#siegrainfernandes

Jellal: *frowns* "Why am I taking clothes off again?" *looks down at himself and his eyes widen as he sees all the scars everywhere, pats himself in a kinda panic 'cause wtf he doesn't remember those* "Have these always been there!?"

Lucy: *frowns a bit* "You said you were hot..." *runs her finger over one of them cause she knows that feeling well and hugs him, nodding* "Yes but I'll get rid of them okay? SIEG!! WHATS THE GLAMOUR SPELL??"

Sieg: *snaps his head in the direction of lu and jelly, frowning and getting to his feet* "I'll be right back." *goes to the bedroom and stomps over to them* "What's going on?"

Jellal: *stares down at all the scars, looking at the ones on his arms too, frowning and remembering them now* "No...don't worry about it..."

Lucy: * looks up at sieg kind of worried before looking at Jellal and grabbing his chin so he looks at her* "Are you sure?? Sieg can make them disappear for you, he did the same for mine.."

Sieg: *kneels down and puts a hand on jellal's shoulder, kinda looking him over and wincing 'cause wow he didn't know about most of these* "Yeah, I can do that."

Jellal: *sighs and waves them both away* "Don't fuss, they don't really matter, I shouldn't be ashamed of surviving." *mumbles under his breath* "Besides I'm sure she has scars too..."

Lucy: *digs her nails into Jellal's face and glares at him* "Stop it." *sighs and turns to sieg* "Reverse the spell on me for a moment please."

Sieg: *sighs and gathers a bit of magic in his hands, muttering the spell and slowly waving his hand over lucys body*

Jellal: *flinches* "Don't. Don't worry about me, I'm fine with how things are, really."

Lucy: *kisses sieg on the cheek before narrowing her eyes at Jellal and lifts her top to show him her scars* "Do you expect me to look at these everyday and not be upset because I shouldn't be ashamed of surviving big brother? Do you expect me to not look at each and every single one and remember how how each of them was made..?"

Sieg: *frowns and reaches to hold lucy's hand*

Jellal: *eyes widen but then he looks away and sighs* "It's different, it's easier for me not to care because there are so many on my body, I don't remember getting most of them..." *looks at them both pretty determined* "It's fine, Erza won't care, she's not weak in the stomach, I'm sure she can handle seeing a few old scars."

Lucy: *squeezes siegs hand and drops her top, shaking her head* "You dont understand... You see them everyday and remember that it happened in the tower or when Brain got you or wherever else you've got them... You may not remember how you got each of them but every one of these..." *runs her finger along one of the scars on his chest* "Is a direct result of your past, a constant reminder of your guilt... We're trying to give you a new beginning, I am putting my entire family on the line because I want you to find happiness but do you really expect to do that when you have a walking history of anything you've ever done wrong written on your body..? Erza has a strong stomach, yes, but you didn't see the pure look of fear when you looked down at yourself. Please just let us help."

Sieg: *actually holds onto one of jellal's hands too*

Jellal: *looks away from them both and sighs* "I understand what you're saying...but I don't want to hide them, I don't want to forget they're there or /why/...I don't want to forget again..." *winces and sighs again* "And Erza would know something was off if they were gone, it might make her worry more."

Lucy:  *moves so she's sitting on jellal because he needs to look at her* "Would you stop thinking about what other people might think for five minutes you idiot!? Who cares. It doesn't matter if you have scars or not to the person who loves you, they don't see them and yes she might one day question them but she would understand. What you are doing is not healthy, living as you are, like you do not deserve any resemblance of happiness is fucking stupid. Yes you screwed up, more than most and yes you feel guilty as all hell for that but there's a time where you need to just let go and I can guarantee you will lose everyone you love if you continue to force yourself to feel bad on purpose and I'm not losing my big brother so cut the bullshit."

Jellal: *stares at them both and feels his eyes welling up a bit* "H-ow...how do I let go? I haven't made up for what I've done...you can't just tell me to forget about them, what gives you the power to absolve me of my crimes? Why is it okay just because you say it is?"

Lucy:  *crushes him to her in a hug* "I am not saying that you forget about them, that you stop trying to make up for your mistakes.. You will never forget about them okay? but forcing yourself to be unhappy as you are isn't helping them either... You can never truly help other people properly until you are stable enough to find happiness yourself, otherwise you haven't the faintest idea of what your goal even looks like. Dont stop trying, just stop destroying yourself in the process. please."

Jellal: *clings to her and pulls sieg in too* "I don't..." *takes a shaky breath* "I don't know how to do that...it's become who i am..."

Sieg: *holds onto them both 'cause he really hates seeing jelly like this* "You've changed many times already, Jellal, you can just do it again."

Lucy:  *kisses the top of jellals head and shakes her own* "Liar. It is not who you are. You are my big brother, the person who has been smiling and laughing and teasing and blushing since he got here. Look at how awkward you used to be with me and now you can hug me and call me your little sister. You are NOT that person, you just need time and the opportunity to break away from bad habits and we're going to help because we need you okay..?"

Jellal: *sniffles a little and grumbles* "It's the wine..." *hugs them both a bit tighter before letting go* "Thank you..."

Sieg: *messes up jellals hair* "Now let's get back to poor Erza."

Lucy : *kisses both their cheeks and slowly stands up* "Will you let Sieg glamour them? As you can see they dont go away for good but you dont have to as long as you promise you'll let us try and break the bad habits..."

Jellal: *gets to his feet as well and looks at them both* "Do they bother you?"

Sieg: *stands up and shrugs a little, unsure what to say*

Lucy : *bites her lip and nods* "Yes and no. It makes no difference to me what your body looks like but i dont like thinking about all the pain you've been through..."

Sieg: *nods in agreement*

Jellal: *sighs* "Well, just leave them for now and I promise I will do my best to let you both help me."

Lucy : *nods and moves to hug him* "Okay, thank you." *lifts up both tops for him to choose from again and moves over to Sieg, kind of scratching her skin a bit* "Make them go away please."

Jellal: *puts on the tank and narrows his eyes at sieg* "Don't laugh, I'm just wearing this one so I'm not wearing the shirt of yours that Lucy wears."