#sexulizing

there was a time when you made fanfiction and not got too badly judged by it and or canceled for it....i know sexual things makes people uncomfy but we shouldn’t be judge by what we like in bed point blank peridot being ashamed of our sexuality shouldn’t be think...everyone had there preferences and kinks and we should not be judged as bad people for those things since the dawn of time sex has been a thing for centuries and i just...don’t get why everyone want to make people feel like shit for being open about there sexual life image...i don’t have sex in real life because i know I'm an emotional person and i will be attached to my partners on a deeper level then what is the nrom...so i write fanfics to let out my ergs in a SAFE and non-harmful way...for my person for my body...with everything that happening now a days these things agree really fucking scary now...i am not going to let myself be manipulated by love bombs with no background to it no weight now a days people like to manipulate other people and use words to make you feel like an asshole for rejecting them from sex and that's why since 2014 i haven’t had sex like at all because i just can’t trust guys to genuinely LOVE me for me and not my body or try to manipulate me to feel bad for not wanting to have sex even if they are my partner...and maybe that trauma in me because of my ex getting overly obssesive to the point he almost tried to kill me for rejecting his desires...i feel safe in fan fics because i have all the control and i can make my partners in there more simpatic to my rejections or my offers...i use to write fanfics of real people with real lives and i see now that was messed up of me to think that was okay and harmless because the reality is that not everyone will see that as harmless...but i should not be judge for my avatar in the stories because it was overly faulsified and i pushed for conflict for a better story at the time...or what i thought would make a better story...and i used to get good feedback with some fans of that person i wrote about...as i got older i realized i was not thinking at all of the persons feelings towards it because i thought it would be like shrugged off and not used as a weapon against me because everyone else was a topic of a fanfic if you had a wider audience like Dan & Phil and Damon fizzy and so much more...and i was blind to the fact that it might make others uncomfortable...when everyone was getting canceled left and right for mistakes made in the past it escalated once that shit was on the rise to cancel people who make people feel uncomfortable i was in the cross fire by a fanbase i was in...i at the time i fought back and tried to defend my reasons but it was shut down immediately because the evidence of me sexualizing a real life person was grater then my reasons...and so i quit writing fanfics all together because i didn’t want to be seen as a problematic person...because normally i am not...its just...for that particuler person my feelings were on a rise at a all time high and if i continued to do that i would lose him in that process too...so i stopped...i wrtie fanfic now only with anime characters now...and they have been times where i was demonized because of that too...and this is why i’m writing this now....i feel like if they are not real you shouldn’t be judged by sexualizing anime characters because in the end they are pngs and jepegs...and have no feelings what's so ever and they are just creations of other peoples thoughts...and really shouldn’t be put under the ssame standards of real life human beings because they are not real...but i’m sure people will say otherwise in the comments and probably due the cringe that comes with it so people want to avoid seeing things unsavory of there favorite characters or even envision it because they are probably kids that don’t understand it or adults that have no desire for sex whatsoever...i hate to tell you guys but there's no avoiding sexual stuff with characters or anime and nothing you can do will ever change that you’ll just spread romers of peoples self image as a bad person when actually it might surprise you okay so wait for it...the are good people who have sexual desires too...and those sexual desires can be controlled yeah crazy i know its so unheard of wow. But its true...what i do in my fanfics are desires i wouldn’t have the gall or morality to do in real life...Venti for example...looks young acts kind of young but he is like a god who lived for thousand of years but a real like 15 year old in real life has no effect for me in real life...its like no attraction what so ever in a real life situation but everyone thinks just because i like venti in that way i must have a think for guys who sure young like that but i don’t not even a little bit...i like Venti’s style his personality but he’s fictional and no one in the world would be able to look like him...and even if they some how end up looking like him to the t...if there the age he looks i will have no desire to pursue that...because its disgusting and bad...anime venti YES real life Venti look a like age 15 NOPE...so this is what I'm trying to say...just because i like an anime character that is like 15-16 in the anime doesn’t mean i will like a 15 -16 year old in real life...that's pedophile and that's bad and they should get help if you know that's what they actually like in real life...the dilemma is every anime in existence is based on high school students and that's because its a good base mostly...and high school is what people flock to story wise so with that logic everyone is a pedophile even if they like any of the anime characters in there favorite show...but everyone doesn’t want to admit that people can like anime characters sexually but not like real life teenagers in real life and anime is the exception because people love to cancel people for just about anything now a days...and that is as problematic as if the latter...so there was a time people didn’t give a shit about other peoples desires and business because it wasn’t heavily put in there face as before tiktok and youtube and other platforms...you would had to be perposly looking for it at the time like googling rule34 or something...so this is whati think should happen now...

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here it goes....

Shut the fuck up...just shut the fuck up and do your thing and let them do there thing...if you don’t like what you see block them...make an effort in changing your point of view...stop making other people feel like shit for liking what they like within reason...this world had became so judgmental and its so fucking tiring...i don’t want to second guess my morals when i know i’m a good person in the end...i don’t go ot of my way to hurt anyone or troll them or make them feel like shit for what they like

i watched a whole video of tik toks with MHA stands and i’m like as long as they are not hurting anyone in real life...we should just shut the fuck up about what they do...if they are happy FINE sure it looks off pudding to most people and they only see what is show and automatically think they are mentally ill for shipping there two favorite characters just let them...stop taking every character personally...like i love my two favorite bois Kokichi and Nagito so soo much but i’m not gonna take it personally if they are sexualized because that’s just stupid and filled with stress that i don’t need dude...

i wish cancel culture just didn’t exsist because it has been weaponized for stupid things like this instead of helping actual people and fixing REAL problematic people dude...