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To love is to understand, and Dr. Veritas Ratio can't help but try to understand you. Although it might prove to be more difficult than he anticipated.
OR
A continuation of Needles and Pins
wc - 6.6k
tw - Alcohol/Social Drinking
A/N - Part two of my Dr. Ratio character study, this time inspired by Blur by The MarĂas
It was a manifesto.Â
The âStar Litâ Genius had written a manifesto.
It hadnât hit him until he was five chapters inâconsuming your every word. It all makes sense, though. Of course, it makes sense, the doctor thinks to himself.Â
With the minds that geniuses have, he never thought heâd get a look into one. Hell, it was hard understanding his own mundane mind at times. But a manifesto? Heâd never thought you were a scholar to write such a thing. He berates himself for coming to such a conclusion, though, it being the second time heâs been wrong about you. The second time, heâs underestimated you.Â
You had written down your thoughts, philosophies, and beliefs and simplified them so that any ordinary person could understand themâso that he could understand you.Â
Having an intelligent mind was one thing, but it took an articulate one to get those thoughts on paper.Â
Maybe that was the difference between you and himâwhy you were a genius and he wasnâtâwhy you climbed, while he stayed stagnant.Â
Itâs been three months since youâve given him your mind nestled in the form of ink on paper, and for three months heâs been reading and trying to understand your words.Â
The Doctor has never had the time to binge it. Most nights, he falls asleep at his desk, swamped by the recent influx of his workload.Â
But some nights he finds himself flipping the pages of your gift in utter captivation; sacrificing his scheduled eight hours of sleep to grasp a fraction of who you really are. The conclusion heâs come to:Â
You must talk a lot.Â
And you do. To an extent that is. He sees you conversing with other professors and researchers, getting to know them gradually over time. He watches intently.Â
But it is when Veritas finds himself in your company that questions and banter often follow.Â
âWhat are you doing?âÂ
He finds you in one of the many common areas around. The familiar sound of chalk on slate reverberated in the room. He watches as you frantically place number after number, equation after equation, on the chalkboard before you.Â
You donât turn your head to acknowledge his presence. But you acknowledge his question with a question of your own. âWhat do you mean?âÂ
Ratio sighs in annoyance before placing his belongings on the table closest to him. He walks to you, his height creating a shadow on the chalkboard. He looks down at you momentarily before crossing his arms and moving his gaze to the numbers you write.Â
âI thought you hated math,â he states matter-of-factly. In his defense, it was a fact. Your words, not his. Page 142, actually. Although he hasnât gotten to the chapter where you explain whyâŚbut thatâs of no importance.Â
âYes, I hate it.âÂ
His gaze shifts to you at your response, allowing him to see the ever-growing smirk that takes over your lips. âDoesnât mean I canât do it, Doctor,â you say teasingly.Â
Ratioâs hands go to his hips as he sends a glare to the back of your head. He swears you feel it too, with the way your cheeks rise due to your growing smile. Even after his and your âamendingâ conversation those months ago, you still manage to agitate him to no end with every spontaneous conversation you two have.Â
âLooks like you still have some more reading to do.â You chuckle, putting the chalk down and dusting off your fingertips.Â
You finally turn around to face him. You pause for a moment. A moment so small that some may not even notice. Veritas notices. He notices how you quickly look him up and down, taking in his presence. But just as quickly as your gaze takes him in, itâs gone. And your eyes meet his, like it never happened. âAnother professor told me of an upcoming banquet with the IPC,â you declared. Â
Ratio has to compose himself. He has to quickly uncurl and de-tangle the knots that had formed in his stomach from your gaze. What a feeling. What a weird feeling.Â
OddâŚ
Perhaps heâs fallen ill? He swipes a hand across the lower half of his face. âWell, yesâŚâ He says uninterestedly in the new topic of conversation.
