Monster (Request)
Here you go! Another request done *wipes brow* Iâm trying to get some done before Admin Coconut comes back from a bts concert!! (Lucky duck (ïŒäșșïŒ;)) This is probably the most emotional request Iâve gotten so far! Than you anon!
-Admin Ritz o(^âœ^)o
Jonghyun x Reader Angst Rating: PG-13 Warnings: Cursing
You didnât even know why you were fighting but you were. You were throwing things, screaming at each other, and saying things you didnât mean. You were so close to breaking down but you needed to hold your ground. Jonghyun never spent time with you. You understood he is an idol but you deserved a little attention. He wouldnât go home after practice heâd just sleep at the dorm leaving you, dinner ready and set up, alone in your cold apartment wishing heâd text or call you. When he did come home youâd have loud arguments about anything you feared that he was changing into something you couldnât even recognize as your boyfriend.
âWHY DO YOU THINK ITâS OKAY TO BE FLIRTING WITH SUHO?â Jonghyun screamed pulling his hair. You gasp at his accusation, tears threatening to fall but you hold them back. You try to take deep breaths but you canât calm yourself down.
âITS NOT CALLED FLIRTING HEâS MY FRIEND I GET LONELY YOU KNOWâ You yell back. He scoffs and turns away from you rubbing his mouth then he turns back and glares at you a bitter chuckle escaping his lips.
âWhatâ You say to him pointedly but he still continues to laugh and shake his head.
âWhy the fuck are you laughing right now you assâ You ask him picking up yet another glass ready to chuck it at the wall but he grabs your wrists.
âLet. Go.â You whisper menacingly. He lets your hand fall limp and shakes his head in disbelief.
âYouâre doing this just to get back at me for not spending time with youâ He says a smug smirk plastered on his face that you want to smack off.
âWHATâ You yell âIS THAT HOW LITTLE YOU THINK OF ME? YOU THINK IâD JUST HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS JUST TO GET BACK AT YOU? IâM NO WHORE!â
âWELL IF THE SHOE FITSâ He yells back not thinking about what just came out of his mouth. His eyes soften as he seeâs your shocked expression. You laugh tears streaming down your face.
âSo you do think of me like that. All I wanted was my boyfriend but all I have is a monsterâ You whisper. Your head spins as you try to clench your eyes shut hoping it would stop the tears but the keep on running down you face. You let out a sob and turn to the door ready to leave but Jonghyun grabs your wrists trying to pull you back.
âLet go of meâ You sob âDonât you dare touch me againâ You pull your hand back roughly and turn back at him âI hate youâ You say before slamming the door shut and running out of your apartment building to god knows where. The tears are blurring your vision and all you can do is run away. You donât know where youâre going but you need to get out. You feel like youâre being suffocated as you try to calm yourself down but youâre just crying hysterically your chest heaving.
You hear screams and honking before a huge weight hits you hard and you fall over. You struggle breathing and you can taste blood in your mouth. Your head spins and you feel like throwing up you try to look around but thereâs too much blood running down your face to see. Your body falls limp on the ground and you canât move. The next thing you know there are sirens near you but the noise is muffled, everything goes in slow motion as youâre picked up and placed on something. Before you can try to speak everything goes blank.
Back at your apartment Jonghyun is going crazy. Heâs called you only to realize that you left your phone back home. He called Suho and the rest of your friends but he had not luck. He sat with his head in his hands feeling like the biggest idiot in the world. The apartment was a mess, as soon as you left he threw a fit punching walls and knocking glasses over. He got up and thought he could clean up a little while he waits for you to come back home. Suffering cuts from the glass he had trouble answering the phone. He got the call hoping it was you but it wasnât at all.
âIs this Jonghyun of SHINee?â The voice asked
âUm, Yes may I ask whoâs calledâ He sniffed trying to make his voice normal
âYes this is the hospital calling and weâre afraid that youâre girlfriend has been in a car accident.â Those words hit him hard. His mind went racing, tears flooded his eyes and he began to feel faint.
âIs-is she okayâ He choked out
âThats the thing⊠She needed immediate surgery to fix her punctured lungs, Iâm sorry to say that she only has a 50/50 chance of surviving thisâ He said morbidly
âNo..â He whispered âI-Iâll be right thereâ He said frantically hanging up his phone.
The drive was awful. Tears blocked his vision as he raced to the hospital. All he could think about is how this could have been prevented if he wasnât a sorry excuse for a boyfriend. It was all his fault everything he said to you lead up to this and now heâs about to lose the best thing that has ever walked into his life. He parked his car and ran inside the E.R. He walked up to the lady by the computer.
âMr. Kim Jonghyun?â She asked looking up at him
âY-Yesâ He said âWhere is she?â He asked
âSheâs still in operation so youâll have to wait Sirâ He said coldly not even bothering to look at him.
He fell into a cold seat his eyes stuck wide open in shock. It almost felt like a dream, he hoped it was one. Everything seemed to be spinning and everyone was giving him looks. He tried to not look weak because he knew that cameras would be on him as he walked out. He decided to rest his head in his hands and take a deep breaths to calm him down but it made him feel worse. Tears starting forming as he realized that today might be the last day he would ever spend with you and he spent it being a dick.
He would never see your smile as you woke up to him staring at you, heâd never see you cutely dancing around to SHINee songs, heâd never see you cook early in the morning for him with messy bed head, heâd never watch you put on makeup skillfully, or prance over to him after award shows, heâd never feel your comforting embrace ever again. He would never touch you ever again and youâd leave this world with sad thoughts about him.Â
Tears were streaming down his face before the doctor came out taking off his blood covered gloves. He removed his mask and looked over at Jonghyun sighing.
âW-What happened is she okay?â He asked wiping his tears
âY/N is very luckyâ He said sitting down next to Jonghyun. He already felt a sense of relief wash over him as those words left the doctors mouth but he knew that wasnât all. âShe suffered a punctured lung, bruised and broken ribs, a concussion and a few fractures.â He said looking over at Jonghyun
âI-is she going to be okay?â He asked fearing for the worst.
âYes actually. All those problems can be fixed with a few months at the hospital and some medicine and she could be ready to go homeâ The doctor said getting up to shake his hand.
âThank you so muchâ He whispered capturing the doctor off guard as he hugged him.
âY/N is a fighter we lost her two times but she kept coming back she sure is specialâ He said patting Jonghyuns back then turning away to grab some papers for him to sign.
âShe sure isâ Jonghyun mumbled quietly.
That night he spent his time sitting in your hospital room signing papers, informing his members and your parents and staring over at you to see if youâd awake. When you did he cried and begged for your apology kissing you as lightly as he could afraid to hurt you. You, even with the bandages around your head, a cast on your hand, and stitches pulled him in for a passionate kiss telling him itâs alright. He sang to you the songs he spent making while you slept to you all night. You finally felt like you had your Jonghyun back.
