#sky casper

Alright bare with me boys, I've been hanging out with some awesome people tonight and I've had a few drinks... I had a night that was overdue... My friend Chris makes the best taco dip ever and it's pretty much better then sex... I mean that doesn't mean a lot coming from me considering I don't have sex but it was amazing... and I had a great time tonight. I just got out of the hot tub (it's 3:23am) and I just got into my friends bed and I am exhausted.

I had work from 9-5 again and it wasn't too bad... I thought about a lot of club stuff. Had some delicious pizza. Then I went home and I got two homework assignments done and finished two paragraphs of my essay!!! I'm so happy that I was productive. My day wasn't too fun today...

I noticed that I've had a very short temper lately... I don't know why... maybe I need to better my people skills. I've noticed that I might also have to disconnect from Facebook for a while because I spend way too much time on it when I should be doing homework... I think I rather leave time to hang with my friends rather than wasting my time on Facebook. I might need to get everyones email from Facebook if I disconnect from it...

Today I worked from 9am to 5pm, spent my first hour of work doing pointless things on the computer, had chinese for lunch which made me sick and then completed miscellaneous tasks for the rest of my work day. When I got out of work I was determined to go home and get a lot of preparation for my essay done tonight because I slept most of yesterday evening… Lets just say that it was a lot easier said than done… I can easily say I didn’t get much done tonight, I can’t tell you what I was doing that made tonight so unproductive, or I could give you a list of things…

I was just looking on Twitter for the first time in months and I was stalking people, like I usually do, and I came across this boy who spoke terrible English. The way he spoke annoyed the living shit out of me. He was one of those people that come up with all of those stupid terms for smoking or getting high and used all these slang words that a white boy like me can’t understand… I’M REALLY WHITE! Then I saw this one tweet from him that said “If I wife a bitch, she better be a rider,” I was speechless, I felt so much hate for him… I don’t know if it is only be but I hate him and I don’t even know him. So I was like, alright… I hate you, I am leaving your page, needless to say, I left his page…

On another topic, tonight I have been craving food all night… I need more food in my life, I think if I stop eating I’m going to end up like that lady from Family Guy where she falls through the cracks in the floor or gets carried away by the draft in the room. I find my self always hungry and it is so bad at work, and at home. It gives me a reason to go down stairs, look through my kitchen and waste more time that I should be spending productively working on my essay…

So if you didn’t get the hint already, the kicking of my essays ass was not successful, it may be kicking my ass!

I ALMOST FORGOT! Tonight I watched the newest episode of The Vampire Diaries (TVD), like always… (All the cool kids do it). And it was WONDERFUL as always. So pretty much the only thing keeping me sane at this point are my friends, and of course TVD, The Originals and Bar Rescue. These are my favorite shows ever… TVD and The Originals give me all the drama I could ever ask for without being involved (Although I wish I was a vampire that would be fucking awesome) and Bar Rescue gives me the sense of productivity, learning a little about my dream while taking a breather from life.

So I did learn something today (Yes, surprising) and I’d like to share it with everyone because I thought it was pretty interesting… A crocodile can’t move its tongue or chew; its digestive juices are so strong that it can digest a steel nail.

Another quote that kind of relates to the one I had in my last post is “You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep rereading the last one.” I am absolutely done with rereading, I am moving to the next chapter of my life, as a better and improved Sky. I give this advice to some of my friends who let things from the past bother them every day. Please be happy. <3

I really hate night time, especially when I'm alone. I like to think that locking my door will protect me from anything but having someone I love next to me would do a much better job of that.

Today started a little slow... I went to sleep really late and I haven't been getting much rest. I believe in productivity, I am always trying to be as productive with my time as possible, and I feel like sleeping is a waste. Just the preparation for this essay I was assigned in my composition II class is a challenge for me, and I'm worried about actually writing it. I've found my self doing whatever it takes to procrastinate on it, but in the end, it will have to get done and I'd like to see the sun this weekend... I miss a lot of my friends, I've been thinking about a lot of people lately and some of it is positive things. I thought I would let everyone know that I may not tell everyone how much I actually appreciate them, but everyone who makes me smile has a place in my heart.

I've spent too much time thinking about those that aren't worth my time, those who have wronged me... What my friend Eric Poulin said to me the other day was, "Your time is something you can never take back once you give it away." This really opened my eyes and made me realize that I shouldn't think of the past, I should think of the future and how I'm going to improve my self. I should only spend my time with those who matter to me and who improve me as a person. I'm going to think of those who are important in my life NOW, and not who was in the PAST.

Unfortunately, I can't help but think about this boy, and it depresses me. I know he is not good news, I do not trust him and there is no chance that things will ever be the same. The weird thing is, since I feel more comfortable with him, since I already know him, I have found my self wanting him. Not wanting him sexually, more like wanting to hold him and wanting him to make me smile, just having someone. Maybe I'm scared to meet someone new... I've had pretty bad luck with those that make me smile lately, I guess it is me. I guess I've been pretty distracted lately with homework so I haven't thought about it as much but maybe I want something... But I don't think I've accepted that thought because I want to be independent.

I was going to go to sleep early tonight due to lack of sleep but I felt that I needed to vent and what better way then to vent than on my first post on Tumblr! On another note, today in my business class the subject was marketing. I absolutely LOVE marketing and the idea of it, I think I should look into a marketing job. Part of my job when running my club will be the marketing aspect so I can kill two birds with one stone! I have been thinking about the production of my club a lot lately and I am just really excited about it. I've been talking about aspects of my club with friends and getting ideas and thoughts on my ideas; it makes me happier than a giddy school girl.

ON AN END NOTE: When you say something about someone, think about how it makes them feel first, and another thing, don't be anyone but yourself.