#sh headcanons

Self harm headcannons

Its not explicit on what kind of sh. Also reader is their apprentice in these headcanons!!

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Qifrey finds out:

◆ Qifrey can tell something is wrong, he just doesn't know what quite yet. He has noticed that you've been acting a little.. off. Maybe you're more reserved, or maybe you are the opposite. Maybe you've been more careful lately or maybe not. But he notices.

◆ He asks if you are okay, and tries his best not to press. Unless he feels its very serious of course, cause if he feels its dire he will press to find out what's wrong.

◆ He doesn't quite understand, but he does get that you're hurting internally and making it physical. But he wants to help you in any way he can.

◆ Qifrey isn't mad at you, and will assure you that he's not. And he's not disappointed either, he understands thst sometimes things just feel like too much. He just wishes you had gone to him or Olruggio for help, he will never be mad at you though.

◆ If you go to him and admit that you feel like harming yourself, he'll try to find something to distract you with if you don't want to talk about why you feel that way. Like baking/cooking or helping in the garden, something to do with your hands, something you can control without risk of harm.

◆ Over all he just wants to keep you safe and happy. Qifrey is probably the onky one who actually listens to your input on the matter and how to handle it.

Beldaruit finds out:

◇ He raised Qifrey, he knows when something is wrong essentially immediately. Though i think he'd wait to see if it was a one-time thing, or if the feeling that something is wrong persists is when he'll ask.

◇ Beldaruit won't ask straight up right away, he'd get an easy conversation going first. Maybe asking how your day has been, if anything interesting happened, what you want to eat later, etc. Essentially until he feels like your calm enough to ask if something is wrong.

◇ If you don't tell him and instead deflect, he may tease you before getting back onto the topic. He may be a bit silly, but he does care a lot for you. He's gonna figure out what is up eventually.

◇ If you do tell him, he'll ask why you felt the need to do that. Beldaruit would want to find the root cause to fix it, but its not really something he can fix. So, he'll try his best to reassure you that you're okay. You don't need to do that, but he understands the urge.

◇ Unfortunately this means he's also going to keep a much closer eye on you. Beldaruit already had to keep a close eye on Qifrey, no doubt he's going to do so with you. Even more so after learning about the fact you purposely hurt yourself. He doesn't mean to be smothering, he's just worried.

◇ Eventually he may back off a bit. But he just really wants to keep you safe.

i am listening and i am agreeing

i'd like to believe that he's currently clean but there was definitely a time where he'd actively do it and that's the reason why he wears undershirts to this day. i also like to think the only time he doesn't wear undershirts is around spud because he trusts him and doesn't make him feel uncomfortable with showing his scars.

i think it’s fairly standard to headcanon that alec and izzy were pretty isolated growing up. not to the degree jace was in the first ten years of his life but in the entire show, we only learn of ONE real friend they’ve had that’s part of the shadowhunter community and not in their family. and alec notes that “it’s been years” since they’ve seen aline when the audience meets her in season two.

it’s not hard to imagine that other shadowhunter children were warned away from getting to know the lightwood children, that even if their parents didn’t explain to them why they were bad news (which some probably did), they made sure to impress that they were.

this is more conjecture than anything but i personally headcanon that alec and izzy spent their entire childhoods in new york—meaning they didn’t go to the academy in idris. they likely thought their parents had made this request so that they could build their own lessons for their children’s tutelage under hodge. but in reality, it’s punishment for the lightwood line.

and all of this might seem like it’s really reading into things and maybe it is—but it’s not hard to see how it might have affected them in the show itself if true? like.

izzy’s clearly an outlying shadowhunter when it comes to willingly and regularly socializing with downworlders. it’s so easy for me to imagine her being very lonely and very angry and very defiant as a young teen and deciding, ‘fine, then, you don’t want me? i can make friends elsewhere’ and never really looking back.

whereas alec is so obviously Not Interested in making friends at all at the start of the show and only really seems to hang with his siblings. i really do think he almost took an opposite approach to izzy, he folded in on himself, drew back, and said ‘friends who? i don’t need friends, i’ve got my family, that’s all i need’

one aspect about them i love: WHAT DON'T I LOVE ABOUT THIS MAN?HE IS KIND, HE IS GENTLE, HE IS OPEN TO RETHINKING HIS POSITIONS AND CHANGING HIS OPINION, HE IS INTELLIGENT and god. To not make this long, ask to Sherlock Holmes, he will give you a free talk of 3 hours or more.

one aspect i wish more people understood about them:

His sassy bitch side, the judging side (we accept that this boy would have been a bully with Holmes at school) or how impulsive and reckless he is sometimes. I don't have so many complaints because the queer side of the fandom is 10/10 but sometimes they tend to put it on being more cautious and careful and the one who corrects and scolds Holmes in that regard and they forget about these details.

It's like Ok he does it sometimes but it's a level thing really because Holmes is a very high level of recklessness but you leave Watson alone and without that concern and well you have him getting into a hiding place with a gun in a total stranger in the middle from the paramo or going to complain to a guy who may or may not have kidnapped a woman hehehe (?

Now for the entire fandom and special emphasis on the non-queer side: MY GOD MY BOY IS NOT STUPID, I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU GOT THAT CONCLUSION GRRRRR

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have about this character: Wow, the list is long. As it has little that I draw him, I will say that I like to imagine him having moles. I think he was shot 2 times, one in the war and the other was in London, bisexual king and nobody will change my mind, that Watson wrote for all kinds of genres but anonymously, I have a lot to say about his family (I think so I did in another post), loves astronomy, his song is rootles de marina and I really try to stop, but I'm very talkative. Help.

one character i love seeing them interact with: I love seeing him with Holmes, I also like his active interact with certain clients :)

one character i wish they would interact with/interact with more: It's terrible that I have to say this because well she was his wife but Mary, I definitely wanted more of those two lovebirds. Also his brother.

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have that involve them and one other character:

With Holmes, we have a long, very long list, and based on many perspectives (friendship-lovers-unilateral-platonic love), depending on the day, so an endless list, mmm, so it comes to my mind quickly, I like the idea that Holmes has composed many songs for Watson, maybe I could make a series of posts about them.