#skepticalqueen

skepticalqueen : *dick

he’s still there!! i just had to reupload him :D

sjhshkhfgyf yes hello hi you may address me as your majesty

i do think about this sometimes. a while back i came to the conclusion that while i freaking love shipping jensen and misha in a romantic+sexual way, and dan and phil in a “yes please live together forever and be cute” way, i’m not particularly drawn to fantasises about them. (fantasies, as opposed to theories.)

that probably doesn’t make sense, given all my past metas about jensen and misha, some of which have since been proven wrong. personally i’d prefer to know the truth, i’d like to find out the truth, i’d like to believe theories that sound like they could be true. i like scientific csi-style metas based on visible evidence rather than circumstantial hearsay. i’d prefer to state obvious facts and observations in a way which eventually leads to a reasonable conclusion. but those conclusions are still fairly baseless until facts are confirmed one way or another.

i wrote a cockles fic once. i guess it was okay. i don’t think i’ll write a real person fic again. to me, rpf felt waaay different to fanfic about fictional characters. see, with regular fic i feel i have free rein to explore a new version of the characters, whereas rpf felt wildly out of character when i wrote it, either because i knew more about jensen and misha than i could get into the story, or because i felt i didn’t know enough about them to do their characters justice. it was kinda both at the same time. it just felt weird and i’m not sure why.

i don’t read fanfic at all any more, unless short ficlets show up on my dashboard and happen to draw me in. but that’s completely due to the fact i find it really hard to process anything that isn’t my own writing, non-fiction, or a printed book. (and even then it takes me months to read one book.)

but in case you were wondering, i’m completely in support of fanfic of any kind. real person fics are just not something i seek out. however, i do like tumblr posts that are all “what if x did y?? what if thEY BANGED” kind of thing?? wow hey that invalidates my entire response doesn’t it?

and in case you were asking my opinion on how i actually perceive dan and phil’s relationship since i’ve never talked about it: mostly i see shippy stuff regarding them on pinterest or in youtube comments, and i smile and thumbs-up the good ones, then forget about it almost immediately. mostly i just appreciate the fandom being so passionate about shipping them but ehhhh it’s more of a funny thing than me actually believing it??? their hearteyes are so utterly and completely different to jensen and misha’s. after ~18 months of watching their videos, and internally analysing their every movement (i can’t help it, it’s part of me), i cannot draw a conclusion that i don’t straight away begin to doubt. (what i mean is, if i ever try and interpret it as sexual or romantic, i come up with question marks. i can never ever doubt they have a friendship deeper than the distance from here to the centre of the earth and back out the other side. they are absolutely soul mates. they are the most soul-matey soul mates to ever exist.)

i think the special thing about cockles, in comparison, is that jensen is so. fucking. easy. to read. but dan and phil, on the other hand, have a bajillion mannerisms that all mean certain things but none of them are anywhere close to as obviously sexual and romantic as the way jensen looks at misha. not to say dan and phil feel any less love for each other, but it’s just not the same as jensen and misha at all.

3 reasons why McGonagall is proud of me:

1) I started and finished a story recently in one sitting (huzzah!)

2) I’ve implemented an update schedule and am sticking to it

3) I’ve started reading books again

3 reasons McGonagall will be proud of me:

1) I will finish my current stories one day, maybe even soon!

2) I will go back to implementing a proper sleep-schedule again, which fell on the wayside as soon as I started working again. curious that

3) I will get all my work-related ducks in a row and be a proper adult about things that I may or may not be avoiding

Real life coffeeshopau. As in they open or run a coffee shop and it's kinda magical but it's also a nightmare

Likelyhood: High. I’m not gunna lie. I’m a sucker for this dumbass fanfic staple. But introducing the reallife horror of customer service would be a refreshing changeup.

This is probably so old I have no way of knowing what prompt thing brought it on so I’m just going to say:

The Witch from Into the Woods

I did not know you were writing this. You keep lighting the fire of my sympathy for Murtagh. :,(