Okay. Rant. I must be the only person on earth right now who doesn't feel that good because they just got selected to a job! Seriously? I have no idea why i'm feeling this way. What I don't 'seem to' like is the fact that from now on, my life's gonna change. I've been forced out of my comfort zone. Ha! That's why. My familiar, safely dull routine is going to change. I'll be working 9:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. as a receptionist starting Monday. And I'm not excited instead i'm all "bleh!" I mean, I'll earn a fair salary and I'll be somewhat independent. Why doesn't my mind understand this? (Though I should say that I foolishly missed the chance to earn a bigger salary. When they asked me what my expectations were, I said 250 or 300 bucks knowing full well that they're willing to offer up to 350. I am an idiot. So now they're willing to pay me my lowest requested amount -250 bucks. I lost 50-100 bucks just like that. Just. Like. That. That's unforgivable.) So anyway, I know I should be glad. Instead, I feel worried and nervous in a very uncomfortable way. I don't know. I just don't know. I hate that I don't see any prospects of me doing this without quitting. I already have a reputation of a quitter -god knows I deserve it- but I'm gonna try harder this time. I don't know. I feel lost. Lost.