 âIt's an event that the IPC and Intelligencia Guild hold every year in order to honor our⌠â He pauses briefly, trying to think of an accurate word to describe the relationship between the two organizations. ââŚpartnership,â he finally settles on. âAll are to attend.â He sighs. âItâs quite bothersome.â
As he talks, you make your way closer to the table. You sit across from him and fold your arms. âIs the food good?â You ask.Â
He's shocked. What an utterly plain question. He begins to stutter. âWell- I- Iâve never thought to pay any mind to i-â
âIs it any fun?â You interrupt.Â
An even more confused look crosses the doctorâs face. âFun is subjective, as you know.â His hands become animated as he continues. âHowever, watching people stuff their faces and dance isn't my idea of âfun.ââ He ends his sentence with a bold pair of air quotes. âThe whole thing is⌠redundant and unnecessary.âÂ
When Veritas finally looks back at you, youâre smiling. That oh-so-stupid smile on your face. Heâs realized now from your few conversations with each other that itâs the smile that appears when heâs about to be outwitted.Â
âMaybe you should try doing those things instead of just watching. Some fun will surely come of it.â
Ratio hitches an elbow on the back of his seat, his hand placed firmly on the table. He begins to rebut, but is shut up by your sudden movement. You rise from your chair and walk over to his side of the table. Your hair falls as you lean down to eye level with him, your forearms placed nicely on the table as you do so.Â
Youâre close. Too close for comfort.Â
His brows furrow. His movements stiffen.Â
âYouâll be there though, right?â Your smile hasnât faltered as you stare into his eyes.Â
Ratio is quick to answer. âAs I said before, itâs mandatory.â The syllables of the last word roll off his tongue in slight annoyance.Â
Your smile widens, and you cock your head to the side as you continue to stare at him, waiting for him to give it to you straight.Â
He sighs with a touch to his brow. âIâll be there.âÂ
All you do is stand up from your former position. placing a gentle hand on his shoulder, your smile never wavering.Â
âPerfect.â
It is later that Ratio finds himself flipping through your chapter about the connection between math and creativity.Â
âMath is beautiful. There is always a correct answer. That is what makes it so appealing to geniuses. You are either right or wrong when it comes to math. However, this is what makes it so incredibly boring. There is so little freedom.âÂ
He scoffs, lightly tossing the book on his coffee table. Everything he reads about you irks him to no end. You are intriguing, no doubt. However, it takes everything in him not to feel utterly frustrated with you. Every time he feels he finally understands you, you are there to refute his thinking, whether it be in person or in writing. It's mentally exhausting.Â
Is this how his peers felt about him at university?Â
A majority of the time, he sees you in group settings, conversing with your colleagues. He doesn't bother coming up to you when you are. But when he catches you by yourself, he makes an effort to come up to you. Not because he values your company, of course. Itâs to see if heâs right about you. Nothing else. Naturally.Â
Ratio passes you many times before the banquet. And every time he is met with a small, eager wave, smile. or conversation.Â
Naturally, itâs the conversations that intrigue him the most.Â
"Really? A manifesto?â He questions. You jump slightly at his sudden appearance behind you. Your pencil clatters on the large parchment before you.Â
Heâs startled you. It wasnât his intention. He would apologize; however, the work before you intrigues him as he briefly glances over your shoulder. Youâre mapping constellations during lunch. Itâs complex but interesting. Another thing he wonât understand about you.Â
You turn quickly, papers in hand. âIâm not sure I follow.â
His eyes snap back to you. âYou most certainly do.â He huffs. AccusatoryÂ
Although startled, you meet his gaze with a small smile and your full attention once youâve realized itâs him.Â
Ratio shakes a book in his hand, your book. A small frown presents on his face.Â
âWhat did you think it was?â You turn back to your work. His eyes still only have the pleasure of seeing your back as you continue to use your comically large ruler. Your shoulders rise as you chuckle.
