#siwon fic

Immediately, your husband sprang into action while you were sat frozen. He grabbed the bag and the pillow from your bed, darting to the nursery to pick up the carry chair and returned to find you in exactly the same spot.

"We need to go, jagi," he said, softly, ushering you towards the door as best he could with his hands full.

Nodding, but slightly dazed, you allowed him to lead you to the car and get you to the hospital.

Once you were there and settled in a room, your brain finally started to catch up.

"Are you comfortable? Can I do anything?" asked Siwon.

"No and no," you replied, as you spoke another contraction started. "Ah, actually, let me break your hand," you told him through gritted teeth.

He happily leant in to let you grip his hand as tight as you needed.

"Breath through the pain, yeobo," he reminded you calmly.

"Easy for you to say," you snarled as the contraction came to an end. "And that's only the beginning."

"Think positive," your husband said, trying to hide his smile at the new side of you labour had brought out.

After a few hours of intermittent contractions and your overbearing husband reminding you to breathe, you were finally in active labour.

"Here we go, you can do this," he encouraged.

"Siwon, can you do me a favour?"

"Anything."

"Shut up," you said bluntly.

He opened his mouth to reply before deciding it might be best to just do what you wanted at this moment in time. He sat silently, allowing you to grip his hand as hard as you liked while the midwife coached you through your birth.

It took a couple more contractions, you bruising Siwon's hand and him biting his lip to stay quiet for you before your baby entered the world.

"Congratulations, you have a beautiful baby girl," the midwife told you, holding her up, before offering Siwon the chance to cut the umbilical cord.

"Our very own little princess," Siwon smiled down at you as they took her off to clean her up and weigh her.

"Why do I already get the sense she's got you wrapped around her tiny finger?" you couldn't help but laugh.

"Because she has," he replied instantly.

At that moment your new-born was brought back over to you.

"Just look at her, she's so precious," he continued.

"Can appa have the first cuddle?" you asked the nurse, watching as your husbands face lit up.

"Of course he can," the nurse replied, carefully passing your daughter to Siwon.

Your heart filled with joy as you watched how gently he held her, simply gazing at her face in pure adoration.

“You’re already such a great father,” you whipered to him.

“I can’t believe how much I love her already,” he replied, as he let his daughter grab onto his finger.

“Sorry I got mad and bruised your hand.”

“Don’t worry about it,” Siwon assured you, not once looking at you. “I’d let you do it all over again. She’s worth it.”

“She really is,” you replied, reaching over and stroking the tiny tuft of hair on your daughters head. “And she’s all ours.”

Everyone has bad habits, whether its smoking, drinking, drugs, or stealing. 

 And others, like you, it just so happens to be sleeping with a man who is engaged. You never planned on being a mistress, in fact you had always hated those who cheated, but everything that happened in your life led you up to where you are now. 

Always remember, there’s two sides to every story.

All your life you’d looked up to the man who raised you, your father. He was a king to you, the one who would always be there for you, the one who scared away the monsters. He was the one who protected you from all the scary things as you grew up. He was there for you everyday when you got home from school with a warm smile on his face and his arms outright, ready to embrace you. 

Until one day he wasn’t there. And the next day he wasn’t. It had been months since you had seen your father, and your mother refused to talk about it. She would only shake her head and weep if you brought him up, so eventually you stopped asking. Until about a year later, when you were 18, you had gotten a phone call from him. He wanted to see you and explain his absence. You were hesitant, rightfully so bit you ultimately agreed to meet him. 

A part of you was excited to finally see him after countless returned letters, and unanswered phone calls. You arrive at the coffee shop he suggested meeting at and the first thing you see is a smile that you would recognize anywhere. Your father, was laughing with another woman. He had his arms wrapped around a woman that was not your mother, and that’s when it hit you. 

He really had been cheating on your mom. He had really left her for a younger woman. You wanted to deny it all this time, refusing to believe that your father would do anything like that. Until now, when it smacked you in the face and you couldn’t fight back the tears. As your father waved at you, anger immediately took over your body. You stomped over there, the tears flowing. Your dads smiling face faltered to confused and upset, seeing you in the state you were in. 

“Y/N, what’s.. “ he began before you cut him off. 

 “So this is why you disappeared? You left mom and I for some fucking hussy" you spit, gesturing to the woman who now looked uncomfortable. 

 “Its not what you think" your father tried to explain. “Just let me explain" he tries.  

“Fucking save it" you spit. “I don’t want to see you ever again" you cry. Turning around you storm out of the shop, running down the sidewalk, blinded by your tears. 

 You hadn’t seen your father in 7 years. It’s not as though he hadn’t tried to reach out to you. He tried constantly for the last 7 years, including the other day, but you refused.

Now you were happy. You had put enough of your past with your father behind you to have a relatively healthy relationship and did your best to trust him. You and Chanyeol had been together for almost 3 years and you’d never been happier. 

You had just transferred to a new company, and he was the first person to show you around and be nice to you. After that first day, you always ate lunch together, you went out on weekends, went for coffee. You two were constantly together. You had fallen fast and easily for him. You were hesitant when he asked you to be his girlfriend because you weren’t sure if you could trust him. 

Would he hurt you? Would he treat you right? Would he leave you? All those questions swarmed your head, but despite all your hesitations, you said yes. And you were so glad you did. 

 The life you had built with him was so amazing. You were beyond happy and could see a life going further with him. He had recently been bringing up the possibility of marriage and children and your heart fluttered. You were happy. 

You were, until tonight. 

You had been working a little later than usual, It was a Sunday, but your boss had needed you to come in and help him with some case studies. Being a secretary to a lawyer was exhausting. You worked long hours, most days. However, he was going away for a few weeks so that meant you had some paid time off, and you couldn’t wait. You sent Chanyeol a quick message telling him you’d be home around 9pm and he replied he wanted to have a movie night and cuddle. After the week you had, you looked forward to it immensely. 

To your surprise, you had finished work rather early, around 7pm. You happily packed up your belongings and head home on the bus. You only lived a few blocks away from work, which was handy but you weren’t in the best neighborhood so the bus was a safer option for you. 

 You were excited as you walked up the stairs to your front door. 

 You were excited as you turned your key in the lock. 

 You were happy as you slipped off your heels and your jacket, before reaching around and unhooking your bra, taking it off and throwing it onto the couch. 

 You were happy until you noticed another bra on the couch. One that definitely did not belong to you.

 You were happy until you heard the familiar moans of Chanyeol. Him growling the same words he said to you as he fucked you. The same names he called you in and out of bed. 

You burst through the door, to find Chanyeol fucking some  girl from behind. 

More specifically, your best friend. 

“Y/N. It’s not what it looks like" she cries as Chanyeol pulls out of her quickly, scrambling off the bed. 

 “I can explain baby" he huffs, finding anything he could use to cover himself up with. 

 At this point you were numb. You just stared at the two people in the world you thought would never hurt you. The two people you thought you could trust with anything. They knew your past. They knew you had a hard time trusting people, but these were the only two that you had opened up too, spilling your deepest, darkest secrets. You told everything to them. 

“How could you?” you ask. You want to cry. You want to scream, but you couldn’t. “After everything I’ve told you. You knew everything about my past and you go and do this? The two people I’ve trusted the most betray me in the worst possible way.” You whisper. 

 “Please Y/N, please let me explain. It was a mistake. It was never supposed go happen" Minsoo, your best friend.. ex best friend cries. 

 “Really? Then what was supposed to happen?” you spit, the rage finally building up. You clench your fists, tightly. How dare they try to excuse this? 

 “He called me a few weeks ago to help him plan the proposal he was going to do.” she whispers. 

 “So it’s been going on a few weeks?” you scoff. “You claim you love me and want to propose and have fucking children with me, but you can’t keep your fucking cock in your pants?” 

“She kissed me first! She said how she wished she had a man like me!” Chanyeol yells, in an attempt to defend himself. 

 “Why didn’t you just, I don’t know.. push her off? Or are you just fucking clueless?” you scoff. “And a man like him?” you ask, pointing to Minsoo. “So what, you just decide to take him for yourself like the greedy bitch you are?” 

 “I never meant too..” Minsoo begins before Chanyeol cuts her off. 

 “We can work through this.. all of us. We can put it behind us. We can get married and I will stay away from Minsoo" Chanyeol offers. 

 “Or.. you can both get fucked. Oh wait, looks like you’ve already done that.” You spit, storming out of the room. 

 Everything was blurry, you could barely see through your tears. Somehow you ended up a nightclub. The music blaring, women smiling as they danced on men, who would likely fuck them over. 

As you ordered your fourth tequila shot, the tears wouldn’t stop flowing. What the fuck, is all you could think. You huffed as you pulled your phone out of your pocket. 

71 missed calls. 104 new messages. 

You read a few from Chanyeol. 

 Please baby. 

 I’m so sorry. 

 I love you. 

 And you read a few from Minsoo. 

 It was a mistake. 

 I can’t lose you over a guy. 

 Please talk to me. 

You scoffed at both of them. They were likely still at the apartment, telling each other what to say. You wished them well. You were sure she would end up knocked up by him, he would cheat again and leave her to take care of their kid. They had a bright future together. 

 Tossing your phone on the bar, you groaned as you dropped your head into your hands. You wanted to scream and curse, but instead you looked up and ordered another shot. 

 “You okay?” the man beside you asked, sipping on his drink. 

 “No" you say, your eyes still shut.  

“Ahh. Trouble in paradise?” he chuckles. 

 “Paradise?” you laugh. “You mean hell? I caught my boyfriend and my best friend fucking in my bed tonight.” You declare. 

 “Fuck, they sound shitty" He sighs. “Bartender, another round for my friend here" he says. 

You look at him, seeing an extremely handsome face. His suit was tight, showing off his large muscle. “Shitty? Try tasteless, foul, sleazy scums of the earth.” You say. 

 He laughs. “Fair enough. Could I interest you in a dance? Maybe take your mind off things, at least temporary” he offers. 

 “I don’t even know your name" you say, looking him straight in the eyes. 

 “Choi Siwon" he answers, extending his hand to you. 

 “Y/N L/N" you say, returning the shake. “If you buy me another drink, I’ll consider it" you smirk, raising an eyebrow. 

 “Bartender. Two more shots please” he smiles, his eyes never leaving your face. 

Twenty minutes later, you’re doing your best to casually walk out of the men’s bathroom, your lipstick smeared and your hair a mess. You try to adjust yourself, to make it look like you hadn’t just been fucked hard. 

 As you’re walking through the small hallway, a smile forms on your face as your think about what happened only minutes ago, and what led up to that moment. 

*You and Siwon taking a shot, your eyes never losing contact. 

 You licking your lips as you stare at his. 

 Him cocking his eyebrow as he puts his hand on your thigh, slowly rubbing his fingers up and down. 

 You getting off the barstool, excusing yourself to the bathroom and ‘accidently’ rubbing your ass against him. You peering over your shoulder as you walk away, your hips swaying. 

Siwon grinning as he quickly follows you. 

 Him grabbing your shoulder and spinning you around before you’re able to walk into the women’s bathroom, nudging his knee in-between your legs, your wrist pinned against the wall. 

 “You sure about this?” he had asked you. 

 “Fuck me" you whined.*

Sitting on the same barstool, your pussy aches for more as you think about how he sat you on the sink and hiked up your skirt before moving your panties to the side. His tounge licking you, his mouth sucking your clit. The way he only undid his pants enough to allow his cock to spring free, before entering you raw. The way his large hand clamped itself over your mouth, as he pounded his cock into you. 

 You ached for more. However, he had disappeared after you had left the bathroom. What ever happened to the dance you were supposed to get?  You assumed he had just gotten what he wanted and you were now going to head back to your apartment to deal with the shit show that was your life now. Nodding at the bartender, you just want to pay your tab now and get this shitty conversation over as quickly as you could.  

“I’d like to pay my tab" you half slur. 

 The bartender chuckles. “It’s been taken care of, by your friend. This is also for you" he tells you, sliding a napkin towards you. 

 Opening it up you see a phone number with a short message. ‘Let’s do it again. 2262836375. - S' 

 A smile plasters over your face as you shove the note into your bra, getting up to head out. Arriving back at your apartment, you’re met by a crying Chanyeol and Minsoo, both still crying but finally dressed. 

 “Is there a reason you’re both still crying on my fucking couch?” 

 “We’re too distraught to do anything else” Minsoo cries. 

 “Well you can both do whatever the fuck you want. I’m grabbing your shit and you can get out.” You snap at Chanyeol, walking into the bedroom. 

 You’re immediately disgusted as you stare at the bed you once shared with Chanyeol. It was once a special place for the two of you, the secrets you shared, the laughter, the tears. It was all now tainted by the two people you trusted most. Now you were going to have to burn it. After grabbing everything he had left there, you roll his suitcase out into the living room, where the two are still sitting on the couch, crying. 

 “Please Y/N. I love you" Chanyeol says, looking at you with the puppy dog eyes that used to melt your heart. 

And now you just felt rage. “If you loved me, you wouldn’t have fucked my best friend. Sorry, ex best friend" you spit, glaring at Minsoo. “I hope the two of you have a terrible fucking life together. You deserve it. Now get the fuck out" you snap, practically shoving the two of them out the door. “Fuck you" you smile at both of them before slamming the door. 

You slide down, bringing your knees to your chest. You didn’t want to cry, you were a badass bitch. What you needed was another distraction. You pulled the napkin from your bra, looking at the note from Siwon again. You pulled out your phone, deleting all the messages from Chanyeol and Minsoo that were begging you to forgive them. You type in Siwon's number, sending him a quick text, wondering why he gave you his number after he disappeared right after he got what he wanted. 

