#shdiaryblog

Well i didn't die, yay? But, i did relapse with my SH which i am going to admit, was wonderful.. How i missed that feeling of control even though everyone says its a loss of control, for me, its complete and total control to hold my life in my hands and decided NOT to end it.. I feel so good, so happy. I keep running my fingers over them gently, then violently, ripping it back open, reliving the moments of complete ecstasy over and over again in my mind.

I am leaving for three days tomorrow, mental healthy vaca with the man im currently seeing... Lets see if he likes me after this, lol, i wouldn't..