Ratio rests his chin on the palm of his hand. He doesnât know what he expected, but it certainly wasnât this. He doesnât answer your question; instead, he asks a new one.Â
âWhy?âÂ
âWhy?â You question. You chuckle to yourself.. âWhy not, doctor?â You place down your pencil and ruler. âI thought you wanted to understand me. What I wrote years ago seemed like the easiest and straightforward way.âÂ
You were right once again. Giving him a book was the most clear-cut way of answering his questions. But something in him wanted more.Â
âThat dayâŚwhen you handed me this book, you had said you had too much empathy.âÂ
âThat I did,â you gesture for him to take a seat beside you at the long table. He obliges.Â
Ratio folds his arms. âIf that were the case, Nous wouldnât have dared pay you any mind. Explain,â he demands. Â
You lean back in your chair, your elbow propped up in the armrest. âI said I âhaveâ. Not, âhadâ.âÂ
He glares at you in curiosity. He expects more. He wants to hear more, and he knows that you can tell. Â
You sigh and roll your chair, closing the distance between you and him.Â
âI once was a dog. They told me to bark and I barked.â You scoot your belongings closer to his side and begin to continue your work. âDogs donât question why they are fed, or pet, or adored. They accept it.â
Ratio stares at you intently.Â
âEven the most brilliant minds can be blind to their own chains that hold them down. We are human after all. Sometimes we are our own undoing.â
âWhat broke your chains?âÂ
âYouâre mistaken, Doctor.â You lean just a bit closer to him. He can feel the warmth radiating from your body. Your eyes look him up and down playfully with a smirk. âI simply metamorphosed into a different dog. Whether it was something too big to be contained or too small to fit those chains is up for you to decipher.â
That day, by your side at that table scattered with maps of the stars, Ratio realizes that this is what was missing. This is what he wanted. Conversing with you was better than any book you could give him.Â
So he continues.Â
He asks question after question whenever he can get some time with you. Sometimes itâll be in the library or your office, but most of the time itâs in one of the spare study rooms at the Intelligencia Guild, where you eat your lunch.Â
Your lunch that you meticulously prepare the same every day and consists of the same mealâa sandwich, without the crust. Sometimes you change what kind, but he doesnât ask about it. There are much better questions to ask. So, he asks them.Â
âWhy donât you have a partner?â He questions one day.Â
Your eyes quickly flicker to his amber ones, and in that moment, he realizes his grammatical mistake.
âA Lab Partner that is. A-uh colleague you work with.â He doesnât dare look at you. He instead looks down at the sandwich you bring every day for lunch that rests on the table in front of him. No crust. As per usual.Â
You pretend not to see his ears burn bright red.Â
âThe same reason you donât have a partner.â You reply. âIâm too smart.â You punctuate your sentence with a quick wink.Â
Your answers are always straightforwardâto the point. He enjoys that. Another day, he asks you a different question. âYou have a doctorate.â He starts as he crosses his arms. âMultiple evenâŚYet you go by professor. Why is that?â
You offer him some fruit before you answer. âEveryone knows Iâm a doctor. Professor is a new title. Iâll flaunt it till I bore of it.âÂ
He canât argue with your logicâso he doesnât. One day, he finds you in your usual spot. However, you donât greet him. You instead favor the stacks of paper that lie on the tabletop. Ratio thinks nothing of it. Deadlines for the quarter are coming up soon. It would do him some good to partake in the work he has to do as well.Â
He sits down in his designated spot at the wooden table. He didnât watch but instead hears your efforts by the scratching of your pen. The lack of talking bothers him not, but the unopened container beside you does.Â
Not an unusual occurrence. After your conversation, you both would either start working or leave the room to attend to other matters
But this time itâs a bit different. You seem a bit stressed. Perhaps the new work environment has caused you a bit of discomfort. But it seems youâre handling yourself well.Â
He moves his chair closer and reaches for the container. He knows what lies underneath the lid by the colorâitâs your lunch, or rather, the sandwich you prepare every day. You donât even notice that he takes it Â
He opens it, but something is amiss. Itâs there; however, the crust isnât meticulously cut off. He arches a brow while reaching for a knife to cut it for you. Once done, he puts the knife back. He places the lid to cover the sandwich, but does not completely shut it.Â
He sits back down. âYou should eat something. Even an intelligent mind cannot run on âE, ââ he says.Â
