#simultaneouslygoodandbad

I did it and I feel better, and All I have to say is…… That I feel better about it.  I feel better now that I finally got everything out there that I needed to.  What I also feel is really bummed because  when I told her she also mentioned to me that she is seeing someone already.  And I assured her that getting everything out was a form of confession and not a form of persuasion.  Though I waited so long I guess I should have been open to the fact that A LOT could happen in a year..  But what I told her was that hanging out with her before I left made me realize why I had the feelings I had,  It wasn’t that I was in love with her but it was the moment where the Crush becomes something more than a crush and actually becomes the romantic feelings.  I told her that I wished that I waited for her after confessing and playing her “Paper Thin” from AM Kidd on the Piano and rapping for her.  It was about 3 weeks to a month afterwards when I got into the relationship with my Ex girlfriend.  For the longest time I was always thinking about this girl and that I should have waited for her.  I have to say as much of a bummer it is that she’s already seeing someone it’s also relieving that I got it all out.  I no longer have that pressure of all the “what ifs” and what not.  Well thank you for reading and Happy Valentines day to you all.