I'm listening to gorgeous for the first time since seeing your breakdown over it and honestly you're so right that it's actually a lowkey sad song disguised as a bop like the sigh when she says "alone" wow she just wants the love and attention she should be getting :/
honestly mood. taylor is literally a master of masking her sadness under humour and gorgeous is one of reps best examples of that, but rather than laying it out like she does in komh where she’s like, ‘im fine being alone it’s better for me’ in gorgeous she’s at the point of like, i WANT my boyfriend to be here, i don’t know what he’s doing and that really upsets me, and yeah there’s another cute guy here but in the end i’m going to go home alone because i’m still in this relationship that’s not making me happy, and i can’t truly think about pursuing a new one even though i’m staring like a crazy person at someone else who’s literally driving me crazy because they’re so cute and pretty and now the face of all my fantasies because they’re just that gorgeous.
but i think gorgeous might be less about pining after a specific person and a lot more about pining after being with someone in general, and that start of a relationship where it’s so new and fun and intense, because she’s talking about magnetic fields of a person and making fun of them and teasing and casual touching in the dark, and wondering if you have a gf and all the very new stuff that starts off a relationship and she knows she’s at the end of one and she just wants to get to that point of something new so badly. (you’ve ruined my life by now being mine, i mean cmon) but obviously that night was not the night to do that and so she spends gorgeous daydreaming about someone, but also hurting and being a little bit drunk and considering the worst options (which i think is where everyone gets iffy with gorgeous because hur be dur oh my god guys she offers to cheat with someone!!! spoiler: she doesn’t, it’s another joke and a wink to her more serious and devastating feelings whilst also covering them up) and in the end she knows the reality is she’ll be at home with her cats and she’ll be kind of upset about it and push those feelings into a box where she’s just kind of making these negative roll your eyes sort of jokes about them, AND it’s all masked under the baby voice and cute dings and all the things that completely disarm you and throw you off what the song is really about, but I love that I can picture it perfectly even then, that I can imagine what she’s thinking and feeling.
and gorgeous isn’t the song about your perfect squeaky clean girl who would never look at another person, and doesn’t have fantasies or wants or desires and will sit around waiting for a guy who’s hurting her. gorgeous is about a girl who knows she’s having terrible thoughts, who knows something is wrong and who is out drinking and making bad decisions and I think that’s also where people have an issue with it because taylor is presenting us with her bad thoughts and her flaws and her penchant for making mistakes sometimes and she does something similar in getaway car and I love a taylor who is willing to sing about her own mistakes, and know that her experiences aren’t always the right paths but they’re her paths and her experiences and thoughts and feelings, flaws and all, and i could talk about this all day honestly sksjdlsd