 [2:05am] You: Why would you leave your number, if you just left right after we were finished? – Y/N 

 [2:07am] Siwon: I didn’t disappear, you left me. I felt rather hurt and betrayed, if I’m being honest.

 [2:09am] You: When I turned around you were gone. If anyone should be hurt and betrayed, it should be me. 

 [2:10am] Siwon: Let me make it up to you. Dinner this Thursday? 

 You smiled as you reread his text. You really shouldn’t be doing this, considering you just got out of a serious relationship. However, what better way to get over someone than to get under someone new?

[2:12am] You: Sounds good. 

[2:14am] I’ll text you details later. Get some sleep, beautiful.   

You plugged your phone in before grabbing spare blankets and a pillow from your closet. You would have to get rid of your bed tomorrow and all your favorite sheets and pillows.

** 

 Monday you had a hard time concentrating due to your phone constantly buzzing with pleas from Chanyeol for you to just sit down and meet with him. You finally turned your phone off. You didn’t want to see him face to face yet. 

Tuesday was the same.

And so was Wednesday. 

 You finally decided Thursday you would meet up with him after work, since dinner with Siwon wasn’t until 8pm. You sat in the café with your hands wrapped around a coffee mug. You had gotten there 20 minutes early and had yet to have a drink of your almost cold beverage. You felt like your stomach was going to drop from the anticipation of Chanyeol’s arrival. 

 The moment you saw him, you felt like you might actually end up punching him in the face. He looked worn out. His hair was a mess and greasy, the bags under his eyes made him look like he hadn’t slept in days. 

 “Hi” he whispered as his slide into the seat across from you. 

 “Hello" you answered back, avoiding eye contact. 

You stared at your mug, finally decided to at least have a sip. Your mouth was dry. “I don’t know what you want me to say to you. And there isn’t really much you can say to me to make this better, Chanyeol.” 

“I know I can’t make it better. But I want to at least try to have you forgive me, or explain my actions.” He says, maintaining eye contact. 

 “Say what you need too" 

 “I firstly want to apologize again. It was never my intention to do that. You need to know, I do truly love you. I did try to refuse and get her to stop but she told me you were seeing someone else and that it could be payback.” He tells you. “I realize now she just said that to get me into bed. I’m not excusing my actions, I should have known better" 

 “Yeah you should have. I never cheated on you. I never once even thought about it. You knew how I felt about cheating. How I watched my mom suffer because of my fathers infidelity.” 

 “I never wanted to make you feel like that. At the time I was hurt and confused and thought of it as revenge.” Chanyeol whispers. 

 “Well that’s just stupid. I thought you knew me better than that. Guess I was wrong.” You say.  

“Is there anyway we can start over? Clean slate?” he wonders. 

 “No. There’s nothing you could ever do to make me trust you again. Frankly I don’t even want to be around you. Goodbye, Chanyeol" you finish, standing up and walking out the door with your head held high. 

Going home, you sat on your couch for a few minutes, trying to process what he had said. Could you trust him again? Possibly. Did you want to trust him again and be with him? Absolutely not. 

 Standing up, you take a few deep breaths, getting rid of the sadness you were feeling over a lost 3 year relationship. You walked towards your room, plugging your phone in and began to play a playlist that made you feel good. You opened up your closet, deciding what to wear tonight. 

You had no idea where the two of you were going, so you opted for a red dress with spaghetti straps and an open back. It fell mid thigh and hugged your curve perfectly, while the back was a little looser. You decided on no panties tonight. Dancing your way into the bathroom, you sing along to one of your favorite songs, All I Wanna Do by Jay Park. You did a smoky eye and red lipstick to complete your look. 

You took your hair from the bun you had it in for work, letting your hair flow down into a natural look. Glancing at the clock, you see it’s about 20 minutes until your date. You walk to your phone, checking to see is Siwon had messaged you, and he did. He told you the location was a surprise but he asked for your address to pick you up. You sent him your location before heading back to your closet to pick a pair of shoes. You decided to go for a pair of black pumps that accentuated your legs. 

 Grabbing your purse, you head down to the front of your building to wait for his arrival. A part of you wanted to go to dinner, get drunk and eat some good food with some pretty good company. But the other part of you, the dirty girl wanted to have Siwon in between your legs again, instead. As a car pulled up, the passenger side window rolled down, revealing a smiling Siwon. 

“Well hello there" 

 “Hi" you smile, climbing into the front seat. 

 “You look amazing” Siwon purrs, eyeing your body. 

 “Well thank you. You don’t look so bad yourself" you say, buckling yourself in. “So where are we going?” you ask. Your curiosity was definitely getting the best of you. 

 “It’s a surprise" he winks. 

 “I also have a surprise for you" you say in a seductive whispe, feeling brave. New you, new attitude. 

"Oh? And what’s that?” he asks. 

 “I’ll have to show you" you smirk, grabbing his hand from his lap while you part your legs, placing his hand on your bare pussy. “Surprise” you say. 

 You didn’t know what it was about Siwon. You had only known him for a few days, your relationship with Chanyeol freshly over, and here you were being a hoe for a man you didn’t know at all. But yet, you couldn’t help it. He brought the dirty girl in you out to play. The adventurous one that you couldn’t be with Chanyeol because he was to nervous about being caught. You needed the excitement of possibly being caught, you loved the thrill of fucking anywhere you wanted. And that’s what you got with Siwon. 

 “Oh fuck. You’re a dirty one, aren’t you?” he asks with a smirk. “You’re going to be the death of me" he says, as he begins rubbing your clit. “I don’t think we’re going to make dinner" he growls, pulling the car over on the side of a relatively busy street. “Backseat" he demands. 

 Giddy like a child on Christmas morning, you got out of the front, moving your way to the backseat. Before you can even close the door to the backseat, Siwon has your dress almost ripped off. His moves your bra out of the way, sucking harshly on one of your nipples as he massages the other one. You throw your head back as you begin to palm his already hard cock through his pants. Likely from your stunt a few minutes ago. 

“What do you want baby?” he growls, nipping at your earlobe. 

 “Your cock. Let me suck your cock" you moan, needing to feel it down your throat. 

 “Fuck" he says, undoing his pants and yanking them down quickly. His cock springs free, and you immediately lean forward, licking the red tip. “Shit. Don’t tease" he begs, bucking his hips, needing you to suck it harder. 

You wrap your lips around his cock, swallowing as much of him as you can take before bringing your head back up, keeping your cheeks sucked together. Using your tounge you swirl it around as you continue to bob your head up and down, while massaging his balls. 

 “Fuck" he hisses, bucking his hips once again, shoving his cock down your throat even more. Before you can lick your lips, his mouth is on yours, and he’s leaning you back. He grabs your legs, bringing them up as high as he can before lining himself up with your entrance. 

 “Dirty girl" he purrs, slowly entering you. His cock stretching you out, filling you up more than you ever have had before. 

“Oh my god" you cry out, your eyes almost rolling to the back of your head. “Your cock feels so good" you moan, as Siwon begins thrusting himself into you. 

 “Do you want me to fuck you hard and fast?” he pants. 

“Yes, please” you cry. Siwon slams his cock into you slowly but harshly, jolting your body with every thrust. You reach in between your legs, rubbing your clit, chasing the anticipated high you know is coming. Your legs stiffen as his grip tightens around your ankles, pounding into as hard as he can, needing his release just as much as you. His thrusts become erratic and slow down right as your orgasm washes through your body, tingling you everywhere, his following not far behind. 

As Siwon pulls himself out of you, you both sat in the back huffing, your bodies sweating. “You’re going to be an adventure” he laughs. “I can feel it" he finishes, getting himself dressed as you put your dress back on. “Would you still like to go for dinner?” he asks, slipping his shoes on. 

 “Absolutely. I’m famished.” You smile, slipping your stilettos on before getting back into the front seat. Arriving at the restaurant, you immediately know the place. 

Chanyeol took you here often. He always paid as he had a way better paying job than you. You groaned at the sight of it. 

“What was that groan for?” he asks. 

 “This is a very expensive restaurant” you mutter. He laughs. 

You like his laugh. 

 “It is” he states. “What’s the problem?”  

“I can’t afford it" you say, embarrassed. 

 “Did you really think I was going to make you pay? I wouldn’t have asked you out if I expected you to pay for yourself. Order whatever your little heart desires. I got it" he winks, grabbing your hand to take you inside. 

 The two of you are seated in a semi private section, where it’s not so loud. As the waiter hands you your menu’s Siwon checks to see what kind of wine you like before ordering the most expensive bottle. 

Chanyeol would always order what he liked and you would either have to drink it or just have your water. You smile as you read the menu. Finally you’d be able to order for yourself. It’s not that Chanyeol was controlling or abusive, he just had a habit of ordering for you while you were at restaurants. He always insisted you’d love what he picked and sometimes you did, sometimes you didn’t. He wanted you to try new things. 

 Your wine is poured for you, and you and Siwon place your orders. He orders another expensive thing, along with an appetizer for the two of you to share. Of course he made sure you liked what he picked before he ordered it. It was different, and you liked it. 

 “So what do you do to be able to afford such a luxury as a place like this?” you ask, taking a sip of your white wine. 

“I’m a lawyer. Defense attorney” he tells you. 

 “Really? I work for a defense attorney, as his secretary.” You tell him. 

“Who?” 

 “Kim Junmyeon" as the name slips from your mouth, Siwon’s face turns sour. 

“You work for that fuckbag?” he scoffs. “He’s such an ass and well..” he pauses. 

“Well what?” you ask. 

 “I’m not really supposed to say" he admits. 

 “Tell me" you pressure him with a dazzling smile. 

 “He’ll be getting fired, tomorrow actually" Siwon tells you. 

 “What? So I’ll be out of a job until they find someone new?” you ask, not really asking him but more yourself. “Well shit that sucks" you groan, drinking the rest of your wine in one sip. 

 “They’ve actually already found someone" he says, taking a sip of his drink. 

“Who?” you ask. 

“Me" he chuckles. 

 “You? You’re going to be my be my new boss?” you ask, trying not to choke.

 He just nods his head. 

 “Well I guess this ends here. I can’t be fucking my boss" you say with a sigh. 

 “I’ll make an exception and let it slide. I’m sure you’ll be a very attentive secretary” he winks.

“I can assure you, I will be there for your every need" you say, licking your lips. 

The two of you are there for a few hours, laughing, eating and just all around having a wonderful time. As Siwon gets up to use the bathroom, you hear someone clear their throat from beside your table. Looking up, you’re met with the angry eyes of Chanyeol. 

 “Who the fuck is that?” he snaps, quietly as to not make a scene. 

 “What does it matter to you?” You ask, looking past him, you see Minsoo sitting at a table by herself avoiding eye contact. You notice Chanyeol’s jacket on the chair across from her. The one you had gotten for him for his birthday last year. 

“So what, are you two together now?” you ask, resting your chin on the palm of your hand. 

 “That doesn’t matter. What matters is that you seem to have moved on, awfully quick.” He says. “Maybe she was right and you were fucking someone while we were together.” He snarls. 

 “Oh fuck off Chanyeol. It’s okay for you to be dating the girl you cheated on me with but god forbid I go on a date with someone" you scoff. 

 “When did you meet him?” he asks. 

 “The night I caught you fucking her" you say. “Anymore questions?” 

 “Did you fuck him that night?” 

 “Maybe I did. Why does it matter to you? Do you want to know all the details? How many times he made me cum? What do you want?” you snap. 

 “You’re such a fucking whore" he spits. Right as he finishes his sentence, Siwon was at the table. 

“Is there a problem here?” he asks, his voice low and annoyed. 

 “Not at all. Just wondering why my girlfriend is on a date with someone else" Chanyeol says, his eyes never leaving you. 

 “Ahh. Is this him?” he asks you. 

You nod your head. 

“I believe she’s your ex girlfriend. Because you know, you fucked her best friend” Siwon says, his eyes dark. 

 “I’d like to finish my conversation with her, alone” Chanyeol says, looking at Siwon annoyed. 

 “I don’t think so. She doesn’t seem to be interested in hearing your shitty excuses for your shitty behavior” Siwon tells him. “Now you better be getting back to your date and leaving mine alone before there is a problem" Siwon says, waving the waiter over. Siwon hands him a credit card to pay the bill, not even knowing the cost. 

 “I’ll be seeing you later " Chanyeol mutters to you, his eyes wide, before glaring at Siwon. 

 “Not likely” Siwon says, grabbing his card from the waiter before helping you up and wrapping his arm around your waist to guide you out of the restaurant and that situation. But before you left, you made eye contact with Minsoo on your way out. "Just so you know, your loser, cheating boyfriend begged me to take him back today. Enjoy your dinner, fuckers" 

Everyone else stared at you in horror, as Siwon laughed the two of you out of the restaurant. 

"Are you okay?” he asks once you’re back in the car. 

 “I’m fine. I just don’t know why I’ve let him get under my skin like that.” You say, annoyed. 

 “Would you like me to take you home?” 

 “Please.” You sigh. As he pulls up outside your apartment, he puts the car in park before turning off the engine. “He seems rather unstable” Siwon blurts out. 

“He does, doesn’t he? I wasn’t sure if it was just me" you say, looking him in the eyes. 

 “Do you think he’d come here tonight?” he wonders. 

 “I’m not sure. I wouldn’t be surprised to be honest.” You say, a little terrified to be alone tonight. 

 “I can stay with you, if you’d like?” He offers. “Only if you want. No pressure" 

“Please. I’m a little nervous to be alone tonight” you mumble. Siwon smiles as he gets out of the car, following you up your stairs to your door. Walking into your apartment, Siwon looks around as you go to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Placing your glass in the sink, Siwon slides his hands onto your hips, working their way up your to rest on your stomach.  

