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Tongue Tied
Camp Counselor Ellie x Camp Counselor Reader
Warning; this story will contain, stupid decisions,loser Ellie, gay humor, bratty annoying little kids, mild sexual content, Ow*n, harassment,fights, Straight men.
A/N: this is based off of my first camp leader experience that I recently just got back from so a lot of the stuff is true (like the chants, and other things) and a lot of it is just made up. I also Made Y/N have multiple face claims so you can be able to see yourself or imagine yourself in Y/N.
Chapter 1: Welcome to Camp Waskowitz
Chapter 2: Get into the camp spirit./ These kids have Parental issues
Chapter 3: Meet the mean girl
Chapter 4: The Adventures of the Legendary Toe Tickler.
Chapter 5: The 6 Hour Hike
Chapter 6: Who is Smokey the Bear
Chapter 7: The Bear Tracks
Chapter 8: The Music Withdrawals
Chapter 9: The Polar Plunge
Chapter 10: Closing Campfire
[chapters may be subject to change!]
MOODBOARD 1. Meet Your Camp Counselor. Snippet 1. Snippet 2
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Meet Your Camp Counselor
welcome to your First Camp Experience we hope you have a wonderful time but before you do you have to Meet the Counselorâs that will be with you for the next few weeks:
Ellie
Cabin: B4
The Kids wanted to call her Dad (because she sounds and dresses like a boy) but she wanted to be the Cool Aunt.
Cabin Mascot The Newtâs (Ellie named them cause itâs her favorite reptile)
Cabin Chant: Who are we?! We are the Newts, Who are we?! We are the Newts we shoot we score!
Y/N L/N
Cabin: B1
The Kids call her Momma bear
Cabin Mascot Blue Bunnies (Like the Ice-Cream Y/N was thinking about Ice-cream when thinking about the mascot)
Cabin Chant: B1 is where we roam hop, hop, hop to the blue bunnies home
Dina
Cabin: B1
The kids call her Mommy
Cabin Mascot Blue Bunnies (Like the Ice-Cream Y/N thought of it)
Cabin Chant: âB1 is where we roam hop, hop, hop to the blue bunnies homeâ
Owen
Cabin: D1
The kids call him Dad, at the moment he doesnât even question them anymore.
Cabin Mascot: Skibidi Toilet (A kid thought of it and started to cry because Owen said itâs not a good mascot he doesnât even know what a Skibidi Toilet is)
Cabin Chant: D1 is the best rest we have a toilet and a door!
Manny
Cabin: D4
The kids call him grandpa, he doesnât know why
Cabin Mascot: Lion (itâs his favorite animal)
Cabin Chant: We are the king! What? We are supreme! What? We are the Lions here our scream!
Jesse
Cabin D1
The kids call him Mom, He thinks itâs funny so he doesnât say anything
Cabin Mascot: Skibidi Toilet (A kid thought of it)
Cabin Chant: D1 is Better then the rest we have a toilet and a door
Abby
Cabin: B2
Kids call her Dad (she doesnât wanna be called that and tried to tell the kids it ok to have two moms)
Cabin Mascot: Owl (she saw one on the way to camp and thought about having it as their mascot)
Cabin Chant: Who are we?! Who- Who Owls we win, we donât lose. What?! Who are we?! Who- Who Owls we win, we donât lose!
Nora
Cabin: B2
Kids call her Mom (she thought it was funny to be mom so she blurted it out that she wanted to be called that)
Cabin Mascot: Owl (Abby thought of it)
Cabin Chant: Who- Who Owls we win, we donât lose. What?! Who- Who Owls we win, we donât lose!
Kennedy
Cabin: B4
Kids call her Momma she thinks itâs weird but their 4th, 5th and 6th graders so she doesnât say anything
Cabin Mascot The Newtâs (Ellie named them)
Cabin Chant: Who are we?! We are the Newts, Who are we?! We are the Newts we shoot we score!
Well we hope you have a great time at camp Waskowitz, if any problems happen please talk with your camp counselor or the camp manager. Donât forget that this is the camp that changes everything.

