#shredvember

I sadly did not take my measurements before starting the 30 Day Shred. My misplacement of my measuring tape saddens me. :( (actually, I'm pretty sure it's still at my parent's house) So, I am unsure as to how many inches I've lost this month. But I do know this...sometime in October I stepped on the scale of a friend's and it said something astronomical like 158, and then it was 156 the day after...that was my wake-up call.

I was 186 lbs and 19 years old when I began this journey. I was unhealthy and 'technically' obese since I'm a mere 5'2". I made a decision at that moment to change my life and get healthy. Fast forward now to spring of 2011...I finally had hit 140lbs (for about a week). From that point on, I tried to lose but was mostly maintaining and floating back up in weight. That brings us back to October where I had let myself gain back some weight from the summer and was at about 155/154 lbs, and upset with myself and my body. I jumped on the SHREDvember bandwagon, and today I'm 151 lbs. I'm very happy with that number, that number means my body still has fat to lose and I can do this. I know that 'being healthy' does not have a direct correlation with the number on the scale, but being happy with the number is a good thing. :)

I understand and accept this is a change that I will never be finished with. I have my good days, where I've had a clean diet and exercised. But I also will have days where I eat eat pizza, fries and don't exercise! Each of those things happen and I've learned to not be so hard on myself. As long as I don't allow myself to fall into my old habits I had when I was unhealthy I consider this journey to be a success. :D

I feel good from doing the Shred yesterday, today is the last day of November (note to self, I must get in my degree request form innnnnn). It was a semi successful month, SHREDvember pretty much did exactly what I wanted it to...and that was to get me off of my butt and into something of a routine again! I know i didn't do it every day, but I did it (and other workouts) more days than I would have if I hadn't forced myself to do SHREDvember. :D So, all in all, it's been a good and fast month...BRING ON DECEMBER!! :)

It feels like allergies though, not a cold. I think I need to dust/vaccuum for real in my room soon. There is a bit of snow outside right now, my phone says it's 25 degrees brrrrrr. Good thing I have some winter jackets with me. :) I've been trying to finish this screenplay due in 3 hours. It's not a total flop, but it's not the greatest thing I've ever written. eh. You win some, you lose some.

After my screenplay class I have enough time to grab lunch and then work 3-7...dinner...meeting at 9 and duty til midnight. Gah. But on the bright side, after duty today there will only be 2 more days of duty left this week. :) (kinda)

Today was one of those days, I don't like having a day start off like today started.. I am one of those people who get down on myself.. and stress myself out.. Having been doing the 30 Day Shred all month, with some extra cardio most days on the side, I weighed myself this morning at it says I was only down a pound and a half for the month, but I'm figuring that there are other factors to be included to this number.. It just makes me sad to see so little change. Plus I know I'm suppose to appreciate every victory no matter how small.. but it does something bad to ones self esteem.. ya know what I mean?

The day got better however. Went to Bingo with some great friends tonight and I won, in two different games.. Yay for winning some money.. Plus I did my 30 Day Shred. So overall a good day with a bumpy start is all..