“You can keep going up" you breathe. Siwon moves his hands up, cupping your breasts. 

“Are you not wearing a bra?” he asks. 

 “I didn’t put it back on after you fucked me in your car” you huff as he pinches your now perky nipples. 

 “How did I not notice that?” he growls, nuzzling his face into your neck, peppering it was kisses. 

 “Clearly you’re not very observant” you moan as he bites and sucks on your earlobe.

 Siwon grips your hips, setting you down on the counter. He moves himself in between your legs, leaning himself in close to you. You had thought he was leaning in for a kiss, but his hand reached behind you, turning on the kitchen sink. You look at him with an eyebrow raised as he chuckles at you.

 “Trust me" he whispers, checking to make sure the water was not too hot. Flipping a switch, Siwon grabs the hose while also turning your body around to face to sink. He smirks as he spreads your legs and then your lips, before placing the hard water stream over your clit. 

 “Oh my god” you shudder, your head hanging back as you clench your entire body. “Fuck that feels amazing" you cry out. 

 “Mhm I thought you might like it" Siwon groans, as he watches you come undone by the pulsating water. Your hand grips his bicep as you begin to feel like you’re about to explode. “How do you like this?” he asks before he inserts two fingers into you, pumping them in and out as the water hits the right spot everytime. 

 “Fuck I think I’m going to cum" you scream, everything becoming too much. Siwon quickens his pace as you scream out, your orgasm tearing through your body. You’re trying to catch your breath as he turns the water off and places you on the floor, bent over the counter. Your legs feel like jello, but he keeps a hand on you as he pulls down his pants, freeing his throbbing cock. 

 Siwon lines himself up with you, pushing his way in, hard, allowing you no time to rest. “Fuck baby girl" he grunts as he holds his shirt up, and you while slamming his thick cock into your pussy. 

Weakly, you reach your hand up, gripping the counter top, trying to keep yourself from collapsing. Siwon releases your body from his hand and wraps it around you, reaching down to rub your clit. The overstimulation is almost too much as you cry out, still tender from the massive orgasm you just had. 

 “Please" you whimper, Siwon doesn’t slow his pace down as he pounds himself into you and rubs your clit fiercely. “I can’t. Please” you cry out, wanting to cum but also wanting and needing to not. 

“Tell me to stop and I will" he growls, his pace slowing. 

 “Don’t stop, oh god" you scream, your second orgasm coming so quickly. 

 “You gunna cum for me baby" he growls, his pace picking up again. 

 “Yes yes" you scream, your eyes tightly closed as it washes through your body, again. Your eyes remain closed as Siwon finishes fucking you, releasing his hot cum inside of you, coating your walls. 

 Exhausted, you drag Siwon to your room and your brand new bed. Both of you are still naked and too worn out to get dressed. 

 “Heads up, I have to be at work for 6am tomorrow" you sigh, as you wiggle your body closer to Siwon, who groans at your statement. 

 “Why so early? So you’re going to have to get up at 5?” 

 “Mhmm" you say, dozing off, considering it is already 1am. 

 “You really are going to be the death of me” he says. It’s the last thing you hear before you doze off. 

 ** 

 5am comes awfully quick. You want to cry as your alarm blares throughout your room. 

“Oh my god" Siwon whines. “Does Kim make you work so fuckin early?”

 “He does" you yawn, trying to crawl over him to get ready. He holds onto your hips as you straddle him, his eyes closed. 

“I’ll never make you work this early. That way we can happily sleep in" he sighs. 

“That sounds great, but you need to let me go so I can go shower to wake up" you whine. 

 “Can I join you?” he asks, opening one eye. 

 “No funny business. I have to leave in 40 minutes if I’m going to catch my bus.” You state.

 “Forget the bus, I’ll drive you.” He says, letting you go before getting up himself to join you in the shower.

 “Are you sure no funny business?” he asks, hoping for your answer to change.

 It didn’t. 

 **

 Your work day, surprisingly went by rather quickly. Well the morning at least. In the afternoon you had to listen to Junmyeon being fired in his office and his aggression getting out of hand. It was painful to listen too. The number of insults he tossed out there and the rather impressive unique names he called the men were cringey. The worst of it all was when he started crying and begging for them to let him keep his job. You had been texting Siwon the entire time, giving him a play by play. 

[1:13am] You: They just informed him he was fired. He’s yelling. Very loudly. 

[1:16pm] You: He is absolutely losing it. He call Mr. Byun a cheating fuck. 

[1:21pm] You: Oh my god. He told Mr. Park that his wife’s been cheating on him. 

[1:38pm] You: He told them both they were shitbags, but not human shitbags, but dog shitbags. 8/10 on the insult from me. 

 [2:04pm] You: He’s crying. Loudly. Pleading for his job. It’s rather embarrassing if you ask me. Be a man. 

 [2:17pm] You: It’s silent. I think he might have accepted his fate. 

 [2:18pm] You: Nope. I spoke too soon. He’s calling them shitbags again. You had to run to the bathroom and quickly before they all heard your laughter at Mr. Kim’s unfortunate news. Siwon had texted you back laughing at the entire situation earlier. As you were checking yourself in the mirror, your phone buzzed again. Siwon. 

 [2:57pm] Siwon: Where are you? 

 [2:59pm] You: Checking myself out in the mirror. 

 [3:01pm] Siwon: Send me a picture. Please. 

 You decide to take him up on it. You lock the door to the bathroom before you unbutton your shirt enough for your breasts to pop out. Thank god you decided on a cute bra. The next picture you took, you say on the counter with your legs spread. The picture you took showed enough pussy and panties but still left a little to the imagination, although he’s already seen it and fucked it before. Pressing send, you do yourself back up before heading back to your desk. 

You were just in time to see Mr. Kim being escorted from his office with his box of things in his arms. 

“So sorry Mr. Kim" you say. 

 “Fuck off" he snaps at you before getting on the elevator and leaving. You sit at your desk, impatiently waiting until 5pm when you can go home, when you hear the elevator ding again. Out walks the higher up boss, along with Siwon who is checking his phone. You straighten yourself up before standing up to greet them.  

“Ahh Y/N. This is Mr. Choi. You’ll be his new secretary.” Your boss, Mr. Jeon tells you. 

“Nice to meet you, Mr. Choi.” You say, with a smile but through gritted teeth. 

“Nice to meet you too, Y/N. I look forward to working closely with you" Siwon smiles. 

As Mr. Jeon continues to walk into the office, Siwon waves his phone, giving you a wink before mouthing “thanks.” You could just kill him. 

 **

 The weekend you spent in your apartment, ordering take-out while binge watching your favorite shows and movies. Siwon had told you he had to go out of town for a conference, which wasn’t unusual so you didn’t really think anything of it. It’s not like the two of you were truly in a relationship anyways, he had no obligation to tell you where he was or what he was doing. The weekend passed in a blur of junk food and movies.

 You felt relieved and rested now that you didn’t have to get up at 5am every morning and could sleep until 8am before having to get up to go to work. You were chipper on your way to work Monday morning. Knowing that you didn’t have to deal with the insufferable Junmyeon made it that much better. However, you weren’t entirely sure how working for Siwon was going to be, but it excited you, the unknown.

 That morning you showed up in your usual work attire but your skirt was just a little bit shorter than your others, it was still professional though. You sat down at your desk once you arrived, going through your calendar to see what was planned for today. Siwon showed up a few minutes after you arrived, giving you a nod and a sly wink before entering his office. The butterflies in your stomach were very much present. Once he was settled he called you into his office to go over the plan for today. He had a meeting all morning that he asked you to attend with him, which was weird for you since Junmyeon had always refused for you to come when everyone else brought their secretaries. When he finished speaking he just stared at you for a moment before peaking out his door to make sure no one was around. 

“You look so good today" he whispers, biting his lip. 

 “Well thank you, Mr. Choi.” You smile. “Oh sir, your plaque is crooked. Let me fix that for you" you say. You were standing beside him behind he desk, and instead of going around to fix it, you leaned directly over his desk causing your skirt to ride up to reveal a very racy pair of panties. 

 You could hear Siwon inhale sharply at the site of your exposed self. He wanted to fuck you, so badly. When you moved yourself back to standing up, you smiled at him, as he glared at you. 

 “You’re going to make working here either extremely pleasant or extremely hard" he tells you with a sigh. 

“Likely both. I aim to please" you say with a small wink before walking to the door. “Let me know if you need anything, sir". The last part you partially say as a moan, just to tease him. The meeting was absolutely boring. All you did was take notes, however you missed quite a bit due to Siwon rubbing his foot against your leg. You glared at him every chance you got. Luckily for lunch, you got to order whatever you wanted and didn’t have to pay for it yourself. The only downside being that you couldn’t drink any wine, since you were still on the clock.

Siwon had also made sure to give you quite a substantial raise. A lot more than Junmyeon ever paid you, he was so cheap. The next few weeks flew by. You write enjoyed working for Siwon, it wasn’t awkward like you thought, although the sexual tension between you two was so strong. You hadn’t been able to hook up since he had taken on a extremely high profile case and it took up all of your free time. The two of you had planned a night after the last trial date, on Friday and you were so ready for it. You yearned for his touch, his tounge between your thighs, his cock inside you. 

 Thursday was slow for you as Siwon stayed in his office preparing, only calling for you if he needed notes or coffee. You sat at your desk, answered the phone, constantly telling anyone who called that you had to take a message and you would have him call them back. You were bored until a relatively attractive women stood at your desk. You smiled at her, greeting her appropriately. 

“Hello ma'am, how may I help you?” you asked. 

 “I’m here to see Mr. Choi" she tells you, with a slight smile.

 “Mr. Choi is extremely busy preparing for the trial tomorrow, he has asked that I not let anyone in so he can concentrate.” You explain with a smile.

 “I’m his fiancée, I think it’ll be okay if I visit him” she partially laughs. Your body immediately freezes. Fiancée? He was engaged? What the actual fuck. 

 You maintained your composure as you forced a smile, and getting up to knock on his door. You peeked your head in to see a stressed out Siwon. 

“Yes, Y/N?” he asked.

 “So sorry sir. Your fiancée is here to see you.” You spit through a clenched jaw. Siwon quickly looks up at you, his eyes wide and panicked. Before he could say anything, the woman he is supposed to marry barges in through the door.

 “Hello, darling.” She says, kissing his cheek. “Your secretary is awfully pretty. Why didn’t you tell me?” she chuckles, giving you a half glare. You fight back the tears that are desperately trying to escape from your eyes. 

 “Well if you don’t need anything else from me, I’m going to take off.” You huff. 

“Y/N..” he begins.

 “I’ll see you tomorrow” you whisper, leaving the engaged man with his confused fiancée. 

 ** 

 “Is there something going on between you two?” Jennie asks Siwon. “She seems to like you.” She finished. Siwon can’t say anything, he can barely process what just happened. You thought he was in love and going to get married, but that wasn’t the case at all. He didn’t even love Jennie, it was an arranged marriage that both their parents had set up for a merger of companies. Siwon’s father owned the largest defense attorneys office, while Jennies father owned the second largest. The two men wanted each of their oldest kids to take over the companies and merge, which meant also making everyone family. Neither Siwon nor Jennie had a choice in the matter. Siwon had only taken the job where you worked because his father wasn’t ready to retire, for a year. A year until the wedding, and his fathers retirement. He didn’t want to marry Jennie which is why he never told you about her because to him he was still single. But Jennie was rather excited about the wedding and marriage. 

 “I thought I told you to not visit me at work" he snap. Jennie let’s go of him, taking a few steps back. 

 “I thought you’d be happy to see me" she says, her face a little sad.

 “I’m near the end of a huge case and now you decide to come disrupt me?” 

 “Its because of her, isn’t it.” She wonders. 

 “Who?” Siwon sighs.  

“Your secretary. You’re fucking her aren’t you?” she snaps. 

 “You’re insane. Just go please. I’ll speak with you later” he says, focusing on his work once again. 

 Once Jennie leaves, his head is in his hands as he sighs. He wanted to be the one to tell you. He didn’t want you to find out like this. He didn’t want Jennie. He wanted you. 

 ** 

 You cried the entire way home. Yes you’d only known him a few weeks but you had fallen rather fast. He seemed so different, like he wouldn’t hurt you. But you were wrong, yet again. Thinking he was different than Chanyeol was laughable. Yes he didn’t cheat on you, but he cheated on someone he was engaged too, with you. You never wanted to be a mistress. Curled up in your bed, you’re annoyed at your phone constantly going off and ringing from what you could only assume was Siwon. 

 [3:19pm] Siwon: Just let me explain, please. It’s not what you think. 

 [3:21pm] Siwon: Answer your phone and let me explain. 

I wonder if they’ll bargain with me? Do they even do that in this city? You stared at the small fruit stall, filled with it’s overpriced produce, then back at the small pile of coins in your hands. After a few days of greasy take away and dull looking food your body was craving something healthy. It just so happened that you strolled past a fruit store on your way towards the center of town…well what you assumed was the center. You’d decided that the giant casino was the middle of the city but you could be wrong, not that you really cared. This place was just a pit stop on your way to the coast. You grew up in the mountains and always dreamed of a trip to the sea. You wanted to watch the sunrise over the ocean to make a brand new day and to feel the cool water and sand between your toes as you did.

Your parents had always turned their noses up at the idea of a seaside holiday, the air was too salty down there apparently. Try as they might, they never dissuaded you from your dream holiday and as the years went by, your desire to visit the ocean only grew. Your parents did their best to try and change your mind (not that you ever understood what their problem with the ocean was), always telling you horror stories of the city that you’d have to pass through before you could get to the coast. A city that would corrupt and deceive you. A city that was full of dark alleys and people with secrets. These stories had the opposite effect than what was intended - now you wanted to spend a few days in this supposedly evil city. The storied made you interested in the corrupt nature of man and made you wonder about the cityfolk. Would they be cruel and jaded or kind and misguided?

