Redefining Forever
February 28, 2010
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I love you all for forever and ever and ever. <3
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February 28, 2014
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nostalgia chokes you like the dust cloaking your old picture albums. it dances, floats off the pages like
ballerinas with broken legs. nostalgia is gross and unnerving, like silence. it’s quiet and loud and
beautiful and ugly and it makes you laugh and it makes you sob. you sit on your front porch,
sipping salty lemonade, wondering how you got here, why you’re here, why that one girl
isn’t here with you. then you think of the other girls: your five sisters, your bestest of
best friends, the ones who transformed the bitter salt that broke your legs into
sugar that healed your heart. sam, alli, emily, christina, and calli. they’re all
so fucking beautiful, they’re all so fucking golden and perfect and
they’re all yours. you stare at the cracks in your hands, blood
red, and smile up at the sun. they’re your sun, dumb as
it is. they healed the unhealable and kissed blood
off your thumbs. you stare at the sun and
suddenly you miss sleepovers and
crying sessions at midnight
and their hugs, warm
like the supernovas
that explode, stain
your cracked
bones.
please, i
i don’t,
i can’t
miss
them
forever.
don’t let them,
don’t let us
turn to
dust.
i love you all so much. i’ll always
miss you until forever,
until our hearts
turn to
dust.
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