#sin.asks

first of all: i’m so excited to answer this! thank you for asking. 🥰

we met on here. sin followed me when i was a fairly small blog and was always making funny little comments in her reblogs. i followed her back and we would rb/like a lot of the same content (beyond just similar hornypostings). one day i had a new anon, which i had a sneaking suspicion was her, given i followed her back and liked a lot of what she posted. spoiler: i was correct. this anon was one of my favourites, if not my absolute favourite. her compliments and pet names for me had me so mushy, before we’d even really spoken.

eventually, we started dming and realised very quickly that we do in fact have a lot in common, a lot of shared humour and our personalities bounce off one another with ease. we became friends, which lasted for months and months, though there was always an underlying spark that we didn’t fully acknowledge. i knew i was insanely attracted to her, physically, emotionally and mentally. but personal circumstances were getting in the way and i wasn’t sure i could handle a relationship with some physical distance after a fairly disastrous experience on here (the OGs remember that mess).

to this point, we’d fooled around in various ways. we’d acknowledged feelings of sorts that couldn’t be acted on for the reasons i mentioned. we teetered on a very thin line of friendship and something more. i can pinpoint two turning points, one far more subtle than the other.

the first was me attending a work event, a large conference hosted in a fancy hotel. each table had free wine. i made very good use of the free wine. i’d prettied myself up that evening and by the time i was stumbling up to my room, my head was spinning. the first thing i did? call her. she’d been on my mind all night and the alcohol enabled me to speak more freely than i did before. however, this was a very horny sinister-femme that was calling and begging for her. i’d only beg for her.

the second turning point was a different evening in a hotel (i travel a lot for work, if that wasn’t obvious on my blog already). we were just chatting on a video call, yapping away about whatever random topics. and she’s just. staring. at me. with the softest gaze i’ve ever experienced in my life. she’s posted her eyes on her blog before, they’re the prettiest blue puppy eyes you’ll ever see. and in that moment, she’s just staring at me with the most loving expression. it left me speechless. it still makes my head spin when i remember that night and the way she gazed at me.

there wasn’t room for pretending and denial after that second one.

and here we are. i don’t really have any wise words about how to find your person, other than you know within your very being when you have. i wasn’t looking for her. as i said, we were friends first. but there had always been that tension and yearning between us. we just clicked. i’m not particularly superstitious, but i see signs within the universe each day that affirm my belief that she’s my person. we joke about them all the time, the random ways the world shows us we’re good together.

i think it helped us a lot that we had a very solid friendship before all else, which remains. she’s my bestfriend, i’d trust her with anything. we can laugh with one another just as easily as we can fuck. we try our best with open communication, honesty and sharing when something is bothering one of us. she cares for me in a way like no other could and i do for her. it’s so different having mutual love, adoration and respect for one another. it helps that we’re also both mildly insane, possessive and obsessive. hehe.