Above all your father had told you never to trust the people you met between the city and the sea. He told you that they would manipulate your kind heart and twist you in ways that you wouldn’t realise until it was too late and he would not be able to protect you. If wasn’t for the worried look in his eyes when he spoke you would have thought nothing of his warning but something about the way he spoke and looked at you in that moment made you treat his words with the seriousness they deserved.

After three days in the city you could definitely agree with your parents about the cruel nature of man but not in the ways they might think. The residents of the town, as far as you were aware, were an even mix between the hardworking, honest folk and the scheming degenerate and power hungry rich who ruled the place. You’d seen things you couldn’t explain, things you couldn’t unsee and heard things you never wanted to hear again as long as you lived but even with the hidden dangers, the city had charm. It lured you in and made you want to stay just one more day…which is how you were still here after three days.

In the mountains you bartered with farmers and traded goods with neighbours but down here haggling was a much more intricate sport. Still, you were going to try with the fruit store owner because of how good those cherries looked in the front window, and the peaches. You passed through the door causing the small chime to sound as you entered. A short woman with kind eyes emerged from the back of the store and asked what you were after. You complimented her on the quality of her produce, chatting about where she sourced it from since there were no farms in this urban jungle and she was more than happy to chat away to you about the lovely gentleman who grew all sort of produce in his orchard between the city and the sea. When you told her of your childhood in the mountains she took great interest in learning about why you have strayed so far from home and if you were safe in this city. She reminded you a lot of your parents with her concern for your well-being and cryptic messages about the unsafe parts of town.

“Girl, I will make you a deal,” she began. “I will give you some of my fruit free of charge if you tell me two things.”

“What things?” You asked, puzzled by her odd question.

“Why you dream of the sea and what your name is.” He responded, her expression giving away nothing.

“That’s all?” You asked.

“Yes dear.”

“You can call me Jan-” You coughed midway through saying your name. Something told you not to give out your real name and before you could ponder your reasoning you found yourself giving the kind old woman an alias. “Iseul, you can call me Iseul.” She smiled. Then you proceeded to tell her about why you so strongly desired to visit the sea. True to her word, she gave you a small basket filled with peaches, cherries and apples.

“Go my dear, thank you for brightening my day with your stories and remember, though darkness may lurk around every corner it’s the man in front of you that you should be wary of for sometimes the wicked will say things just to confuse you.”

You left the little shop with your fruit basket, waving to the owner as you closed the door behind you. What a strange woman you thought to yourself. She had been kind but she had said many confusing things that now replayed through your mind.

As you made your way back to your hotel you were so consumed by your thoughts and the old woman’s words that you didn’t hear the man from the casino calling out to you until it was too late. The fading sound of “Watch out! Hey! Stop!” and the blurring image of the seaside and the casino and blonde haired man who tried to get your attention brought you back to your senses, only to make you think you’d been drugged.

The world swirled around you until you were engulfed in salt water. The floor fell out beneath you as you struggled to stay afloat. You’d never learned to swim - you’d never run the risk of drowning in the ocean up in the mountains after all. You gasped for air as you felt yourself slipping beneath the water. How the hell did this happen? Did that old lady drug me? Am I dreaming? I must be dreaming… and if I die in my dream I’ll wake up right? Your mind was racing as your lungs started to burn with the need for oxygen but you couldn’t get back to the surface no matter how hard you tried. When you had sunk further down your foot and somehow become stuck. You let go of the fruit basket and tried frantically to release your foot from the net it had become stuck in before you drowned, the very real fear of dying finally settling in.

Nothing worked. Your lungs felt like they were on fire as you tugged at the net, trying to loosen its hold on you. You knew you wouldn’t be able to prevent yourself from trying to gulp in a breath, which would only serve to fill your lungs with water and bring you closer to drowning to death. This was the exact opposite of your dream of being in the sea. This was a nightmare.

Realising that there was nothing more you could do you thought of your parents, of how you’d miss them and the little home you grew up in in the mountains. You’d miss your father’s lame jokes and your mother’s persistent nagging about how you should really hurry up and pick one of the farmers sons to wed. None of that would occur now, not when you were second away from blacking out from lack of oxygen. Unable to hold out any longer you open your mouth and water pours into it as you try to breathe, knowing full well that it will not work. The last thing you feel is the burning of your lungs and the salt water as your whole world fades to black. A glint of gold is the last thing you see before you bid the world adieu.

***

“Find out how she got here.” A voice commanded. The voice was male, that much you knew, but it had that tone that people in power get. Unrelenting and lacking in empathy. “There must be a tear near the border.” What the fuck is he talking about? Is this the afterlife? I sure as shit hope not because this guy sounds like a jerk and I do not want to be stuck with him for all of eternity. Your thoughts raced as you slowly regained consciousness, remembering walking on a street…then water, lots of water… then drowning? You were pretty sure you’d drowned and it had been awful. “She appeared in the East Sea and I do not want to see either of you until you find out where that tear is in the city. For all we know spies have been getting in again.”

Whoever it was that he was speaking to mumbled their response, making it too difficult for you to hear but you caught every second or third word. “Prince… Court… hunt… soon…”

This seemed to please the first man for a few moments. You decided it was as good a time as any to let them know you were conscious. You coughed and very slowly sat up, rubbing your eyes before opening them and looking around the room, if you could even call it that. It was a massive sprawling room with ornate carvings, there were windows all throughout the room that allowed the sunlight and pleasant sea breeze to flow through. You had been lying on the floor at the base of a small set of three stairs that led up to a dias. On the dias was an incredibly intricate wood and coral chair that could only be described as a throne.  There was a man standing next to you and another man seated in the throne. You blinked a few times and shook your head, not believing the sight in front of you.

Before you could open your mouth to speak the seated man spoke. “How did you get here girl?” His demanding tone grating on you.

“I don’t even know where I am so how am I supposed to know how I got here?” You responded curtly.

“Who are you? Surely you know that much.”

You bit your tongue because whilst this guy seemed to be a grade a jerk, he was sitting on a throne so you figured you’d give him a few minutes before you gave him a piece of your mind. “My name is Ja-. Iseul. My name is Iseul and I’m a tourist. Who are you?”

The man next to you scoffed. “You should address the Prince with more respect human.”

“Sorry, what?”

“I forget that humans are slower. I. Said. You. Should. Address. The. Prince. With. More. Respect.” He enunciated each word as though you hadn’t heard him the first time. You rolled your eyes at him before speaking.

“I heard you clearly the first time, there’s no need to be a dick about it. I said what because I clearly just gave my name so I have no idea why you decided to refer to me as human…like who does that? Weirdo, and secondly, Prince? Of where? Of what? I just told both of you I had no idea where I am.” You snapped.

The man next to you turned away from you, staring daggers at the supposed Prince. “Are you just going to let this…this human disrespect you like this?!”

The man on the throne couldn’t look less interested in the scene playing out before him if he tried. He lifted his gaze to the man and spoke in that flat commanding timbre. “D.O, I believe I gave you a job to do. Did I not?”

“Yes.”

“Then go do it.” When D.O doesn’t immediately take his leave he adds “Unless you want to answer to me when more strays or enemies come through into my land.”

With a hasty bow he takes his leave.

“I apologise for my emissary. He can be quite,” he paused. “hotheaded.” The man turned his gaze to you, his gaze pinning you to the spot. “Now. Do you truly remember nothing about how you got here?”

“This room? No I don’t.  I remember going to the fruit store and talking to a strange old lady. Then I was walking back to my hotel along the street when everything swirled and then I was drowning. That’s all I remember.” You weren’t lying, you really had no idea how you had gotten here. You were sticking with the being drugged explanation because honestly? Nothing else made any sense or even seemed possible.

He sighed. “Which city were you in?” You described the city to the best of your abilities, which was mainly surface details since you were only a tourist - hotel, fruit store, odd streets, the casino… There wasn’t really any way you could know the truth of the city.

“Lankhmar? I think that’s how you say it.”

Upon hearing the town name the prince held up a hand to stop you speaking. He then called out for a messenger. When one appeared, bowing and gesticulating far more than was necessary, he gave them strict instructions. “Go to my emissary before he leaves and tell him to check the mortal plane as well, the tear must join to one of the districts in Lankhmar. One of my brothers must not have properly sealed the rift upon his return.” The messenger resumed his excessive bowing as he backed out of the room, you could hear the quickening of his footsteps as soon as he was out of sight. Seriously who in the hell was this guy and why was everyone treating him like he was the ruler of the world?

“Who are you?” You asked.

He raised a brow at you. “Very bold of you to ask me questions like that.”

You were growing exasperated with this pointless exchange. “Listen. I’m thankful that you didn’t let me drown but I honestly have no idea where I am or who you are or why everyone is walking on eggshells in your presence. Give me something to work with here. What do I even call you?” You needed something tangible to cling to, anything to keep you from thinking that you’d either died and that this was the afterlife, which if it was - it could do with a severe attitude adjustment, or that you’d snapped and gone crazy.

“You fell through a tear in reality,” Ok so you’d gone crazy, at least you could come to terms with that now. “And you appeared in my court, Luskan, though it is more commonly known as The Summer Court,” You’d gone crazy and fallen into one of your childhood fairytales. It could be worse, at least the weather was pleasant here, like a beach holiday… maybe this was the old woman’s fault after all, she’d banged on about the sea and been all weird and cryptic after all. “If I’d allowed you to pollute my pristine waters I’d have hell to pay with the seafolk.” Did the mania induced creation of your brain have to be such a dick though? “What’s with your face Iseul?”

You froze when you heard your name. Looking up at him you noticed the perplexed look he had on his face. “It’s been quite some time since I’ve had to interact with mortals, is something confusing you? I forget how simple your kind are.”

You scoffed at him. “You’d think you’d be more relaxed given you live in paradise but so far everyone I’ve met here is a complete jerk. And what’s with this mortal crap anyway? We’re all people. Or are you some sort of elitist rich jerk who thinks everyone is beneath him?”

“This is going to sound crazy to you, but it is not my fault that your parents decided to shelter you from the truth. It’s actually a miracle that you’ve survived this long while being this blissfully ignorant. Humans make up roughly 60% of the world’s population. The remainder are improvements on the species.”  The way this man could say so many words without providing you with any answers was starting to piss you off.

“Is this your way of telling me that magic is real? Summer Court? What are you, a fairy prince?” You scoffed.

Your words must have hit a nerve with him since his next words were ground out through gritted teeth. “Do not call me or my kind fairies.” He took a shuddering breath to try and regain his composure. “The supernatural are real. The books you were read as a child about fantasy lands and monsters? Those are history books, dumbed down for your kind to understand.”

“What?” Surely he was lying. Magic wasn’t real. Fairies weren’t real. No, all of that was from your bedtime stories. This was all in your head, it had to be. Why would your parents hide this sort of information from you? They wouldn’t lie to you, you knew them, trusted them. This man, however, you absolutely did not trust.

“I don’t have the time for this. Follow me, and keep up.” He turned on his heel and briskly left the room. You scrambled to follow. He weaved through the outdoor corridors of what you could only refer to as a palace because, it was fucking huge and well, there were servants so you had to assume he was royalty of some sort. You followed through the terraces that were lined with plant life and glittering lights, silk draping from gazebos, flapping in the light breeze. Truly, it was like a little Mediterranean fairy tale come to life and you could only compare it to the images from your storybooks but you didn’t dare use the ‘f’ word again since it got his hackles up last time.

He came to a stop in front of a set of double doors made of driftwood, held together with golden twine. “In here is my library. You will remain here until I send my emissary to fetch you. I would suggest that you use that time to educate yourself on the working of the world that you live in. I’ll provide only one hint. My kind never lie, but we don’t always tell the whole truth.” With that he ushered you in and closed the doors behind you. You didn’t hear them lock but they wouldn’t budge when you tried to open them.

Resigned to your current fate you decided it couldn’t hurt to sift through some of the books. Books were friends, they never led you astray. It was people you’d always had issues with, never books. You wandered through the library, awestruck by its beauty. It was a mixture of ornate fixtures, gold threads and salvaged wood and plant matter. It was unlike anything you had ever laid your eyes on before.

“A Brief History of Everything” seemed like as good a place to start as any. It started much like the stories from your childhood, only with more war and bloodshed. It spoke of a great war between humans and the supernatural. The war was multifaceted, with the supernatural beings also fighting against each other. Vampires, demons, fae, changelings, ghouls, elementals, witches and wizards were just a few of the mentioned species, it was a lot for you to take in. If this information was to be true then you had to question your whole upbringing. You closed the book and searched for another. “A Breakdown in Species - The Complete Beastiary” was your next pick. This one told you the features and builds of each race and how they most commonly fit into the mortal world. Unlike the fae, most of the supernatural resided in the human world, only the fae and elementals could exist between the planes. Demons still had the netherworld but only the highest ranking could travel at will.

You continued to look through tome after tome, collecting as much intel as you could. It didn’t matter if this world was real or not, you decided, you just had to play by its rules in order to survive and if there was one thing that you excelled at, it was research.

***

“Why is the human still here?” D.O asked when he brought you down to the edge of the palace, to a small pool that met the ocean.

“The human is right here, and she has a name.” You bit out.

He ignored you as he waited for the prince to respond. You almost laughed at how frustrated he was at not being answered immediately, the prince was otherwise occupied. He was waist deep in the water, tending to a turtle. He might be a jerk but you could not deny that he had a nice back, not that you were staring. “The human shall remain in the palace until we can determine the source of the tear and patch it. I’ve yet to determine if she is a threat to the court.”

