#siddick

I mean, yes I do understand you play a very significant role in my life but I still need some kind of individuality to not lose myself within you. I need to be reminded that I was alone when I came into this world and I'll leave alone too. This sense of Home might not last forever, heck it might not even last this entire life time...

I need that space where I can think for myself and be with who I am. Even if I'm staring at a wall and doing nothing, I'd still need that 'me' time I'm talking about.

The way things start to get blurred once someone enters my life is mind baffling.

So, I was in a rickshaw, just exhausted by the Mumbai afternoon heat when we stopped at a signal. I looked outside and there was a car standing right next to me with a small girl in the front seat, her face against the glass, just looking right at me. I smiled.

As she saw me smile, this girl legit gave me a fuck-off look, and the nostalgia of this was way too high for me. I remembered doing this a lot.A LOTTTT.

And now, all grown up, I realized that I am at the receiving end of this. I didn't want to feed more into her by looking back and then her giving the same look to me, so I just went back to doing what I was doing previously.

The signal turned green and then we both realized that our respective vehicles are going in different directions. As the car and rickshaw were parting ways, I just looked back at her and as she saw me look at her again, she just had this big smileee that made my entire day lmaooo.

I waved her byee and she did too. I just thought of not ruining that girl's view of this world and waved back. It was cute.

Preetam: mere khudke andar itni saari kamiya hai kisi aur ko kya judge karu

Iravati: khudko nahi judge kar rahe?

May you never find yourself so heartbroken that you start to relate to "Faasle" by Kaavish

And that just broke me, knowing it's one of my favourite songs!

Such beauty, such depth and so much of heart!!