You look up a bit startled. It seems you forgot he even entered the room.Â
You give a weak smile. He hates that he notices it. âI suppose youâre right.âÂ
You reach for the knife, but once you open the lid of the container, you realize there is no need for it. Realizing is already cut for you, you look up at the Doctor. He digs through his own lunch now.Â
He feels your eyes on him and glances at you. âWhat? I thought you didnât eat the crust?â
You stare. Silently.Â
âWhat, youâve magically decided to change your ways today? I canât win with you, I-â
âNo, itâsâŚâ You continue to look at him, and his heart goes straight to his stomach. He felt strange as your eyes bore into his. Hot. Stiff.Â
The corners of your lips reach your eyes once again. âIâŚThank you, Veritas.âÂ
His eyebrows rise and fall, not expecting such outright gratitude. He tilts his head slightly and gives you a nod.Â
 âYouâre welcome, Professor.âÂ
â â ***
The banquet isâŚ
Entirely what Veritas expected.Â
It's bustling with people; a social networking party disguised as a banquet. People eat, drink, dance, but most converse.Â
He knew he shouldnât have trusted your judgment.Â
And youâre not even here. Ratio stands alone, observing others in a suit of velvet. Itâs been weeks since he last saw youâweeks since he cut the crust off your sandwich and felt all hot and sweaty because of it.Â
The quarter is over. Deadlines have arrived. And the workload has lessened significantly.Â
You should be able to cut your own sandwiches now.Â
Thereâs a tap on his shoulder. And when Ratio turns around, heâs frozen in place. Youâre right before him, staring into his eyes with a smile. Your usual attire of blouses, blazers, and slacks is traded for something a bit more form-fitting. A shimmering navy blue dress with a silk shawl wrap in the same color.Â
He opens his mouth to speak, but you beat him to it. And he is ever so grateful for it.Â
âYou look dashing,â you give him a wink as you brush off his shoulder.
He nods to you. âAnd you look striking,â he compliments as he looks down at you.Â
You both sit down, chat, and drink all while grazing on hors dâoeuvres. You tell him thereâs a telescope on the roof of this IPC meeting hall. You two point out past colleagues, telling each other stories of their feats or lack thereof. Time seems to slow down as Ratio talks to you in a noneducational setting.Â
But the bubble bursts, and time starts again as a glittering figure comes into Ratoâs vision.Â
âBeautiful professor. Long time no see. How is school life treating you?âÂ
Ratio looks the man before him up and down. His usual colorful attire is substituted for something a bit more formal, but still flashy nonetheless.Â
You use your glass of champagne in an attempt to hide your amusement. âYou flatter me, Aventurine.â You stand up quickly to greet him, and Ratio follows suit.Â
The blond raises his glasses to rest on the crown of his head. âOnly the best for the new addition to the IPC family.âÂ
The Doctor watches as Aventurine reaches out for your hand, you give it to him graciously, and he plants a delicate kiss on it. His brow furrows slightly, but quickly relaxes.Â
âYou two⌠know each other?â Ratio questions, confusion blatant in his eyes.Â
Aventurine laughs, seemingly at his perplexed expression. âWhy of course, Doctor. With how much of a good investment she isâŚâ Aventurine glances back at you.Â
With a small chuckle, you wave your hand and turn your head in faux shyness.
ââŚhow could anyone in the Strategic Investment Department not know the Star Lit Genius?â
âI do wish you would drop that title, Aventurine.â You take a small sip from your glass. âI am âGeniusâ no more.â
âAww,â he whines as he pulls your hand a bit closer. Aventurine's thumb rubs small circles atop it, and he says your first name.Â
Ratio watches your name roll off his lips.Â
The way he says it is so flirtatious, so mischievous, soâŚseductive, that it leaves a bad taste in his mouth. It catches him off guard. He has read your name so many times, but has yet to hear it out loud before.Â
âIs that better?â Aventurine questions with a wink.Â
You turn to him with a daring smile. âMuch.âÂ
Aventurine lets go of your hand, but not before giving it one more small kiss. âHow about a dance with the professor?â Aventurine asks you, but then he turns to Ratio. âThat is, if you donât mind, Doctor.â Â
Ratio's mind is startled by the sudden attention, but he answers nonetheless. âHave at it, you know I donât dance.â He says as he takes a sip of his champagne.Â
Aventurine's attention goes back to you with a smirk.Â
âHow could I ever decline?â You answer as you set your glass down with one hand and offer the other to Aventurine.Â
You both take a quick, gleeful glance at Ratio, and then he watches the two of you go off to the dance floor.