“Why not throw her in the dungeons if you think she’s a threat? Why treat her like anything that has worth?” You were pretty sure you hated this emissary. Out of the two of them, he was the bigger jerk. He seemed to want nothing to do with you and you were pretty sure if the prince was distracted long enough, that he’d kill you. Somewhere along the line he’d either been taught to hate humans or one had hurt him so much that he felt the need to take it out on every other human he ran into.

The prince turned to face the two of you, and if you thought his back was pleasant to stare at then the sight of his chest and torso was a delight. Focus. The sunlight reflected off the water, highlighting the droplets of water glistening on his skin. Focus of his face, not his abs, focus on his fucking face! He looked calm as he stood before you, as though the water was centering him. “Until I decide that she is to be treated as a prisoner I will keep her in the palace, where I can observe her. Did you know that her parents neglected to inform her of the existence of any other intelligent life?” He smirked at his emissary who scoffed and continued to look as though he wanted nothing more than to dropkick you into the ocean and never look back. “Was your time in the library enlightening?”

You nodded. “Yes, I think I’ve learned the basics. It seems there has been a lot omitted from my understanding of the worlds history. There is a lot to catch up on.”

“Su- Your Highness, can I take my leave? We have a lead on the whereabouts of the tear and I need to gather the team so that we can patch it.” D.O waited for the prince to respond.

He nodded. “You may go. Report back to me when you return.”

The emissary wasted no time, you weren’t sure if he was just eager to do his job or if he hated being around you that much that he had to disappear that quickly. “So,” You started. You’d decided you were going to attempt to breach this topic the next time you spoke. “You’re Fae.”

“Rudimentary deduction darling. Did my books not teach you anything of worth?”

“Cut me some slack, I’ve only been learning for a few hours.” He cocked a brow at you, waiting for you to continue speaking. “There are seven courts in the Fae lands. There was conjecture about the number of princes, some texts cite seven while others cite nine, though from what I could work out there are seven princes and two emissaries. Each prince has an elemental affinity, though the true nature of those affinities is not recorded but they require you to attune to the land and your presence helps it to thrive. You rule the Summer Court, and since you rescued me from drowning plus the whole expensive seaside palace aesthetic you have going on here, I figure you have a water affinity. How am I doing so far?”

“So far it would appear that your time was not wasted.” He replied as he lowered himself in the water up to his shoulders. “The texts don’t include much information on the affinities because they differ for each prince. Attuning to the land can be done in multiple ways as well. For example, I’m attuning with the land right now, as I was earlier when you startled the turtles in their nesting grounds when you appeared, and did your very best to die.”

“Hey! I had no choice in the matter, you know this.” You huffed.

“I do, the turtles however, did not. I’ve since explained the situation to them so that they could shift their nesting spot until we repair the tear that you fell through.” He dove under the water, a tail, shimmering and covered in scales that glittered in the sunlight, appeared, shocking you. It must have been written on your face as clear as day because when he surfaced much closer to the edge of the pool that you stood at, pushing his wet hair back and resting on his arms against the side of the pool, his tail shimmering beneath the surface, it was like a slow motion scene from a movie and you had to shake your head to bring yourself back to the present, he smirked at you. “What?”

“Get fucked. How can you be fae & a merman?” You blurted.

He laughed at your outburst. “It’s part of the affinity. I can change shape at will in a large enough body of water. I’m not one of the merfolk, they live on the outskirts of my court, odd bunch. The tail is simply more practical for me to move around the aquatic areas of the court.”

“Show off.” You muttered as you sat down by the edge of the pool.

He grabbed your legs and pulled you into the pool, pinning you between the wall and his body as he glared at you. “I’m showing leniency since this is your first day knowing about the existence of supernatural creatures but don’t be fooled into thinking that you can be so cavalier with me in the future. I am the ruler of this court, you’d be wise to show more respect.”

Your brain told you to shut up, baiting him further would likely result in him drowning you and you’d had more than enough experience with that for one day. You hated the way he and his emissary spoke to you but your sharp tongue wasn’t going to keep you alive if you let it get the better of you. He trailed his finger down your cheek, under your jaw and lifted your chin, tilting your face up towards him. “I think for now it would be better for you to be a little more subservient.” He leant in, his lips pressing against yours as he kissed you. All logic told you to pull away but something about his lips was intoxicating. You gave in to his kiss and felt a pulse wash over your body, leaving a strange tingling feeling. If you were smarted you would have known that the fae could control you in many ways, intimate contact was just one of the more enjoyable ways for them to do so.

***

Days blurred together after you kissed the prince. All you wanted to do was be near him, please him and make him happy. You didn’t even think about returning home. You were blissfully ignorant of the dangerous situation you’d gotten yourself into. He’d held back from further physical contact after that first day. He saw how instantly devoted to him you were and he relaxed, you would not be something he had to worry about for the time being. Unless he gave you a task to do you would follow him around like a lost puppy. He tested you by having you sit with him during one of his meetings, telling you to remain next to him but to keep yourself amused while he worked. Afterwards he questioned you, happy when you admitted that you hadn’t paid attention to the meeting, on the verge of tears when you thought that admission would upset him.

You played along as the spell wore off, keeping up the charade as best you could while you learned about how he truly felt about you. He didn’t care for you, he hardly even thought of you. No, you were simply a new toy for him to play with and you knew that you needed to find a way out before he grew tired of you. Things went swimmingly until he noticed you becoming more aware of your surroundings. He couldn’t have you learning too much about him or his court, not that you would ever leave this place alive. He thought that after the initial kiss you’d remain under his spell but it appeared that he would have to reinforce it for it to last. That night he’d brought you to his chambers and made you cum so many times you forgot your name.

When you dreamt at night, your brain would try to remind you of the life you’d left behind, of what you needed to return to and the dangers of the prince’s court, but by the time you awoke he washed those memories away as he made your body sing in ecstacy. You spent most of your time wrapped in bedsheets, writhing beneath the prince as he used your body for his own pleasure. You learned his name was Suho, he got off on hearing you beg for him. You were addicted to his touch, eagerly awaiting his return to his chambers so he could have his way with you again. You were certain that he craved you, that the sweet nothings he would sometimes whisper in your ear were true. After all, he had told you that the fae can’t lie. You were too drunk on him to realise that these words were not romantic, they were simply appreciation for how your body felt and reacted to him, nothing more.

When you had to leave the bed you loved so much you were barely dressed in anything that could be referred to as clothes. In your mind you felt liberated and sexy, desired and loved when in reality he was parading around his plaything for the rest of the court to see. The sheer pieces of fabric he adorned your body with left little to the imagination. He didn’t care for you but under the haze of his spell, one he made sure to strengthen every night, you truly thought that he loved you. He hadn’t had a human plaything before, he’d alway thought it was beneath him but his brothers had often insisted that having one was an immense amount of fun.

He was beginning to see the truth to his brothers words. He recalled the words of the Autumn Prince “When you grow tired of fucking them, the new game is breaking their minds and watching them beg for death. They are truly pathetic creatures.” He’d remembered how his brother had laughed at how one such pet had begged for the mercy of his fire to end her life, because if he didn’t love her then how could anyone?

“Suho, I have an update for you.” D.O’s voice pulled him from his thoughts.

“What is it?” He replied.

“The tear has been patched, it was located in the demon district, right near The Cardinal. The seven deny any knowledge of the tear but unlike our kind, they are well known for their lies.” He paused, sneering at the mention of the demons. “Regardless, it is sealed and warded on both sides of the tear. I sent word to the other courts to see if any of our brothers had visited the area but everyone who has responded has been less than polite about telling me that they would not be stupid enough to jump planes in any district other than the fae controlled one. Sehun & Xiumin were most recently in the mortal realm but they both used the bar as their means of travel.”

“Who hasn’t responded?” He asked.

“The solar courts. I sent word via their emissary but Baekhyun, Chen & Lay have not answered us. I’ll check in with Kai tomorrow. Until then, is there anything you need?” He asked.

“If they don’t answer by tomorrow we’ll have to pay them a visit.” He had no desire to see his brothers from the solar courts, they were much more eccentric than the seasonal court princes. “I’ll have you visit Chen. I’m not in the mood to be electrocuted again, no matter how funny he thinks it is.I’ll see to the other two.”

“I would normally object to setting foot in the Night Court but Chen is the least bothersome when compared to the other two.” He shuddered as he recalled his last encounter with his Day Court brother. “Will you be bringing the human?”

Suho pondered bringing you along. He was pretty sure his spell over you wouldn’t wear off before he returned, and as much fun as it would be to distract his brothers with his human plaything, he needed them to focus. “No, she’ll be too much of a distraction for them. I’ll never get an answer out of them if she’s there.”

“I’d say she wouldn’t survive Lay, but we both know that he’d restore her physical body once he finished having his sadistic brand of fun.”

“His gifts come in useful during times of conflict.” Suho reasoned.

“You’ve never had to be healed by him have you?” D.O asked. His brother shook his head in response. “He can heal all wounds in a matter of minutes, that much is true, but he can only heal wounds that, if left untreated, would kill you.” He paused, taking a breath to calm himself. Suho waited patiently for his brother to continue speaking. “In order to heal me, he had to bring me to the brink of death first and he gets very creative in how he does that.”

The two brothers continued to plan out their potential journey. Agreeing that if they had to visit the solar courts, it would be smarter to visit Day & Night separately and tackle Dawn together. Without the help of their other emissary travel would take longer. By the time he got to bed that night Suho was too exhausted to be bothered with using you for pleasures of the flesh, sleep sought him out the moment his body connected to the mattress.

When no world came from Kai the following day they wasted no time in preparing for their journey. Suho had far too many things to organise before leaving, ensuring the palace ran smoothly, leaving instructions with his second in command to leave you in his room. He was sure that his spell would not wear off in the two to three days that he’d be gone.

What he was unaware of, due to his ignorance, was that the influence he had over you would normally take weeks to wear off, given how often he had been fucking you, but it diminished at an accelerated rate the further away from you he was. The first day he was gone you did nothing but roll about in the bed, imagining the ways in which you could service him upon his return but as night crept in you started to waver, finally feeling curious enough to wander back to the library.

In there you found books on fae spells and how they had a long history of toying with humans. It made your skin crawl. For the first time in weeks you started to think that maybe he didn’t care for you, maybe he was just using you. The thought was too depressing for you to dwell on, after all, you were stuck here, and if you were going to be stuck here you might as well believe that it was by choice.

You tossed and turned all night, dreaming of home and of the strange woman you had encountered all of those weeks ago. She’d asked why you dreamt of the sea? Now the thought of it made you sick. You needed to explore, to find the one area of this court that was not by the seaside.

In the early hours of dawn you fled the palace, thankful that all of Suho’s guards paid you no attention, thinking you were wandering about in a haze. At least he’d had the decency to tell is guards that you were off limits. You were his plaything and he did not like to share. You wandered down corridor after corridor, weaving your way down to the ground, then begun your journey West. To the East was nothing but ocean, and you figured if you headed West you would eventually find a spot where you couldn’t hear the sea or taste the salt in the air.

You hadn’t realised how weak you’d become, but the lack of proper nourishment made itself clear the further you trekked. You felt dizzy and hot but you pressed on until your body gave out on you, collapsing into the soft grass at your feet. Grass, not sand. If you’d had any liquid left in your body you could have cried. You never thought you’d be this happy to see grass again, it was almost sad. You curled up, hoping that you were safe, though not really caring, and waited for some of your strength to return. You knew there was no way you’d make it back to the palace before Suho returned and once he worked out that you’d strayed from his bed… well you couldn’t be sure how much longer he’d keep you around. You’d like to think that if he cared at all he’d forgive you and let you visit home but you would be foolish to believe your own lies.

***

“You look like shit.” The voice startled you. You couldn’t even pretend to still be asleep because you’d felt your body jump at his words. Slowly you opened your eyes, expecting the worst. What you hadn’t expected was to see that it was now night time and that a short, but respectful distance from you sat a man draped in an intricate robe, tending to a small campfire. He tossed a blanket towards you as he began cooking something over the fire. Your stomach grumbled at the sight of the meat roasting. “Don’t you know it’s dangerous for a human to be out all by herself in these lands?” He asked.

You sat up, wrapping the blanket around yourself as the thin flimsy fabric of your clothing no longer felt liberating but rather, you felt too exposed. You stared at the man, trying to work out what he was and if you could tell him the truth or if that was just likely to get you killed. His eyes met yours but you did not see any malice in them. All you saw was kindness and wisdom. This man had to be older than he looked but you got the feeling, one you had no way of reasoning out logically, that he would not harm you. “I had to leave the palace.” You started.

“The clothing, or lack thereof kind of gave that away. I am not here to judge, and I am not a member of this court. I’m only here because certain plants grow here and I needed to restock my stores. Will you tell me your story in exchange for a meal and advice?” His tone held no judgement and you felt oddly at ease. It could be another trick but you were just so tired of having no one to talk to that you decided to throw caution to the wind and accept this strangers offer.

You nodded and moved closer to the fire to warm yourself. “I was visiting Lankhmar, I don’t even know how long ago… it feels like months now, and I was on my way back to my hotel after visiting the market when I fell through a tear. I landed in the ocean to the East, near the palace and started to drown. Something or someone saved me and when I came to the prince and his emissary questioned me.” You paused, unsure of how much to tell, unsure of how much you wanted to have to admit was true. “I was kept by the prince, I thought… I thought that he cared for me b-but now I’m not so sure. I left the palace. I don’t know why but I just needed to find somewhere that didn’t smell of salt, somewhere I couldn’t hear the waves crashing.” You were shaking by the time you finished telling him your story. He’d go back and ask further details as he slowly pulled the whole thing from you.

