I really hate goodbyes.

But I had to say "Goodbye" to three groups of friends today.

At 5am, one of my best friends from Wellesley left me for Germany for the summer. This is the first summer we will spend in different cities since we became friends. 

At 3pm, I waved goodbye to a friend from high school, who is back-packing through Europe because he felt lost in life. Business school do weird things to people. I hope he finds what he is looking for. I hope he finds his soul again. 

At 10:30pm, I had to say "Goodbye" to my lab-mates, new friends that I've made while in Oxford, some I barely got to know. I wish I had time to get to know more about them and spend more time with them.

But the time is up. I was really out of it at the dinner my lab-mates put together for me tonight. I think it hit me today that I'm leaving in six days. Some parts of me look forward to coming home. Some parts of me want to stay longer. But all things come to end. 

I have a tough summer ahead of me. In addition to research, there are applications to write and exams to excel on. The next six weeks will be like no other. From somewhere, I need to find the strength to hold on.