a part of a community you don't like, and they may be worried about you targeting them next, i unfortunately have one mutual who has suffered quite a lot of hate on their blog and i don't want to take any chances
"muslims are ignorant and they don't listen to other people (just a statement, not trying to start a fight)" <- i can tell your intentions and i feel a lot calmer knowing that this is not hate :>
(and fyi, i do agree to an extent with this statement anyway but with the tone tag it's nicer because then i can tell you're not out to get me)
If you think this is stupid then don't bother interacting. I won't entertain you, I will assume that you're trying to pick a bone with me and you should expect me to block you.
I will also be coming down VERY hard on the use of slurs. Anyone who uses slurs will be blocked and reported. This is not a place to shame anyone. This is a place to have a respectful conversation and if you're not capable of that, you need to get off my blog immediately. It doesn't even matter if YOU'RE part of a group that has been targeted by a slur, other people may feel uncomfortable and there are many other ways to phrase things.
The reason why I will be doing this is because I believe that by having these very tricky conversations that one: we can get rid of any preconceived notions that both party will have (often we have stereotypes built in our head and these will immediately be dispelled when we actually talk to each other) and two, this can teach us how to get our opinion across without using foul, derogatory language like slurs. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I WILL CHANGE MY OPINION. MY OPINION WILL STILL STAND. This is purely to understand why people think the way they think and what led them to this point.
I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY ATTEMPT TO CHANGE MY OPINION. I HAVE MADE IT EXPLICITLY CLEAR THAT I AM ONLY INTERESTED IN HEARING YOUR OPINION AND THAT IS IT.
If you want to send harassment towards me/use slurs against me then I'll block you and report you. I'll probably even laugh.
However, if you decide to target one of my mutuals: we're going to have a MASSIVE problem. As I have mentioned before, I will screenshot you and I will NOT scribble out your user. Why? If you're confident enough to post that online, you need to be confident enough to OWN it online, even when you're under fire. I will warn EVERYONE about the kind of person you are and I WILL escalate things extremely quickly to the point where I may even get others to help me gang up on you. I will see what you're up to on other socials and I'll be screenshotting things to use as evidence. I don't care if you want to bully me around but as soon as you hurt one of my friends: you're finished. Consider this your one and only warning. If you cannot swallow your tongue, I will absolutely slander you. Before you lose the whole point of this paragraph and make this about you: I will only attack you like this if you are going to send harassing messages/threats/things like these to my mutuals. Whenever I will make posts like these, I will tell mutuals before making posts like these to filter out any anon asks so you cannot act like a douchebag.
So yeah! Nice to my mooties = no problem!! I'm sure that you can accomplish this!
gabriel and the ferryman :p
About my visual novel game that I'll be releasing:
The game is called Have F.A.I.T.H in me and it's about my ocs! I was super inspired by the Freak Circus (an amazing game made by the even more amazing @nekoboydreams) and I saw a yt short on how to make your own on Google Slides! You'll be seeing a bunch of updates on my strawpage and on Tumblr too such as concept art, scripting, designing backgrounds, the music production and everything else! I may be late on some updates because I have school ;-; but I will always try my best to keep on top of things.
^ Here's an art dump of my OCs (so far). There is more but Tumblr only lets me put 30 images per post :,( I struggle with drawing robots but I do know there's a figure that I based one of my OC's designs off on so if I'm able to get my hands on it, drawing them will be so much easier! (the digital ones were done on microsoft onenote and the traditional ones were done in biro pen)
^ (voyager's getting headpats)
Basically, my game follows part of my OCs' storyline! It'll be made on Google Slides and I'll be writing the story, drawing the characters, drawing the backgrounds, composing the music and everything - all on my own! It's going to incorporate all my favourite artists and photography techniques and have lots of references to all my favourite fandoms! >u< I will be starting work on it soon (I've had a really big project to finish so that's why I haven't been doing much lately) and hopefully I will be able to finish the script by this week!! Sometimes I'll post character designs or sneaky peeks of the script and other times I may post some of the music and stuff too! Lots of the characters are going to be based off real people that I know and are friends with in school! Currently I only have one ending but I have lots of sidequests where you can befriend the other students!
aiger akabane here :>
COMMISSIONS!
Since my parents don't know I have Tumblr (I know, I know, I'm so sneaky aren't I? haha), I can't currently take any payment (unless you are someone I know irl who lives in the same country as I do who can give me actual cash) so if you do want to commission me, here's how you can help:
Reblogging my artwork (I'll be posting lots of art and stuff on here so you can find smth u like and reblog it).
Reblogging my strawpage (that's also a place where you'll be able to find my commission T&Cs that I made for the purpose of protecting my sanity). You can find my strawpage here: https://sleepybeanstudios.straw.page
Recommending me as a commission artist to other people (I'll find a way to do smth abt reviews and stuff so u guys can leave them but in the meantime, please send me your reviews through my strawpage and type in your username as well so I know who you are).
Reblogging stuff about my vn (I know this isn't directly linked to commissions but it will help push my account forward so other people can see that I do commissions).
(eddie the steady <3) ^
Hopefully I will be able to find a way to establish a means of payment and when I do (probably next year when I'm 18 years old because as of now I can't set up a Paypal), I'll be really flexible on the price. Here's what I thought of so far:
I'm willing to negotiate the price if it's above £2. £2 is the minimum. £2 = A5 biro drawing (though not in a realistic style). Sort of like a more serious version of a biro doodle (I'm still trying to work everything out ;-;). I won't be having set prices for most things, the price will depend on how good you think the quality of the work is.
If you don't want to pay, I will do it for free (provided that you do some of the above to help spread my account around).
Typically the bigger the artwork (A3, A2, A1, A0 or larger), the more complex the reference image is and the more difficult the medium (such as oil paints - I have legitimately ruined my throat painting with those things), I will charge more for. I'll try not to be too crazy with the prices.
I'm British (so my prices will be in pounds/£). Therefore, I may need to use a converter to see how much I will be getting for my artwork if anyone is ordering from overseas.
All of this will be on my strawpage which I will update as well as on a word document (I'll find a way to put it up on here and on my strawpage for a comprehensive list of everything.
REBLOGS ARE SUPER DUPER APPRECIATED!! THANKS!! :D
calne ca down below :D
Goodbye (for now)!
I think that's basically everything for now. I don't know what else to put into this big post. Just be a nice person to the people you find on here and you can enjoy some updates, rants, reblogs and silly art (I actually need to start posting art so I don't freaking forget)!!
I will make a moot list separately as well as other things too like a commissions page, bucket list etc.
Thanks for listening to my goofy ahh TED Talk. :p
bravern over here >w<