“The fae are tricky creatures. The princes especially. Some are twisted beyond repair, using and discarding human playthings with ease. Others, like the Summer prince, have not been known to use humans so for him to have kept you, he must have felt something for you. Now this is not to say that he hasn’t abused his power over you or that he has treated you with care, because he hasn’t. He has used you to satiate his own needs but clearly he did not realise that his influence over you would wear off faster when he was away.” He sat back and handed you a skewer of meat. You waited a few moments before you gave into your hunger and began eating, careful to not burn your mouth on the food.

The meat was unbelievably delicious and tender, you only wished there were like ten more skewers. The man handed you a bowl of broth and tore you off some bread to have with it. As he ate he ruminated over your current situation. “I can offer two options to you, but ultimately, the decision is yours to make. One, you can stay here and leave with me tomorrow. I can return you to Lankhmar and you can adjust yourself back into life there, or, option two, I can provide you with a charm that will negate the princes hold over you. It will not last for more than a few days but it will show you if he truly cares for you or not. I will only be in these lands until the sun sets tomorrow, after that the tear I came through will be sealed.”

“Who are you?” You asked.

“I’m just an old mage who isn’t a half bad cook.” He chuckled. “You can call me Siwon.” He smiled warmly at you.

***

You trudged back through the hills the following day as you tried to keep your tears at bay. You’d been stupid, hoping that if you gave him a chance that he’d tell you all of the things you longed to hear. The mage’s charm worked and for the first time you truly saw how Suho treated you behind closed doors. He was not soft or loving, he was selfish, taking what he needed and not caring about your desires. You’d made one simple request and he had denied you. You knew that you needed to leave, this place would be your grave otherwise.

You arrived at Siwon’s campsite with moments to spare. The sun was beginning its descent in the sky, casting a pinkish glow across the sky “Please,” you puffed, having pushed your body to its limits to get here in time. “Take me back, I can’t. I can’t. I ca-”

“Shh child. I understand.” His voice was calming. He took a step towards you and wiped the tear that had started to fall from your cheek. He spoke gently. “I’ll return you to Lankhmar but understand that it will take time for you to readjust. Food will taste bland, the colours will seem dull and you will feel empty. Time heals all wounds. I’ll ward your room against danger and I’ll leave a protection charm with you in case they come for you. I might be old but I’m not useless.” He held out his hand and waited for you to take it before stepping back through the tear.

***

Either Siwon’s protection spells had worked or no one had bothered to try and track you down because after a month of constantly looking over your shoulder as you wallowed in your heartbreak, you’d finally started to move on. You weren’t expecting the heartbreak, especially since you knew he’d used you but regardless of the spell you’d been under, you’d fallen for him. There had been moments, fleeting moments but still, the existed, where he had shown kindness to you. It was those moments that you struggled to let go of, hoping that there was a shred of decency in him.

You’d been gone for a little over five months, and when you returned you’d viewed the city in a completely different way. Before he’d left Siwon had told you how to spot tears so that you didn’t accidentally fall through one again.

You’d caught wind of a local P.I who took on cases that were too odd to be real. Most people thought she was a shark, taking hapless fools for whatever money they threw at her for their unsolvable cases. Some people even thought the cases were made up. When you heard of the disappearances of young women your interest sparked. How many of them had fallen to a similar fate as you? You spend weeks trying to find the P.I’s office, less than impressed to find it right at the border of the demon territory. You had been avoiding them almost as much as you’d been avoiding downtown. You were never going to set foot there if you had any say in the matter.

The fact that the door was unlocked should have been your first warning sign but at the time you figured if a human was investigating the supernatural then standard human locks weren’t going to be high on her list of things that would keep her safe from danger. Sophrosyne - Private Detective. No case is too strange or deranged. You chuckled as you passed the bold lettering on her door.

The office was empty, which wasn’t necessarily odd. She might have been out on a case. You wandered about, trying to find a business card to at least get a phone number so that the trip wasn’t an entire waste of your time. You just wanted to help shed some light on the missing girls. If they were taken by the fae then you might be able to provide valuable information that could help get them back. You were proof that people could return from the fae lands and you refused to believe that you would be the last.

When you couldn’t find a business card you amended your search, trying instead to locate scrap paper and a pen. You’d leave an email address, a phone number was too traceable and you didn’t want to leave the hotel’s number in case any fae were sniffing around for you.

You were so absorbed in your search that you didn’t notice the blonde man enter the office. He leant in the doorway, watching you for a few moments before deciding to make his presence known. “What are you doing here?”

You jumped, almost hitting your head on an overhead cupboard. You turned and watched him carefully. He wasn’t human, no, there was something other about him. Power seemed to ripple off him, a kind you hadn’t felt before but had been warned about. The flash of black in his eyes confirmed what he was to you. “Demon!” You exclaimed.

“I have a name for fucks sake.” He growled before straightening up and plastering a fake smile on his face. “If you’re here you’re looking for a P.I. What seems to be your trouble, I’m sure I could be of assistance. For a price.” His tone dripped with honey, meant to draw you into his web of deceit before tricking you out of your soul. Siwon’s charm had little effect here but it did pulse as a way of warning you against the danger you were stepping into.

“Please, drop the act. I am not in the mood. If the P.I isn’t here then I have no business with you.” You turned to leave, not willing to engage with the demon further. You only hoped that he was a standard demon, if he was one of the Seven then you might not leave here unmarred.

He stalked towards you, each step smooth and calculated. Like a lion stalking its prey. “Well aren’t you just no fun. Honey, no one makes the trip out to Syn’s office just because they want a chat. Only the desperate come here. Why not reconsider my offer to assist?”

“Sometimes the wicked will say things just to confuse you.” You deadpanned.

“At least you’re not as dumb as you look.” He sighed. “If you’re looking for Syn, she’s not in right now. She’s busy being a martyr, or a fucking idiot, who knows. In the meantime I’m here.”

“And what do I call you?” You asked hesitantly.

“Avarice.” He grinned, setting all of your nerves on edge.

“Just more more thing ___. Don’t let anyone touch your lips again if it’s not me. Only I, Kim Junmyeon is allowed to.” He winked at you and left.

Finally you let out that breath that you held for so long, sighing loudly.

What were you going to do now?

Why did Yunho act that way? Was he also interested in you? He was just talking about amateur men’s behaviour, and he just totally kissed you in front of two men you were having mixed feelings about. 

Siwon. Could you just forget him like that? As if nothing ever happened between you two? Yes the start was wrong, and you felt it was off, but as days were passing you saw it in his eyes. Real love. Choi Siwon loved you for real. Love changed falling completely for...

The girl Kim Junmyeon wanted. This young man that came into your life claiming he saw you first and all that bunch of crap. The man that made you surrender in less than a few hours. You were his, you felt him like you never felt anyone before, but...

Dr. Jung Yunho also happened, and his lips were...

You held on your temples. The pain was no joke, you felt pain even in your poor foot, as if your heartbeats pounded there.

“___. You really look like shit.” Admitted your college Hyuntae.

“Oh geez, thanks. I wonder what they see in me.”

“All these guys are after you? I thought you were with the tan one. The one that looks like a prince.”

“I was. I broke up... long story.”

“And now? You have him and two more chasing after you?” He asked amazed.

“No. I mean- it’s complicated. I don’t know.” You sighed loudly.

“Anyways. Big boss said that if I see you looking like shit like you look right now, I should kick you out. Go home ___ please.” Requested Hyuntae.

“Well, I am not going to say no to that offer. Thanks Hyuntae.”

You called a taxi while you went to change your clothes. When you were done he was waiting for you already outside. You were just happy with the thought of going to the hostel and heat up some canned soup, take your medicines and sleep.

When you reached the taxi door a hand stopped you from getting in it. The owner of the hand took a big note bill and offered it to the taxi driver.

“I’ll take you home.” 

You rolled your eyes shaking your head. “Pffft. Who said?”

“I. Kim Junmyeon said.”

“Leave me alone.”

“I will just take you home. I am a gentleman after all. I would never let you go home alone in your condition, and if you asked me, you shouldn’t work.”

“I don’t have a billion worth family business to pay for my laziness.” You spatted venomously.

“I won't discuss this right now with you, but please take on my offer. I, at least don’t lie, and if I said I will only take you home, then I will just take you home.” He extended his hand and you took it like a fool.

Junmyeon had his car parked just at the corner. It surprised you that Siwon wasn’t the one waiting for you. You didn’t know what to think about him anymore. Where were all his love words? His promises? 

Have you forgotten that you cheated on Choi Siwon with the man that was driving you home? Why were your thoughts so not organised?

“I am sorry for today.” Started Junmyeon.

“What exactly? There are a lot of things you’ve done today. Like for example not leaving Siwon alone. What we did is unforgettable and yet he was there. He loves me. Why won’t you just leave?”

“He did what is even more wrong. I don’t care about what you had. It’s all based on a big lie. Aren’t you even curious about how I fell in love with you?” 

“Oh.My.God. Boy you sure are handsome and shit, but you need to get checked. You are speaking like them delusional people who see stuff that ain’t real. How many fingers are these?” You sarcastically asked.

“Don’t be silly. I am not messing around. If  all I wanted was to fuck up with hyung, then I wouldn’t be here driving you home. What happened the other night is the least important for me. It happened because you feel the connection too.”

“No. It happened because you are a horny fucker that needs to leave us the fuck alone.”

“So I guess this man that kissed you today. What is that and act to make me jealous? You clearly have nothing going on with him. You are speaking about Siwon hyung, not this man. Do you think you can fool me baby?”

“Make you jealous?” You inquired snorting. “And do you think I am going to answer anything you ask me?” You huffed looking at him. 

Oh he was so attractive damn. Immediate throbbing between your legs. Not that Siwon didn’t have that effect, he did. All the time, but that was the thing. He did because you loved him. Because you were still sure you loved him, but this man? Why did he have that effect? 

He reminded you of Siwon. That must be it.

“You will answer me when the time is right. I hate how our beginning started. I hate how hyung stole all the beautiful moments we could of had.”

“FUCKING STOP YOUR DELUSIONAL FUCKERY!” You screamed in a way that you wouldn’t of wanted. It came out way harsher than you intended. 

It was unintentional.

After all Junmyeon was there and Siwon wasn’t.

You saw him gulp and blink a few times. He didn’t say anything and drove in silence trying to look unaffected, but the strangest thing happened. You felt how affected he was, you felt the need of caressing his cute cheeks. You’ve hurt him and he didn’t even complaint about it. 

Would Siwon have done the same? 

“Stop at the convenience store.” You demanded trying not overthink things. It wasn’t needed.

“What do you need? I will go down.”

You looked at him and again. Why was he being so cute for? 

“You don’t have food at home have you?” He asked genuinely worried.

You didn’t reply either and just let him figure it out by himself.

“Are you allergic to anything? Do you dislike anything in particular?”

“Siwon is allergic to dairy.” You sighed. 

You noticed Junmyeon frowning when you brought up the Siwon comment. However he didn’t comment back.

“It doesn’t matter. I am not hungry anyways. I just want to sleep.”

He ignored you and stopped at a Japanese takeaway, he parked the car and rushed outside. 

You watched him walk buttoning his suit jacket, he was so cute with his shorter than usual suit pants. Junmyeon liked to show his cute socks that matched with his tie. 

You threw your head back hating how much he attracted you. How much attention you Pais to everything he did. You hated it because you were in need of a tight hug to tell you that everything will be alright. Even though you didn’t know yourself what you wanted. You wouldn't say no to a Junmyeon hug right now.

Not long he came back holding two paper bags and a plastic cup.

“For you. It’s matcha milkshake.” He extended his hand smiling the way he knew he could.

You took it getting lost in his glowing cheeks and his smile and all them beauty spots scattered here and there and ah... What were you doing again looking at him the way you were?

“I’m just trying to be nice. After all I understand how hard must be to go through a break up.” He stated fastening his seatbelt.

“Who said that Siw- who told you th- I am not-”

“I understand.” He interrupted you driving away.

-

“You are staying here?” He asked with a disgusted face as he opened the door for you when you arrived at your hostel.

“Not all of us can afford the commodities that you are used to. It’s just temporary.” You replied trying to walk alone.

“I don’t like it. Is it even safe? Come home with me.” He asked you almost pouting.

You scoffed loudly turning to face him. “I knew it. This was all to make me go home with you. Well... I will decline your suggestion. I am not a slut, and I am not going to end up with you Kim Junmyeon. Thanks for the food, you may leave.”

You were struggling to hold the bags by yourself. You were totally expecting Junmyeon to lift you as he was used to lately, but he didn’t. His eyebrows knitted looking away, just waiting for you to get inside to leave.

You thought it would be better. After all, this was what you wanted. Him realising that nothing will ever happen between you two.

You walked inside feeling his footsteps behind you. Of course it wasn't going to be that easy.

“___.”

“Yes Junmyeon. Yes, what now?” You stopped walking facing him.

“If you don’t want me fine, but I won’t let you stay here.”

“And how are you going to stop me?” You asked chewing on the inside of your cheek.

He took the bags off your hands and placed them on the small hostel corridor floor. “I will let Siwon hyung know. He still loves you, and I think you still do. Is that what you want? Go back to him? I will disappear. I am sorry for what I did. I hope you understand that I had to.”

Your eyebrows raised in surprise. His voce sounded broken, his lips quivering. 

You opened the door of your room taking the bags and getting inside, you wanted to close the door but he still stood there. You felt the urge to comfort him because he sounded genuine. Genuinely broken and disappointed.

“Thanks Junmyeon. You should go now.”

He nodded taking a step placing his hands on your doorframe.

“One last thing.” His hand travelled to your lips letting his thumb trace them. 

“Wha-” You flinched.

“Your last kiss shouldn't have been with that man at the café.”