 Itâs electric. Captivating. The way you two fit each other. He watchesâirritatedâtaking sip after sip of the alcohol he so greatly frowned upon previously for its tacky taste.Â
You complement each other wellâyou on his arm. Or rather, him on yours. With the presence you exude and high standing amongst everyone else here, you practically wear Aventurine like an accessory. He looks just like a pretty face that makes you look even more breathtaking. The Doctor wonders how others would view you if he were the one on your arm instead.
He chokes.Â
Startled by his own thoughts. He shakes his wandering thoughts away just as quickly as they came. He takes another sip of his drink to make sure theyâre gone, but his eyes continue to steal glances through the crowd of the two of you dancing as he walks to find another area to sit downÂ
â â ***
You are the one to find him once againâor rather, sneak up on him again.Â
âHaving fun?â You ask as you stand behind his seated body.Â
He turns his head to look up at you with his brows raised in surprise. You smile sweetly and make your way around the lounge couch to sit across from him.Â
Itâs loud in here. The music that plays is calming but prominent. He canât hear the click-clack of your heels that usually echo the hallways. But itâs more peaceful than the main lobby, where the dancing and loud chatter are going on.Â
âItâs not terrible,â He responds, his shoulder shrugs in indifference. âAre you? Dancing must have been fun for you.âÂ
Your eyebrows raise at the question. âOh yes,â you smile. âAventurine is a very good dancer, but that comes as no surprise. Do you dance, Doctor?â
This question wouldnât have startled him if you had not practically jumped out of the seat and lowered a hand to him, inviting him to the floor.Â
He scoffs and stretches his arms across the backrest. âYou donât want to dance with me.â
âWhy wouldnât I?â
The Doctor looks at your extended hand and then back to you. âWell, for one, Iâm no charmer. And twoâŚI donât kiss hands,â he says with a knowing smirk, subtly jabbing at Aventurineâs affectionate greeting.
You roll your eyes playfully and then meet his gaze. âYou donât have to kiss my hand to charm me. You saying yes would do that just fine.â
His breath catches as you just smile at him, your hand never moving from in front of him. He takes it quickly so that you can guide him to the dance floorânot wanting you to see the creeping blush that overtakes his cheeks. Not because of his eagerness. No, never that.Â
Another calming song starts to play in the lounge, and Ratio begins to reach for your hip and hand as the first note of the piano starts to play. You place your hand on his shoulder and your palm in his. Your hand is warm, he notices; your gentle touch burning his body all over. He finds some reprieve when you both start swaying, then a light step forward.Â
The two of you dance for a while, but your eyes rarely meet. Sometimes he glances at you, and all you wear is a content smile with your eyes down.Â
The Doctor decides to break the silence and speak. âYou outwit me at times.â
When your head shoots up to look at him in response, his brain feels like itâs going to crumble. Why would he say that? It was just the first thing on his mind. Do people even talk while dancing? He saw you doing it with Aventurine. Maybe this is the wrong song to talk to someone while dancing.Â
You let out a laughâa laugh is a response to his statementâa laugh that lets him know that you know you do.Â
Ratio lets out something in between a chuckle and a sigh of relief. âI donât know whether I find it insufferable orâŚâ He trails.Â
Attractive.Â
âCharming.â He settles.Â
âWhoa ho,â you yelp as you suddenly lean backwards. âIâm charming to THE Veritas Ratio? What an honor, doc,â you tease.Â
âDonât let it get to your head.â He turns his neck to face away from you. But you give his shoulder a tight squeeze.Â
âIt already has.â You gleefully say with a smirk.Â
He smiles subtly as he continues his thought. âMy former self envies you.âÂ
Thereâs a beat of silenceâand Aeons above does he feel like heâs said the most heinous thing imaginable.Â
He watches as your eyebrows raise is surprise, and thereâs an intrigued look that washes over your illuminated features.Â
âBut not your current?â You inquire. Â
âNo.â He answers, almost too quickly.Â
âWhy?âÂ
âBecause I have realized I am where I belong.âÂ
You tilt your head ever so slightly. âWhy is that?â
He shifts in his tailored suit. The question startles him, but he doesnât dare to show it.Â
I now like where I belong. And I donât think Iâd ever give it up, especially now.Â
Especially with you here.Â
At least that is what he would have said had you not cut him off. Â
And if he had the courage.Â
âYou donât have to answer that,â you reply quickly. Your eyes fall down again, almost as if you had sensed it was too personal of a question.Â
Maybe heâs glad for it. Heâd rather not sound sappy in front of you. However, when your head lowers down again, he swears he would say all thatâs on his mind if only you would look up again. Look up at him.
