#sirj

There will be days where a sub doesn’t feel good about themselves.

Low energy.

Self-conscious.

Not wanting to be seen or do anything at all.

That happens.

In those moments, the instinct is usually to withdraw.

A good dynamic doesn’t force that away.

It adjusts.

Smaller tasks.

Simpler expectations.

A clear check-in.

Something manageable that brings you back into yourself.

Not to push you past your limits.

But to stop the spiral and keep you connected.

Obedience, when it’s chosen, creates momentum.

A könny, a megfagyott élet olvadása.

Néha a patakokban ömlő könnyeink gyógyítanak meg, és a már elviselhetetlen szenvedésből születünk újjá és felszabadult, boldog emberré.

Ha már fáj a lelked vagy a tested, ne félj eljutni a fájdalom mélypontjára, mert ott tisztulsz meg, onnan születik a gyógyulás.

Úgy hívják ezt a "Nem bírom már!" állapotot, hogy katarzis.

Ne félj tőle! Most születsz újjá.

Sírjál, sírjál, sírjál, ne tartsd vissza!

Amikor megszületünk, akkor is bömbölünk, torkunk szakadtából, mert az életért éppúgy, mint minden szépért, boldogságért és örömért, az ember könnyekkel fizet. "

Müller Péter

For the Record, I’ve recently accepted that I have DID, multiple personalities. There’s... 8? In total so far, and I’m pretty sure that’s it. I’d like to introduce them all, in the order they made themselves known, as that is how we like to be approached! 1: Conrad (He/Him) Conrad is a short, anxious black and white tuxedo cat. For the longest time, Conrad took care of a lot of the main responsibilities of existing day to day, like going to work and managing finances, things like that. He’s on something of a forced vacation, after a panic attack that lead to a breakdown, Conrad is taking a back seat to everything to recover from the stresses of dealing with unemployment and covid. 2: Sirj (He/They) Sirj is the one in my icon, a large purple and black fox bear with pink hair. It’s hard to nail down Sirj’s personality and relationship to the greater whole. but he’s kinda closer to being another “main” personality. If you’ve interacted with me before, chances are it was Sirj.

3: Red (He/Him)  Red is a fox, uh, he’s less connected to his physical manifestation in the room so far, but basically, he’s a hot headed Alter who’s very good at controlling our body physically, which is probably why he’s more interested in representing himself in the meat space than online or conceptually.

4: Cecil (Faunette) Cecil is a plant/fruit based creature, who struggles very much with communication. Cecil can’t speak or type, and can only be understood by using gestures and pointing to things, or by being translated for by another Alter or even another friend who can understand Cecil’s unique “Cecil Language”. Cecil very much identifies with the fact that Faunette is Autistic, and accepts that’s part of why Faunette can’t talk. Still, Cecil is very expressive and loves being part of conversations, even if Faunette is a little nervous about how much extra work it can be to communicate with Faunette.

5: Ckat (She/Her) Ckat is a sparkledog Sergal, she knows she has dark but colorful fur, and is very fond of her appearance conceptually. She’s very talkative, but isn’t very good at doing so online, her preferred medium is speaking orally. She’s very present for voice chats, but has recently experimented with texting. She also sleeps a lot! and is difficult to summon, usually only coming out when a conversation gets particularly lively

6: Soleil (She/???) Soleil is a long haired rabbit girl, with glasses and a gentle smile. She is very adept at speaking with and for the other personalities, and is Cecil’s go to for when Faunette needs someone to translate a particularly wordy thought. She is doing her best to not define herself based solely on her relationship to the other Alters, and to come into her own. She likes the old school emoticons, especially ^w^

7: Glenn (He/Him) Glenn is a maned wolf who is very authoritative, and honestly sometimes borders on Problematic. He is also the one writing all this, and is getting better at getting along with the other Alters and accepting that this is a real change in our lives and that we’re no longer going to be pretending we’re not a bunch of different personalities in one body’s head. I’m a little sour that the main body gets to be called Sirj, but we all agree it’s a cool name it’s how we’d like to refer to our physical form. (EDIT FROM THE GOBLIN, GLENN LIKES TO TALK LIKE HE’S A LORD OR SOMETHING, LIKES THAT FLOWERY ANTIQUATED LANGUAGE SHIT AND HE’S REALLY WORRIED HOW IT COMES OFF)

8: The Goblin (He/Her) The Goblin is a 3 foot tall bat with green fur, and is not in fact /actually/ a goblin. Much like how Cecil can not speak or type, The Goblin can not speak or emote, and can in fact only communicate online via texting. She envisions herself in a room filled with computer monitors and wires, but like Soleil is very good at speaking for some of the other alters, in an online capacity. She also prefers to type in all caps!