“OK.” You grabbed his wrist but his hand travelled to the nape of your neck.

“It should at least be mine.” He chanted before tilting his head to capture your lips in a slow kiss.

It was short but wet enough for you to remember. He then rested his forehead over yours and his hands played with your hairs at the back of your neck. Before detaching himself he nudged your nose a few times giving you a signature smile where his beautiful sparking eyes disappeared into little half moons.

“Junmyeon.” You detached yourself just enough to speak on his lips.

“I’m done. That is not stealing. I am just fixing it. Now I was the last one to kiss you. Goodbye ___.” He waved.

You released your breath closing the door behind you panting resting your back on the door. 

Kim Junmyeon was deadly.

Junmyeon was finally gone. You took off your cardigan and the paper bags placing them on the dinning table feeling your stomach churn from hunger wondering what Junmyeon got you.

What didn’t he get you? Was a better question.

It was a feast for at lest 4 people. A very nice selection of Sushi, Sashimi, soup, side dishes. Wow. 

You started eating looking at the empty paper bag, where there were tissues and a note. You took it wondering what it was.

‘I wish you could invite me in. If you don’t, think of me while eating. 

Next time I see you we can share. I am so impatient wanting to know everything about you. Believe it or not you are my soulmate, and eating with my soulmate is one of my dreams. I will miss you.  Until next time.

김준면  ❤’

You scrunched the note and threw it inside the bag as you kept eating trying not to think of him.

Your phone rang <<<Siwon>>>

“Hello?”

“Baby! I am coming to get you. Junmyeon told me where you are staying. He also said that you would love me to come. Is that so?”

Your tears flowed as you swallowed that Sushi. You didn’t know anymore. 

“Siwon... I don’t know. I am sorry I hurt you, but you hurt me too. I am confused. I don’t know what I want.”

“I’ll be there in 10 minutes.” Confirmed Siwon cheerfully.

You kept eating while your tears drenched your face. You tidied up the place putting the remaining food in the paper bag, not before taking Junmyeon’s note and flattening it and hiding it in your pocket for some reason.

You brushed your teeth and changed into something nicer looking, just in time when you heard the knock on your door.

“Baby! It’s me!” You heard Siwon in his cheerful way as he always talked to you.

You opened the door shyly. His hair was down over his forehead wearing a simple jumper.

“Hi Siwon.”

“Oh my god I missed you like crazy. I couldn’t sleep or eat or think.” He admitted encircling his arms around your waist. “I love you so much. I am sorry. Please ignore anything that happened.”

“I can’t ignore Siwon. It’s not like you stepped on my foot and a simple sorry will fix it. I am also not happy with myself. I am not sure this can work anymore.” You agonised.

“It will. Just... who was that man kissing you today?”

“Siwon please.” You pulled yourself out of his embrace.

“No no. Alright. I won’t ask questions. Let’s go home.”

“I am not going home with you Siwon. I will be able to rent something better soon. Don’t worry.”

“Alright. Don’t come home with me. Stay at one of our hotels. You can pay me later.” Suggested Siwon pouting.

“I don’t- I can’t pay you back.”

“Don’t pay me back. Do whatever you want, but please don’t stay here.”

“It was my doctor.” You changed the subject back.

“Huh?” Asked Siwon confused.

“The man that kissed me is my doctor. He saw you two at the coffee shop acting like 15 year olds so he tried helping me get rid of you.”

Siwon fell quiet. His lips drew a thin line in annoyance remembering how Yunho kissed you in front of him. “I think it’s kind of stupid if you asked me.”

“I think so too, but Siwon you have no clue how stupid you and Junmyeon looked also.”

“Shhh, don’t say his name again.” Siwon raised his hand closing his eyes. “He’s gone for good.”

“Wow, he’s decent though. You stealing the girl he likes and then letting you have me.” You argued sarcastically. 

“You are mine not his.” He vouched.

“I am no one’s yet. I am still pissed.” You retorted.

“Alright. Let’s not ruin this.”

“Alright let’s.” You crossed your arms around your chest.

“I just...” Siwon got closer tugging your hair behind your ear. “I would like to fix something.” You looked at his beautiful eyes. “This man just kissed you... and I think it’s fair if I kissed you also.”

“No don’t fix anything.” You removed his hand off your cheek. “I am not letting you kiss me.” You reiterated.

Then you remembered Junmyeon’s last words and swallowed... 

“I’m done. That is not stealing. I am just fixing it. Now I was the last one to kiss you. Goodbye ___.”

-

Siwon didn’t kiss you. Not that he didn’t try. Instead Junmyeon’s sweet words lingered in your mind, and Siwon’s harsh ones from earlier too. It amazed you how people changed depending on circumstances. Even you. You were sleeping in Siwon’s arms just days ago, promising each other external love. Eternal love based on Junmyeon’s misery.

Siwon kept massaging your knee as he drove you to one of his hotels. You took on the offer as you knew how strict his mother was. He’d be less clingy at the hotel than at your hostel.

He took you to your room. It was spectacular to say the least. Your request to be the cheapest room not taken into consideration. How naive was this man? Didn’t he know his mother soon will be informed about the new situation?

“I hope you let me in sometime.”

“Not soon Siwon. I need to think.”

“Will you work tomorrow? I prefer you not to.”

“No. I have a doctor’s appointment to see how my foot is doing.”

“I will take you. That doctor needs to know you are with me.” “Whatever Siwon. He is not the problem.” You rolled your eyes.

“We have no other problems ___.”  He insisted.

This time he got ahold of you. He hugged you letting his lips touch your shoulder blade, taking in your scent that he long missed.

“All I want is to be like this forever. Kissing your skin. Letting you know how much I love you. Proving you I am nothing without you.” 

He kept kissing you, your neck, your jaw, your earlobe, finally approaching your lips. Siwon was strong and manhandled you in way that you found yourself caged between his strong body and the wall. Surrendered at his mercy once again.

His lips brushed yours lovingly. He did love you, there was no doubt about it. Only his ways were not ethically accepted. Still. He loved you.

“Nothing and no one can come between us.” He whispered planting his lips fully on yours. 

Erasing any trace of Junmyeon.

He pulled your lower lip with his teeth before titling his head deepening the kiss skilfully. This man was so skilled when it came to convincing melting kisses. Just with his mouth he angled you to receive his attack. All while his hands rested on the wall at both side of your head.

“I love you. I missed you.” His voice coming out hoarse and full of lust.

“Ah! Siwon my foot!”

“What!?”

“You stepped on my foot!”

He lifted you and walked you to your new bedroom overlooking all Gangnam district. You didn’t oppose when he sat next to you placing it on his lap. He watched your reaction and he carefully took off the brace your foot.

“It looks still swollen baby. What did that idiot doctor tell you?”

“Dr. Yunho isn’t an idiot. Stop being silly.”

Siwon blowed you a kiss as he started massaging your foot. You fell flat on the mattress letting him treat you.

“Does that feel good baby?”

“Aha.” You admitted watching his profile and the loving manner he treated you with.

It felt good and familiar. 

“I feel complete.” He mused lowering himself to kiss your toes.

You smiled back at him. Was it complete?

Almost complete... You still needed to get rid of the thought of Junmyeon every time you looked at Siwon. 

*****

“Oh ___!” Exclaimed Yunho, his happy face expression dying into a firm one when he saw Siwon entering behind you. “And...?”

“Choi Siwon.” He said extending his hand. “I am ___’s boyfriend. We met before in an unfortunate situation.” Confirmed Siwon smiling taking the piss.

“Right. I see.” Noted Yunho looking firmly at you. 

You bit on your lower lip nervously. You knew Yunho wasn’t happy to see you with who he thought was a possessive boyfriend. However what he did wasn't the most intelligent thing to do either.

“If you don’t mind waiting outside. I need to be alone with my patient.”

“Oh of course. Here is my business card for if you need our services doctor...”

“Yunho. Jung Yunho.”

“Right! Jung Yunho.” Repeated Siwon. “I will be outside baby.” He pecked your lips leaving you alone with your doctor.

Yunho frowned at you, as in not understanding how you didn’t acknowledge his kiss. Maybe?

“Why are you looking at me like that? I should be the one upset.” You broke the silence.

Yunho snorted placing his hands over his waist. “Really? Wasn’t he the one stalking you?  I don’t understand you women.”

“And I don’t understand you men! You kissed me! Who said I wanted you to kiss me?”

“I was trying to help.” Spatted Yunho bitterly.

“Who said I needed your help? Maybe I am in love with Siwon.”

“I would of guess you loved the other ghost-like smaller one. I have an eyes for these things.”

You gulped. Your eyes widening at his statement.

“Look.” He began. “I am sorry I kissed you out of the blue. I didn’t mean anything. But it just kills me when I see weak wome-”

“Weak? Who are you calling weak? What do you know?”

“___, just take care of yourself, I don’t think is that simple.”

*****

“I’ve made reservations. I want you to wear something nice. I want to show you off.”

“Let me guess. You got me some nice heels and-”

“No. Dress whatever you want. I just wanted to advise you it’s a fancy place. That’s all.”

“Alright Siwon. I need to look pretty anyways. I want to look pretty, and I will I guess.”

“You always look pretty. Do you need help showering?” He suggested as he helped you out of the foot brace.

“Naughty! Just go for now.” You punched his chest lightly.

He was impossible of course. Too tempting not to try anything. He slid inside your shirt at your back bringing you close. He unclasped your bra watching you not oppose.

“Please?” He whispered running his hand up and down your back.

“Will you prepare me a bath?”

“For two?” He asked his eyes widening.

“Just a bath for me Siwon.”

He didn’t argue and did as you requested calling you when it was ready. He helped you to the bathroom were you saw the bubble bath waiting for you. 

“It’s big enough for two.” Smirked Siwon.

You laughed swatting his chest. He pouted taking little steps blinking cutely, he slowly traced your arms with his fingers till he reached your shoulder pulling it to the side.

“What are you doing Siwonnie?”

“Ok, I will wait outside. I will wait till you are done.” He kissed your cheek leaving you to think.

-

He wasn’t lying when he said he will wait outside. He made you well aware that he was still there singing loudly for you to hear while you tried to relax. 

🎶 Sorry sorry sorry sorry naega naega naega meonjeo nege nege nege ppajeo ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby Shawty shawty shawty shawty nuni busheo busheo busheo sumi makyeo makyeo makyeo naega micheo micheo baby -

- Sorry sorry sorry sorry I I I first For you for you for you I fell Fell fell fallen baby Shawty shawty shawty shawty Eyes are blinding blinding blinding Breathe is stifled stifled stifled I’m going crazy crazy baby 🎶

You couldn't stop laughing as you played with the bubbles around you. You then heard his nails scratching at the door.

“Do you want to enter Si-horsey?”

“Please~~~”

“Ok, come in, but behave.”

He pushed the door open grabbing his undershirt from the back of his neck yanking it over his head tossing it aside displaying his glorious and perfect toned abs to you. He was so sexy, he was flawless. Not matching the silly dumb smile he had while he pushed his boxer briefs down almost tripping over.

He finally sank his legs sitting down pulling you atop of him.

“Who said you are allowed in?”

He raised and eyebrow while he caressed your legs that were at his sides. “Will I leave?”

“No I guess you can stay. Make it worth it.”

He grabbed the nape of your neck pulling you to him closing any gaps between you two. His other hand squeezing your butt cheek feeling his hardening member underneath you.

His gaze adoring you. Taking in all your face before kissing you. 

“Finally back together. You and I are perfect together. Nothing ever happened.” Whispered Siwon over your lips.

But it did... Junmyeon  happened.

Unintentionally... 

*****

He just left to get dressed for your date. You were looking forward to get back in track. Like old times. 

You decided to put his mother’s incident behind your back. Junmyeon’s incident behind your back, and even the reason why got together with Siwon behind your back.

What mattered was now. What he was, and how he was.

He wore a dark grey suit combined with a dark grey shirt. Unbuttoned a button to much giving hints of what he had underneath. His hair brushed back. He went to the barber to accentuate his side shaves. You were lost looking at how beautifully he smiled at you making you forget everything.

“You look stunning.” He said looking from the menu to your face.

“Well. I mean if I look stunning, what word will I use to describe you Choi Siwon?”

“You really like me baby?”

You nodded smiling.

“Hello. Have you decided what will you have sir?” Interrupted the waiter.

-

After ordering you headed to the restrooms. Admittedly this new bra you wore was making you short of breath. Women did have to suffer to look beautiful, while Siwon was just flawless the minute he woke up without even washing his face.

As you entered you saw a girl talking on the phone looking at her reflexion in the mirror. At first you thought she was an actress, because girls like these weren’t just found anywhere. You wondered how men like Siwon, Junmyeon... or even Yunho acted around such a beauty. You almost forgot why you were there to begin with.

You entered a toilet and unzipped your dress to try and figure out how these pushup bras worked. 

“I don’t know if he likes me.” 

You heard the girl talk involuntarily.

“I mean Siwon’s mom kept throwing me at him, and all I got was sex. I tried everything to formalise anything with him. This handsome fucker seems to be caught up with some other bitch.”

Did she just say Siwon? It couldn’t be your Siwon could it? There were loads of Siwons scattered all over both Koreas. Why overthink?

“I mean Junmyeon has nothing to envy him. I guess I will try my luck. So far so good. We are having dinner and I am dying to see what’s underneath that shirt. i am ready to have a wild night.”

She continued talking triggering you.

She was definitely talking about your Siwon and your... No Junmyeon wasn’t yours. 

It still stung you. The fucking liar. He lied to you. Junmyeon said he loved you and the same day he takes out another girl. Not just any girl. The girl that Siwon’s mother wants for him. The girl Siwon slept with god knows how many times.

