i know your identity isn't tolerated by the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally and it kills me everytime. you don't know how much i want you. and how much restraint i exercise to keep myself from telling you. but i know you enough. and i want you to have a sense of your own independence before i say anything. to have your own space. that i can fill in, if you'd let me.

girlie has apparently broken up with her boy toy. i wonder why. maybe i should tell ice about it.

hey i miss him i relaly miss hinm

returned to that one livestream platform and honestly wtf it's fun to go live.

its so awful. its so awful. the heart is such a heavy burden. yet a shared burden is half of it. i want to carry your half. yet i almost can't seem to stomach the thought of burdening you with mine.