So he answers your question truthfully.Â
Well, partially.Â
âI have realized I am where I belong because I can now do the things that I love.âÂ
He is at his fullest potential here at the Intelligencia Guild.Â
You nod in response while continuing to follow his lead. âIs that why you didnât like me at firstâŚyou didnât think I belonged?âÂ
He shakes his head, and his hand squeezes yours slightly. âI hate seeing wasted potential.âÂ
Thatâs what heâs able to see. Itâs his center. When he sees the potential in his students, it sparks something in him. Potential to learnâpotential to teach.Â
âHow do you know that my potential is wasted here?â You cock your head to the side.Â
He sighs and shifts in his seat. âThat I do not know.âÂ
âI see⌠â Your words trail off as you swirl your drink in your hands. âDo you think your own skills are wasted here?â
âI think I'm where I belong.â He reiterates immediately.Â
âAnd I am not?â
âIâm not sure.â
âI told you why I belong. Do you not remember?â
âI do.â And he does. Your heart is why you belong. The same heart he swore you didnât have. Your love for others, for knowledge, for growth. Thatâs why you belong. But the Doctor canât imagine that he belongs somewhere where you do.Â
âAnd if I were to leaveâŚâ Your voice snaps him out of his trailing thoughts. âUse my skills elsewhere. What would you do?âÂ
You take a moment to look him in his eyes. Thereâs no specific emotion on display, just a questionâonly a question.
Thereâs a beat of silence as he looks down at you. The song in the background no longer swells with emotion, but calms down.Â
âI would bid you farewell,â he says. ââŚand wish you the best.â
âThatâsâ all?â Your voice is quieter, timid. You look down once again, and the song slowly comes to an end. Your hands remove themselves from his shoulder and fingertips. The warmth that once set his body ablaze had become all too familiar. In the absence of it, he feels cold. You take a step back from him and smile weakly.Â
âPity.â Is all you say, and then your footsteps trail off and intertwine with the new song that starts to play. Â
When you leave, his heart his racing. His face is flushed. Neck and palms are sweaty. Ratio stands there, confused and unsettled. He watches as your dress shimmers in the light. It twinkles like stars in a distant galaxy out of reach.Â
Is that not what you wanted to hear? He had followed the script. What had happened?Â
He had said before that any organization in the world would fight to have your skills. All you had to do was say the word. You could go anywhere, anywhere at all. And he would cheer you on, his colleagueâhis friend. He would do it no matter how badly he wanted to keep your company. No matter how badly he wanted to ask you more questions. No matter how bad (although he would never admit it), he didnât mind serving you a freshly cut sandwich and seeing that look on your face.Â
No matter how bad his heart really wanted you to stay and be mediocre with him.Â
He would let you go.Â
Perhaps what you asked was not only a question.Â
â â ***
This time, he finds you.Â
But itâs not until heâs three glasses of wine in that he remembers where you might be.Â
The night had gone on. He talked to other guild members, heard the mindless chirping of an elder professor, and signed a few autographs for some IPC members. He had used the first glass of wine to relax and think about what had happened whilst his hand held yours. The second was to get through the endless conversations that arose while looking for you. He had given up by the third glass, drinking it to untangle the weird knot that refused to leave his stomach.Â
 It is while heâs talking to a former colleague that he remembers your earlier mention of the telescope on the roof of the building. He gives them a polite but eager âExcuse me,â and races off to the roof. Heâs surprised to find out that your interest is not actually on the roof, but one of the many roofs of this outlandishly tall building. Turns out, reading placards on the wall while shoving through people with dim lighting is not for the weak. But when he finds the door roof he was looking for, the knot tangles more at the thought of you actually being there. And when he opens the doors, it doesnât disappear, because youâre here before him, hunched over the eyepiece.Â
The warm air outside hits him as he makes his way through the large metal doors and to you. His half-full wineglass is still in hand when he does. You turn back briefly to see who has found you, and then back. He can feel the wine fueling his emotions as he gets closer, a tingling sensation overtaking his body along with frustration.Â
He acts on it.Â
âI have decided, professor.âÂ
You quirk your eyebrow and wonder what heâs referring to. He sits behind you on the patio furniture. âThe day I asked what broke your chains. You told me Iâd have to figure it out. I now know.â His voice is sharp around the edges. He doesnât know if itâs from the strange feelings inside of him or the alcohol that circulates in his bloodstream. He continues.Â
âI have decided you have shifted into something too small to fit the chains you once wore.â
âDo elaborate,â you entertain him, not once looking away from the telescope you fiddle with. âIâm intrigued how you came to such a conclusion.âÂ
The tension between you two has been lifted from before on the dance floor.Â
âYou still have respect.âÂ
âFor who?â
âFor everyone. For science. For creativity. For yourself.â Ratio crosses his legs, continuing. âYou are nimble. You donât need to break a chain to be noticedâŚâÂ
Before, he would keep his words to himself. But the wine has given him some courage. So he spits out the truth.Â
âYouâre far too smart to put in such effort.âÂ
Your hunched form straightens at his words. You smile and finally look at him the first time since heâs entered those doors. âThen how smart are you for freeing your chains significantly sooner than I?â
He takes a sip of his wine and shifts in his seat. âI have a feeling I've only just bent them.â
You smile and walk over to where he sits. Youâre closer this time. Instead of sitting across from him, you sit next to him on the patio sofa. You pick up your own drink you had been drinking, and lean back.Â
Youâre waiting. He knows you are. Waiting for him to speak first. He guesses thatâs only fair since he came to you. So he speaks.Â
And heâs unsure what comes out of his mouth until he sees your eyes widen.Â
âI think I hate you, Professor.âÂ
He leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees, and turns to you.Â
âHmmâŚ?â
âI hate you.â And then the words start falling out his mouth like thereâs no tomorrow.Â
âI hate how clever your tongue is.â
I hate how you outwit meÂ
âI hate all the questions you ask.â
I hate how you challenge my mind more than anyoneÂ
âI hate how bossy you are.â
I hate how I crumble at your ask
I hate how my chest constricts when youâre nearÂ
I hate how, after the hurtful words Iâve said to you, you still stare at me now with nothing but kindness in your eyes. All after Iâve said I hate you.
âI dislike you, Professor.â
You nod while folding your arms. You look up at him and scoff, though it closely resembles a chuckle. âAnd here I thought we were finally becoming friends, Veritas. Yet, Iâm still something you dislike? What happened?â
He notices how you refer to yourself as something rather than someone. As if youâre a subject to be taught. He knows one thing for sure. You certainly are something.Â
He glares at you. As if youâve done something wrong. You have. Your very being perplexes him. Your motives, although figured ou,t bring forth a feeling in him that he canât describe. Itâs a new feeling. One heâs never felt. He's wary of it. All that he knows is that he wishes he had more.Â
âOh, is that what we are?â You turn your head to laugh. Your smile is saccharine. âColleagues?â
âI dislike you, Professor.â That is all that he can say in response.Â
âBut yet you drink with me.â
He folds his arms. âI sit here because. I wanted to understand you.As Iâve told you before. I dislike things I cannot understand.âÂ
You take a sip of your own glass and swirl the liquid around. âBut youâre trying to understand?â
He freezes at your implication. He's trying to understand you. Heâs trying not to dislike you.Â
Ratio groans. âWhy must you ask so many questions?â
âHow do you think I became a genius?â
You shift your position and inch closer to where he sits. âI gave you that book so you could understand meâŚVeritas.â
The sound of his name makes his face heat up.Â
âI gave you the answers to questions you might have not even thought of yet. And the ones you did ask I answered openly and honestly.â Thereâs a crease between your brows, and Veritas fears it may break him.Â
You had given him the key to understanding yourself. And what had he given you? What had he shared?Â
âWhy does anyone ask questions, Doctor?âYou look at him expectantly.Â
He feels as if heâs been brought back to his youth. A schoolboy answering his professor's question.Â
He tries to subtly gulp, and fails miserablyâhis face flushed. âTo understand, Professor.â He practically spits out your title.Â
You smile at his answer, and something in him breaks. Why had he said such things? What was he doing? He hated this feeling but craved more of it.Â
âIâm sorry,â he says. His brows scrunched up. Face hot and red. He is. Heâs sorry for everything heâs done.Â
You shake your head, dismissing his words.Â
âI want to understand youâŚ.â He looks down at you, his heart beating loudly.
