#shellynanigans

I have stuff to do because I’m. in charge of some stuff.

but i don’t know if i can

i kinda witnessed someone commit suicide today. they’re in a coma. this has triggered so fucking badly i was shifting between dissociating and just. being there crying nonstop while my chest felt like it was gonna explode

i slept all afternoon thinking it would help, but nope. just woke up, still feel awful. 

everything hurts. 

i’ve been told by my colleagues it’s okay to take a break but i don’t want to burden them with my responsibilities. 

but ugh

i just.

i just don’t know if i fucking can function properly. 

i just need some hugs i guess idk man 

because

like

someone: says they're disgusted by my otp

me: