#ship deployment

T has been gone for about 9 months now and I’m getting so anxious for him to come home! I love hearing about all the friends he’s made & all of the places this deployment has taken him to. Although it’s hard to be away from home, it sounds like he is making the best of it. He is currently underway and I won’t hear his voice for 25 +/- days, but I’m grateful for emails. Things keep falling apart at the house, but it’s making me stronger.

I haven’t posted in awhile because I feel numb. It’s been a little over 2 months since he left and it feels like 6. I can’t believe we are only 2 months in .. time feels like it has stopped. The #1 comment I get is, “oh the time will fly by before you even know it!” - I am here to tell you that is the most BS thing I’ve ever heard. I know they mean well but time is NOT flying by as I continue to live my life with my husband 5,000+ miles away. He is missing so much and it’s hard to keep him updated when our communication can be so spotty. I try to write things down so I remember to send them in the next email but things slip between the cracks and get missed all the time. I’m so grateful that he is in port right now so I can talk to him on the phone and hear that amazing voice. I couldn’t even be happy to see the 2 month mark because that also means we still have 4x that amount left. Some days it is unbearable to think about. I’m venting hard right now and this is the exact reason I haven’t been posting. Here’s to more wine, more dog cuddles, and 8 more f*^!ing months without him.

4 months down.. 6 more to go. Not even half way yet.. there must be a bottle of wine around here somewhere!

Buddy and I are keeping up on the adventures while T is gone. I work nights so on my days off I try to spend time with Buddy outdoors - he hates being cooped up! We found a new favorite walking trail along a lake near our house, we can’t wait to bring T! I find myself really missing him when Buddy and I are out doing something. Buddy always finds a way to cheer me up with his big personality and curious nature - he was sniffing around and realized there was water behind these rocks! He had to check it out! I’m so lucky to have him by my side.

He has been on back to back missions out to sea lately, so we only get to talk on the phone for a couple days every 4 weeks. A lot has been going on with the house lately. We had water flood our guest room again & our chimney cracked so a bird flew in and Buddy murdered it trying to protect me. If you want something to break, send your husband on a deployment 😉 am I right? I feel so strong and accomplished with each task completed. I’m a badass woman! I fix each problem as it comes & I maintain the yard/house, while working 12 hr night shifts 💪🏼 sometimes I amaze myself. Buddy is well taken care of and we are doing just fine! We miss him everyday and can’t wait to see him, but we are managing while he is gone & that makes me proud!

He finally called last night! It felt so good to hear his voice again! A lot has happened since the last time we were able to talk and I don’t think we will get through everything before he goes back out to sea (in 3 days unfortunately), so I’m just going to enjoy hearing his voice! He has sent me some amazing pictures and I’m glad he’s able to experience everything he has! This deployment has been a small blessing for personal growth.

I’ve been so blessed to have this sweet boy to cuddle me during this deployment! I couldn’t imagine doing this “alone” 🖤 he always knows how to make me feel better.

I’m hoping for warmer days at home soon because I’m losing my freaking mind. A deployment during winter months is a true punishment- time has slowed way down and we have more snow than I know what to do with! At least he has some better views finally!