#sihelp

It's so easy to want to matter. It's so easy to want to be loved. It seems so important to be noticed. It seems like it's the only thing that matters. But at some point you have to realize that being somebody means nothing if that somebody is somebody other than yourself.

If I could live my life over again, I wouldn't have had a 16th birthday party. I would have had a few close friends over and ordered a pizza and watched movies with my close friends and family. High school only matters when you're in high school. Don't take it so seriously. Of course work hard for your grades because those do matter. But the social aspect of high school is bullshit. Focus on finding lout who you want to be and work towards becoming that person. Not what everybody else wants you to be.

Oh my God.. I’m really so proud of you for reaching out to me. That’s huge. Really.

Sweetheart, I wish I could say that it’s okay but it’s not. Are you 100% sure you are going to do it again tonight? If there is NOTHING I can do to stop you tonight then there is something I want you to read. I’m going to post a couple of links when I’m done here, okay? PLEASE just take a look.

There are always other things you can do instead of hurting yourself. I can understand what you’re feeling. I have felt that way, too. What I learned - recovery isn’t forever. But it will always be an option. 

Believe it or not relapse is a part of recovery.

It is okay that you have relapsed. 

It is not okay to disrespect and hurt your body due to an emotional / mental urge.

You’ll be okay, love. You just need a little help. I’m here if you need me. Here are the links:

How to Take Care of Yourself

25 Coping Skills - Rather Than Self Harm

Relapse

Listen to This When You’re Upset - You Are Loved (Set It Off)

BELIEVE

Who to Talk to If You are In Danger

How to Tell If Your Cut Has Turned Into An Infection

This song always makes me feel better :)

I’m so sorry to hear that your dad has cancer. That’s always rough. The best advice I can possibly give is to keep your dad in your life. It will be HARD, I know. But I promise you, if you keep him out, and something happens to him… you’ll regret it. I say don’t let him get too close. Don’t allow him to make promises that you know he won’t keep and just remember that there is always that possibility of him hurting you. But you just have to live with it, you don’t want to push him away only to not have the chance to make amends later in life. You won’t be able to regret talking to your dad the last part of his life, but you might regret cutting off ties. 

Just do what is best for you. Remember that your mental health is the most important thing. Continue to talk to him but don;t give him the opportunity to let you down.

you can ALWAYS talk to me. I understand how you feel when you say that if anybody knew what you did they wouldn’t feel the same way about you. It’s difficult. Everybody screws up. Don’t be so hard on yourself! You should be worried if you weren’t making mistakes, okay? It’s part of life; it’s how we learn! Nobody is perfect. If you don’t feel perfect, then you are definitely doing something right. Trust me. I know that this all sounds so stupid and it’s been said 100 times before but I really believe that you can get through this. Smile. You’re worth it, okay? You are meant to be here, and NOBODY can take that away from you. Find it in yourself to say “they were wrong about me”. The only person that matters, is you. Don’t worry about everybody else. You’re so much better than that. I promise. Keep your head up, alright? Smile ♥ Stay Strong ♥