#72 - A Secret Memory
(one shot - 2 x 221 words)
Summary:Â John is in 221b with Mary to get the things he left behind when he moved a few months ago.
"Who's this?" Sherlock was looking at the cute blond woman with a disgruntled face. "I don't like new people, itâs not right, itâs not ME!"
 "Stop... stop this, please..." John mutters under his breath.
 "Did you say something, love?" Mary was in the living room, putting the few things John wants to keep with him in a box.
 "Nothing, darling... Sorry." It was his first time in Baker Street since he left a few months ago. Thank God Mrs. Hudson is not there todayâŚÂ He smiles at her reassuringly and turns to look at Sherlock who was standing near the window amongst the bags and boxes. The things he didnât have the will to take when he left, his last link with 221b.
 "Don't do this... Why are you making boxes? You are already living elsewhere, isnât that enough? If you take all your things, itâs over!â He looks totally overwhelmed. âYour place is HERE!"
 Heading to the door, the doctor informs his girlfriend with a shaking voice. "I just need to double-check, things, be back in a minute," leaving the room quickly. Of course, the detective was already in his bedroom, pacing relentlessly.
 âYou CANâT! Donât you realize that once that door is closed, you are leaving me for good! Arenât you scared? You won't be able to come back!â
âI am utterly terrified! You have no idea how much!â Tears start pearling in the doctor eyes, as he looks at his best friend. No, at the image of my friend⌠I mustnât forget! âItâs you Sherlock, YOU! You are the one who left me!â He chokes on the words, trying to be honest with himself for once. âI canât⌠I canât stop living because of you.â
âBut⌠I thought that you⌠that you loved me. I heard you say it, over and over⌠in your dreams, when youâre cryingâŚâ Sherlock's already unnatural looking eyes were glistering with tears. âYou can do that to me, to usâŚâ
âYes, I can⌠I have no other choice! Donât you see! Either I kill myself in hopes of finding you somewhere or at least to stop that constant suffering⌠or I find a reason to keep on living. Knowing that somewhere deep in my soul, youâll be there. Always.â Standing near Sherlock, it was hurting like Hell not to be able to touch himâŚÂ Itâs over, itâs madness, I canât go on like this. âSherlock William Holmes, my best friend, my unspoken love⌠I am letting you go. But know that youâll always be in my heart. Forever.â
With a small but proud smile, the detective disappears slowly, leaving John alone in his bedroom.
If you are super-enthusiast and donât want to wait to read the 221 â221bâ in that series in order: Â The sum of their secrets
Beta read by @notjustamumj
Number 200 and 201 of my 221 X 221b series