You fixed your boobs as best as you could and went outside. You looked at the girl one more time comparing yourself to her. How was it possible that she was this thin yet her ass was twice the size of yours? Her hair... it felt like she had triple amount your hair, thick and shiny. Her lips full and kissable.

You guessed Junmyeon was dying to kiss her. Perhaps he already kissed her. Siwon most definetly did a lot of times.

“Do you need anything?” She asked interrupting your thoughts as she noticed how you scanned her shamelessly.

You shook your head and headed outside just to meet with the better view. Siwon and Junmyeon right outside the restaurant in front of the big glass window. Siwon towering over Junmyeon who didn’t seem threatened.

You rushed outside, just in time to hear what you needed to hear.

“No you cannot go out with Lara. She’s considered my territory.” Growled Siwon.

“What’s going on here?” You asked looking only at Siwon.

“Baby. Let me explain.” Siwon tried but you flinched.

“Oh my god. Rooster fight. I will call you later.” The girl was just next to you terminating her call.

Siwon looked at her head to toe rubbing his chin. What was he doing? Why was he looking at her that way for? To incommode Junmyeon? Well it was bothering you. Your insides churned. You wanted to slap him right there.

And then you made eye contact with Junmyeon, who seemed the most affected. You spoke a million words without speaking. Him reading your thoughts, the feeling of stabbing in his chest.

“Who is she?” Asked the girl.

“Who are you?” You replied with a sassy tone.

“I am Jung Lara.”

“And I am ___ ___, and this man is my boyfriend.” You pointed at Siwon.

“Oh! So you are that girl!” She cooed annoyingly.

“Certainly I am. I want to go home Siwon.” You requested firmly.

“Sure babe.” He smiled. “But Lara is going home too.” 

“Excuse me?” Asked Junmyeon. “And why his that?”

“He’s playing you Lara.” Siwon affirmed taking her wrist.

“And you care because?” You inquired astonished. “You know what? I don’t fucking care. Take that bimbo home. She’s considered your territory after all.”

Siwon tried stopping you but you gave him a death glare he wouldn’t dare stop you. He followed you asking for the bill. You took your purse heading outside leaving Siwon looking for a waiter to attend him.

Outside Junmyeon seemed to be waiting for you. This Lara girl kept talking to him but he was zoomed out.

“Junmyeon! I am talking to you!” She exclaimed. 

When Junmyeon saw you trying to get a taxi he walked towards you. “I’ll take you home.”

“What? You are going to take this rug home?” Asked Lara.

Junmyeon raised a finger at her. “Don’t you fucking dare speak like that about ___. Understood?”

“Whatever loser.” She left him heading inside. “I bet your dick is smaller that Siwon’s”

You turned around snorting. “ACTUALLY! SEX WITH JUNMYEON IS MUCH MORE SATISFYING!” You shouted at the top of your lungs. “I GUESS YOU WILL NEVER KNOW!” You concluded.

Lara scoffed trying to look unaffected leaving the battle.

Junmyeon was shellshocked for a moment. He needed a bucket of water to wake him up from hearing that statement out loud. He shook his head and ran after you.

“___. Please let me take you home.” Insisted Junmyeon now that he was left alone with you.

You looked at him sniffing. “I have no home.”

“You have my home.” He chanted taking your hand lacing his fingers with yours walking you to his car.

_________________________

A/N: Who’s bad? Who’s good? 

Why did Junmyeon go out with Lara? Why was Siwon annoyed?

“Dude! Why the hell do you have to be so extra? I’ve been gone for two weeks, that’s it! You act like I’m your long lost love returning home from war.” you said as soon as you got up to Siwon.

“You just might be.” he said, wrapping an arm around you.

“Seriously, this is so embarrassing. Can we please get my luggage and go?” you asked, hiding your face from view.

“Your boyfriend is really sweet.” you heard someone say from next to you as you were waiting for your luggage.  Siwon had hung back a little.  His giant sign taking up too much room where other people were standing.

“Oh, he’s not my boyfriend.” you told the kind older lady next to you.

“Are you sure about that?” she asked, twinkle in her eye.

“Yep. He’s my obnoxious best friend, that’s all.”

“That’s how many great love stories start my dear.  You should take a closer look at everything.”

Well that was cryptic.

“So how was your trip?” he asked.

“It was fine.  It was work so it was the same old shit, just a different country.” you said.

“Aw, my little globe trotter!” he said, patting your head affectionately.

“Dude stop, I’ve been on a plane for eight hours. I feel gross.” you whined.

“You don’t look it though.” he said, but removed his hand anyway.

He drove the two of you to a little diner in the same neighborhood as your house to eat dinner.  The two of you talked about your trip, and what he had going on while you were away.  You realized sitting here, that you’d missed him.  You talked to him every day, but it was different sitting with him face to face.

“Do you want any dessert?” that waiter asked as he came to collect your plates.

“Yep, one chocolate milkshake, two straws.” Siwon answered.

“Why can’t you get your own?” you asked.

“Because I want to share with you.  Also, you never drink a full one on your own and then whine to me to finish it anyway.”

“Okay, you have a point.”

You were absentmindedly watching the people walk on the sidewalk as you sipped on your milkshake.  From the corner of your eye, you saw Siwon shift in his seat, and then come up to drink the milkshake from the other straw.

The sudden closeness of him startled you a little.  You could see all of the defined features of his face.  You didn’t move away at first.  You sat there, eyes locked with his.  It wasn’t until you felt yourself blushing again that you moved.  Siwon must have noticed because he cocked one perfectly shaped eyebrow at you, but didn’t speak.

As you were up paying for dinner, there was yet another sweet older lady there to compliment what a great boyfriend you had.

You went to argue, again, that he was not your boyfriend, but you were stopped by the arm that came across your shoulders.

“I’m only as great as the woman next to me.  Without her by my side, well I don’t know where I’d be.” he said.

The woman swooned appropriately at Siwon’s words, wishing you guys all the luck in the future.

“Dude! What the hell. Do you realize that’s the second person today who has complimented what a great boyfriend you are.” you said.

“Well, they’re not wrong. I am a great boyfriend.”

“That might be true, but not mine!”

After you’d gotten home and Siwon had helped you carry your stuff inside, you crawled into your bed and thought over the day you’d had.

Siwon had been acting even more dramatic than his normal self. He seemed to be going above and beyond to make you uncomfortable.  You were used to his jokes and his antics, but this seemed to be extreme, even for him.  The tired part of your brain told you it was him declaring his undying love for you.  The more rational side told you Siwon liked having fun at your expense and not to think about it too much.

That didn’t stop you from dreaming about marrying Siwon that night.  Stupid traitor brain.

You’d been walking around the mall for close to half an hour, trying to find Siwon.  He had taken off to look at something “real quick” but had disappeared completely.  You were almost ready to give up and go back home by yourself when you felt someone tickle you at your sides, causing you to jump up.  You came down hard on the heel of the close toed pumps you were wearing, breaking it.

“Seriously. This just isn’t my day.” you muttered, taking your shoe off and staring at it.  

“And you!” you turned on Siwon.  “What the hell was that for? Now one of my favorite pair of shoes is ruined. AND I have to walk around the mall with either one shoe, or no shoes.”

Before you realized what was happening, Siwon was swooping you into his arms and walking to the closest shoe store.

“We have an emergency and need some new shoes.” he said as he flourished into the store, carrying you bridal style.

“What are you looking for?” the sales woman asked you.

“Flats.” you answered immediately, not wanting to wear another pair of heels right now.

Siwon walked around the store and found a pair of flats that were close to the same color of shoe were had been wearing previously.

Once he got your seal of approval he went up to the counter to pay for them as you were putting them on.

“That wasn’t necessary” you said, knowing you could pay for your own shoes.

“It was my fault.  Plus, I’m having the other ones repaired and you should have them back within a week or so.”

“You didn’t have to do that.” you said, touched at his kind gesture.

“I know they’re your favorite pair.  Plus, she thinks I’m a great boyfriend so it’s a win win.”

You stopped in your tracks just outside the shoe store.

“Seriously, what is this weird thing you have where you need people to tell you that you’re a good boyfriend?” you asked him.

“Well. I’m hoping if enough people tell you what a good boyfriend I am, you’ll realize how good I could treat you. I know I’m immature and forgetful. I know I’m obnoxious and too loud sometimes.  But that doesn’t take away from how well I can treat you. I’d give you the whole world if you’d just let me.” he said.

You wanted to recoil at his words.  Having known him for so long, he treated everything as a joke.  You were waiting for him to drop the other shoe and tell you that he was joking, but he never did.

“Holy shit.” you said, realizing that he meant every word.

“The world?” you asked for clarification.

“Oh come on. How can you resist my charms and my begging of you?” he said, shooting you an adorable smile.

“You're not begging me, you're annoying me!” you replied, ready to fling his ass our the front door.

He gave you a crazy look and raised his eyebrows in question.

“What the hell is wrong with you? You cannot set up a drum set in my living room! Why would you even think that's an option?! It's already bad enough that you've turned my spare room into your personal dojo, mats and all. And now you wanna "borrow" my living room?” 

“Yes” he replied, like it's the most normal thing in the world.

Three days after the dumb confrontation with Siwon, you were coming home after a long day at work and all you could think of doing was laying in the couch and taking a nap. You never put a TV in your bedroom because you'd stay up late watching it, but that also means you spent more time on the couch and you weren't sure that was the better option.

As you were getting out of the car you saw Siwon leaving the front door. While this itself wasn't exactly abnormal, he came and went as he pleased, what was abnormal was the second he saw your car in the driveway, he took off running.

Well, that was weird at all, you thought to yourself.

As you were walking towards your house, realization hit you and yelled at his still retreating form.

“Siwon I swear I am going to murder you in your sleep some day!!”

You could hear his loud laughter even though he was halfway down the street.

Where the hell is he even going? 

Just as your feared, you walked into your living room and there sat a full drum set. All your furniture had been pushed to one side. At this point you weren't actually surprised, just frustrated because you wanted to take a nap and watch some TV.

You walked over to the stupid drum set, intending on kicking the damn thing over when a note caught your attention.

I know what you're thinking and if you knock it over, it's only going to dent and scratch your hardwood floor. Also, based on your texts today I can already tell you want to take a nap so I bought a TV for your bedroom. You're welcome!

You're welcome? Is he fucking kidding me?! He might be the shittiest yet most thoughtful friend I have you thought

You walked into your bedroom and sat on top of a new table on the opposite wall from your bed was a big TV.

You wanted to call him and yell at him, but your bed was calling your name. It was only a little after 2pm and you'd already worked 10 hours today, at this point he could have flooded your whole house and as long as you got a nap, you wouldn't have cared.

Something drew you from your sleep some hours later. You didn't work the next two days so you didn't bother setting an alarm so you didn't sleep so long. You could have slept all the way into tomorrow and you'd have been just fine with it.

Looking over at your alarm clock you saw it was just after 5. While it had been a long nap, it still didn't feel like enough for you.

But all those thoughts flew out the window when you came to your senses and realized the noise that woke you up was some soon to be dead man playing the drums.

You flung your covers off and walk into the living room. There sat Siwon at the drum set, smiling one of the happiest smiles you’d ever seen from him.

“Morning sunshine, I brought you some dinner.” he said, nodding his head towards the kitchen. You smiled slightly as his use of the nickname he’d given you.

You wanted to yell and scream at him again, but you could smell your favorite food sitting on the table and all thoughts of anger flew out the window.

You heard the quiet drums in the background and didn’t actually mind it in that moment. It was quiet enough that it wasn’t annoying.  You didn’t know what he was playing, but it was almost like a lullaby.

You heard him singing quietly to himself and stopped eating for a moment so you could listen to what he was singing.

My only sunshine.  You’ll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don’t my sunshine away.

Your whole body froze.

Was it just a coincidence he was singing that song? That was your nickname from him, but he sounded so sincere and serious. What is happening right now?

You stood up quickly from the table and walked to the entryway to watch him.

“Ya know, I’ve kinda just slowly been moving my way in here. I don’t know if you’ve noticed. I made your spare my dojo so I could spend more time here with you, knowing you like to watch me practice.  I leave my clothes and things here so I have an excuse to come back, or stay the night if it’s too late.  I know we’ve been friends for a long time, but it’s always been more for me. I don’t know how you feel, but I know how I feel.” Siwon said seriously, still quietly playing the drums, he then lifted his head and stared right at you.

“I love you Y/n.”

Your heart stopped, time stopped, everything stopped and you were glued in place.

You watched in a fog as Siwon got up from the drumset and walked slowly over to you, his eyes never leaving yours and the soft smile never leaving his face. 

You finally registered what was happening as he was right in front of you.  You watched as he slowly got closer to you, outstretching your arms.  Your brain switched on and you involuntarily swung a fist at him, connected with his torso.

“I go in for a hug, and she punches me” Siwon said to himself, laughing.

“What the hell did you expect! I don’t know how to feel right now.  You annoy me every day of the week, make fun of me, set up a drum set in my living room and then suddenly are confessing to me. I just woke up, I’m not all with it right now, and I’m not sure that I’m even awake at this point to be honest.” you admitted, mind racing.

Suddenly, his lips were on yours.  You stood there shocked for a minute.

“You’re not dreaming.” Siwon said, close to your ear, making you shiver.

All of the sudden you were hyper aware of the situation and how you must look seeing how you just woke up and had been eating before his sudden confession.

You slipped out of his grasp, taking off to your room.

“Hey, where are you going?! I’m professing my undying love for you right now and you’re running away!” Siwon said, laughing.

“I need a minute.” you said, slamming your door shut behind you.

“How long is a minute?” he asked, still amused.

“As long as it takes to get that fucking drum set out of my living room.”you yelled back.

“I love you!!!” he yelled loudly.