#simophiliawrites

I was finishing the dishes so that I can.. keep my mind of Yuri’s face earlier. I can’t help but cry while doing it, the running water noise disguised my silent weep. 

“Miyu” said a voice that’s too familiar. I felt the sadness in his voice. I couldn't bring myself to say something. After all that he have seen earlier? I’m just too ashamed. Too selfish. 

I heard his footsteps getting closer and closer to me, making my heart flinch in each step. 

“Just look at me please?” He touched my shoulder and maneuvered me so that I’m facing him, I cant look at him, I can’t be in his presence. 

“Now listen to every word I say, before I change my mind about it.” he cupped my chin, searching for my gaze but I was just looking down with no words. His warm hand against my cheek, his tone of voice..this exact moment, it never felt so nostalgic. 

“I’m letting you go.” 

I gulped, thinking of what I should say. But my eyes did all the talking. Tears flooded my face. He wiped my tears but it made the pain worst. “I love you and I wan’t you to be happy.” Yuri.. smiling but his eyes said otherwise. 

We both wept as we knew it was really goodbye this time. 

TO BE CONTINUED.

Meanwhile. 

Tetsu told me to head first in his room as Miyu is still doing some cleaning back in the Kitchen. First door that I see is his room he said. So I entered then I realized that something is very off. 

This bedroom does not fit into Tetsu’s personality.. So weird. Huh?! Wait a minute? Who is that girl in his bed side? 

I looked around to investigate further and I saw photos near the desk...Tetsu and Yuri.. yeah nothing new about that.. hmm. No it can’t be! This.. girl is.. Miyu? What? They all knew each other before?! Now this is some revelation! OH MY! What I said earlier.. he was an ex-boyfriend.. Oh my gosh! 

“Now I wonder if Reiji knows all about this?” I thought out loud. 

“No he doesn’t and you better keep your mouth shut about this.” Tetsu popping out of nowhere. 

“Geez!! You scared the heck out of me.” I pouted “Well, Don’t you think Reiji has the right to know?” I added

“This is not your business, leave it alone.” He snarled at me. I’ve never seen him this furious. I wanna tease him some more.

“Pssh! I won’t tell him but.. you have to do something for me.” I challenged; placing my hands on my waist. 

“Tell me” Tetsu looking all serious now.

“I want you to kiss me.” 

He grinned.. in a creepy way. Oh no, he’ll actually do it! He grabbed my shoulders and whispered “I don’t do kisses, little girl.” I can tell that he was smiling while whispering those lines. “But, I can offer you something more.” he continued then he nibbled my ear. 

It sent shivers down my spine, the hair on the back of my neck stood up as if I’ve seen a ghost. My face red hot; It was an intense feeling that left me speechless.

TO BE CONTINUED.

“Goodnight Miyu, I’ll see you tomorrow!” Reiji pulled me into his arms and kissed my cheeks then I saw Yuri by the hallway, watching me and Reiji. Tears running down his face. 

Why do I feel so guilty? Why do I feel like I’m the bad guy in all of this? All I wanted is to be happy. To live a quiet life but lately  it has been the opposite, maybe.. loving Reiji was a wrong decision? I don’t know. 

“Reiji.” I tried to pull away from him but he hugged me tighter. 

“No.. I don’t wanna let go of you yet.” Reiji whispered. 

I nodded then closed my eyes but all I can see was Yuri’s sorrowful eyes, staring back at me.

My heart felt heavy, ready to explode any minute now. I know I don’t deserve to be happy now. 

TO BE CONTINUED.

Wonder what they’re talking about? They look so happy, it should be me. Not Reiji. I’d give up anything to be in Reiji’s place. But here I am, eavesdropping like a creep. Man, this sucks so much. My heart suddenly clenched.

Reiji.. just grabbed Miyu and kissed her. I can’t watch this. This is too much for me. My body just wouldnt move. I never expected they will go all out like this.. Miyu.. what did I do to you to deserve all this pain?  

TO BE CONTINUED.

“Miyu, you should stay the night. The rain is too strong. I’ll inform Arisa too.” Tetsu’s right, at this rate it will be difficult to see the road. 

“I’ll tell Reiji.” Tetsu nooded then walked away, I saw him talk to Reiji probably gave him a heads up too. After that I saw Reiji walking towards me.

“So Tetsu just told me that, you and Arisa will be sleeping in his room.” Reiji grinned

“Sure, anything is fine with me.” 

