“If I open up my hands will you fill them again?”
I feel this phrase from the will Reagan song: ‘If I give it all to you’ Has been a large part of my life since I got to France. Now with Croatia on the horizon (Literally I’m on the plane there), I feel I’m in a good place.
When I came to France I had to surrender my plans of going to Croatia. Being a man who takes comfort in having a plan in front of him, I was really pushed out of my comfort zone. I had to open up my hands and release my initial plan of Croatia to him. I then replaced the plan with another that was pretty appealing to me: going to live in Caen.
I also felt the call from God to release this plan into his hands. But now I look at it, I’m not releasing it into the hands of some feeble and selfish God who is going to send me somewhere I don’t want to go. No, I’m releasing it into the hands of a strong and wise God, who knows what is best for me and always does things for the good of those who love him. God put both of those things back into my hands, only the plans are now not the same as when I made them, they are now blessed.
I chose to sacrifice my ideas and passions to him, the plans he put back into my hands I could then accept with a more Godly maturity and spiritual excitement, and I could move into those plans with a larger spiritual excitement.
God in his grace provided me with an amazing French former missionary for a roommate, who with his servant heart offered a room in his new apartment in Caen to me, with a small amount of money per month as a token of appreciation.
God has transformed my relationships, he’s encouraged me to evolve my relationships with other members of the student group in Caen, and with the addition of routine prayer into my life since January, I’ve made sure to pre arrange routinely prayer with other members of Gods kingdom in Caen.
So when I get back I will move in Caen, thank you Jesus for you steadfast provision. So where do I take this new found wisdom: “If I open up my hands will you fill them again”
I attempt to remove all preconceptions, as on this plane to Croatia, I challenge myself and Jorit to give absolute and full control to God. We have two and a half weeks and that is a large window for God to work in.
We will open up our hands, and God will take what we plan from us, and replace it with his sovereign will. We will do everything we can to follow him, draw near to the heart of God, and push the boat out that little bit further if we can.
