I’ve been gone too long. This used to be my safe haven, I could write and talk and get everything out without fear of judgement or anything. I’ve been gone too long. My smile doesn’t shine as bright as it did before, my face doesn’t light up every room like it used to. I’ve lost parts of me that I miss more than ever. I’ve let my health get the best of me and destroy me. I’ve let my health control my life and stop me from being who I am. I am STRONG. I am ENERGETIC. I am HAPPY. I am INTELLIGENT. I am DETERMINED. I am HARDWORKING. I am a FIGHTER. But i miss those qualities shining and lighting up the sky. I miss those qualities being the best thing about me. I’m still every single one of those qualities but I am also WEAK, HURTING, IN PAIN, SAD, ASHAMED. I thought I was better than my health, I AM BETTER THAN MY HEALTH. But lately my health has been beating me & destroying the person I am. I want me back.