“Sucks though, It would have been better if you were to sleep beside me. But he did said that means he has to sleep with Arisa in his bedroom which is totally awkward. So I just agreed” Reiji being cheerful as always, this is honestly one of the reasons why I dated him, he is a ray of sunshine. 

“That’s true though, at least me and Arisa are both girls, it will not be as awkward.” I pointed out.

“Anyways Miyu, I’ll get your stuff ready, I’ll go on ahead. Tell me about you and Tetsu’s convo tomorrow kay?” Grinned like a little kid, he is so adorable. 

TO BE CONTINUED.

Tetsu and I went to the patio, I felt the cold wind gush into my face, it was also drizzling. I hope it wont turn into a storm. 

Tetsu suddenly grabbed my face closer to his and kissed my forehead.

“Just like old times right?” Tetsu smirked. It did feel nostalgic, too nostalgic that its scary.”You still rocking your braids I see” he gently played with it. Reiji mentioned to me that Tetsu now enjoys casual S&M, but I honestly couldn't see that, Tetsu has always been careful and gentle towards me. But yea, when he’s like this, it only means one thing.

“Tetsu, lemme me guess, he wants you to apologize for him again?” 

“Well there you have it.” 

“Why do always have to do this for him? You’ve spoiled him too much Tetsu. The thing is, even Reiji does it. He apologized to me in behalf of Yuri the other day. You even taught Reiji to do that.” He needs to hear it, ever since I met them, Tetsu has being doing all the fixing for Yuri. 

He was quiet for a moment. I’m sure he’s thinking of an excuse, that would make me forgive Yuri. 

“He’s having a hard time Miyu, what would you feel if you we’re in his shoes? Seeing the person you love be with someone close to you, you should know by know. After all, you almost a doctor.You’re the one who should understand” He used the I’m-a-psychologist-card, oh my. I did take up Psychology for Yuri..so..

“But if you keep tolerating him, nothing will ever change.”

He smiled and said “Look at you, all grown up, you’ve really matured through the years Miyu. If only it wasn't Yuri who’s inlove with you, I would have taken you for myself.” 

I looked away, I hate it when Tetsu jokes about this. 

“You always do the same face all the time.” he then grabbed my chin “Just this time Miyu, this will be the last time, I swear.” his voice got deeper, I guess he really does mean it. 

“Okay.” 

Then the rain angrily poured as if its telling me something. 

TO BE CONTINUED.

We finished eating dinner quite fast, perhaps everyone got heated up from Yuri’s actions? I can’t blame them, Yuri is extra handful today. 

“Soo.. how long have you two been dating?” Asked Arisa

“A little over a year, I suppose” Miyu blushingly replied

“It feels like its been forever. I courted you for like 2 years you know.” Reiji added. 

“Seriously 2 years?!” Arisa in awe. I am surprised as well. I guess it was pretty hard on Miyu too. 

Miyu just nodded.

“Miyu was still moving on from her former boyfriend.” Reiji blurted. “It was hard for me to get to her.” 

Suddenly, my phone vibrated. Great, Yuri replied. This brat asking for so much. 

“Reiji was so pushy. So I gave him a chance” Miyu joked. 

“HEYY! I am not!” Reiji teased. 

“You two are so cute! Hmm now that I think about it, Miyu and Yuri has similar experience then.” Arisa commented. I saw Miyu a bit shocked with Arisa’s statement. 

“You can say that, that’s why I asked Miyu to try and talk to Yuri.” Reiji pouted. Poor Reiji, he is being treated like a fool, but we have to, at least for now. He’ll know in the right time.

“Yuri..is just different.” I blurted, they all nodded in agreement. 

“Anyway, I gotta run to the bathroom” Reiji changed the subject. 

“I need to talk to Miyu in private if you dont mind Red” Miyu has to hear me out on this. 

“Yeah sure, sure.” Reiji just sauntered, while Arisa pouting in the corner like a little girl she is. 

“Miyu, to the patio please” I calmly ordered, she just raised her brows in agreement, just like old times. 

TO BE CONTINUED.

I punched the wall inside my room, I’m so frustrated and HANGRY! That idiot Reiji claiming Miyu is hers. Thats just stupid! ARGH! I cant stop thinking about what he said. So annoying!

I don’t know what to do.. Damn it! Miyu cooked grilled salmon for me, my favorite and I just took it for granted. She probably hates me more now cause I was being a jerk. Why does everything have to be this way? I wish.. how I wish it was different. That I was I was in Reiji’s shoes instead.. 

My tummy keeps growling too. I need something to eat. I know, I should text Suo. 

He replies so slow. 

TO BE CONTINUED.