There's tension once again. But not the way it was before.Â
No, it's in a different way. In the way that he can smell the lingering scent of your perfume from how close you two are. In the way he can feel your body heat radiating off of you. In the way that this wine that he had drunk is making him think of the irrational possibility that you're getting closer and closer to his lips.Â
He wants to move closer, but he canât. The wine has given him some courage. But not enough.Â
âWill youâŚlet me understand you, Veritas?âÂ
Youâre a breath away now, and all he can do is look at your lips and eyes. You grab his chin, your thumb skims over the skin there.Â
And the wine must finally have its grasp on him. Because he mutters something heâd never thought heâd say out loud.Â
âPleaseâŚâÂ
âPlease do.â He practically whines.Â
And then your lips are on his. One of his hands reaches for your jaw, the other your thigh, and he starts to think.Â
He thinks of all the time heâs had with you. That he would let you ask as many questions as you like if it meant you understood his nature.Â
Although your Star Lit title was thrown to the shadows, a title he fought for, yearned for, begged forâwith every delicious swipe of your tongue across his lips. With every cautious, but eager, touch he lays across your body. With every clank of teeth, Veritas Ratio can feel himself slowly being understood by you. Geniuses lack empathy, you had said. It had to be untrue. Because the genius in front of him understood him.Â
Heâs panting now. He was tipsy before, but with the buzz he feels in his brain, he thinks he might be drunk off the taste of your lips. He breaks away to catch his breath, but quickly leans forward again to chase after you.Â
Your hands go to his shoulders and hold him in place, preventing him from going any further. He looks at you with hooded eyes and tries to dive for another kiss. You stop him again with a small chuckle and rest your forehead to his.Â
He watches you as your hand reaches for his face. Your thumb rubs affectionate circles into his skin. His skin is burning, and this suit doesnât help at all. His face is flushed, and his mouth stays slightly agape to catch his breath. âLetâs wait until youâve sobered up.â You say, not a hint of judgment in your voice.Â
âIâmâŚIâm not drunk.â He counters as he reaches for your wrist and leans into your touch.Â
âYouâre not sober either.â You smirk.Â
His head tilts downward at your true statement.Â
âI want to see if you make the same decision later.âÂ
He understands. His hand that holds your wrist in place guides it to his chest over his heart. You feel the loud thumps of his blood as he does.Â
You lean in once more and place a kiss on his cheek. His face goes even redder than before at your action.Â
âGoodnight, Veritas.â You stand from your seated position and slowly make your way to the door; your eyes never leaving his.Â
âGoodnight, ProfessorâŚâ He hates to say it, but he does, because he canât wait to make the same decision later.Â
â â ***
Veritas Ratio jumps awake to the sound of his phone buzzing. His head hurts and his body is sore. Although his condition isnât ideal, his mind immediately replays the events of last night. You had kissed him.Â
You had kissed him, and he didnât shy away. His face burns hot red at the memory. He reaches for his phone, which continues to go off in his bed.Â
And the messages he reads makes his face burn even more.Â
No way
Was that you and the Prof last night!?
I totally saw that kiss. I was on a higher floor so donât go all crazy
did u make the first moveÂ
Who am I kidding. you never wouldÂ
He watches as Aventurine churns out more and more messages with inconsistent punctuation, spelling errors, and odd slang he doesnât know.Â
But then he gets a message from you.Â
I had a good time last night. :)
Make sure to drink water, Doc.Â
 A small smile forms on his face, and he realizesâŚ
He did have fun.Â
and then the crippling anxiety of what to do after your advances smacks him in the face. lol. tysm for reading guys! and for the support on the first part! comments and reblogs are appreciated <3