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Can you please do headcannons or a fic of Y/N, Bella, Abby, Or Ellie (you pick) moving into a new apartment. You donât have to if you donât want to. đĽ°
NEW APARTMENT
Pairing: Ellie Williams x fem reader
Sypnosis: you and Ellie move into your new apparent with the help of your parents and Joel.
Warnings: Pure Fluff
A/N: I absolutely LOVEEE this idea so imma do it with all three of them starting with my bugaboo Ellie this fanfic will be based off the song New Apartment by Ari Lennox sorry if itâs short and rushed might make another part of this.
âYou ready Bae?â Ellie asks as you look at them before smiling at her. You and Ellie are finally moving in with each other it was Ellieâs idea since she was tired of Joel just barging in whenever he felt like it. And your house wasnât even better cause your parents were obsessed with telling Joel everything or just embarrassing yâall in general.
âYea I am,â you say before turning around and seeing your parents exiting the elevator with a box in their hand âThen unlock the door baeâ Ellie stated pointing at the lock you nod your head before entering the key into the lock but not turning it you breath inâŚoutâŚinâŚout before turning the lock and opening the door to your new apartment.
You, Ellie, and your parents enter with awe âYou guys live here?â This is beautiful!â Your mother states placing a box down you turn to her and smile âI didnât think it would be this bigâ you say as Ellie looks at her phone looking at the pictures she got sent of the apartment. âWeird it doesnât say anything about their being a second floorâ she spoke before showing you the pictures.
âWell, this is quite nice,â a voice from behind you spoke you and Ellie turn around and is met with Joel with a box in his hand and a smile on his face. âPlace that box over thereâ you point at the entrance of what you think and hope is the kitchen. Joel nods before walking over and placing the box down âEllie, come help me with these boxesâ Joel says as Ellie groans before following him out of the door.
You smile before turning to your parents who just walk around looking at the empty apartment. âI feel like with the help of the five of us we could be done by tonight and I know everybody will be exhausted so thank your mother I made Soup Joumouâ (a Haitian dish with Squash, beef, potatoes, and vegetables) your mother says grabbing ahold of your shoulders you smile before hugging her. âThank you momma oh what would I do without youâ you beamed as she rolls her eyes. âProbably dead,â your father says as you laugh.
âY/N you are the smartest human being on earth I never knew you could order your furniture and schedule what day you want it delivered,â Ellie says coming in with a big box and Joel right behind her. You walk over to the box observing it âItâs our couch Ellie!â You squeal as your father snickers taking the big box away from Ellie and placing it in the living room so he can build it.
âEllie letâs look around,â you ask grabbing her hand and pulling her around yâallâs new apartment. Everything was beautiful empty but beautiful the bathroom was big enough for the two of you to be in it at the same time. Ellieâs office was something she liked very much âI could make this my man cave,â she says as you blankly stare at her. âBut youâre not- yâknow what never mindâ Ellie snickers before looking at door you walk over to it seeing another bathroom connected to it. âYou get your own bathroom ugh lucky,â you say as Ellie smiles.
âWow look at this bedroom Ellie,â You say as you spin around in complete awe Ellie stays by the door with a smile on their face just looking at you fangirl âLook Ellie look we have a walk-in closet!â You scream as you turn to your girlfriend just staring at you. âI love you, Ellie,â you say walking over to her to hug her she smiles before kissing your forehead âI love you too Y/N letâs go down and finish helping them,â she says as you nod your head.
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âY/N go downstairs and grab the food from out of my car,â your mother says as Joel turns to your mother âI brought some food as well cause I thought we would be too exhausted to cook,â he says as he hands Ellie his keys. âWell I guess we gonna have a feast,â you say walking out the door with Ellie to go to your parent's car âand leftoversâ you smile as you enter the elevator with Ellie âI hope you know that my parents gonna wanna come over a lot now that we have our own apartment nowâ you state as Ellie nods her head.
âJoel will as well,â she says as you leave the elevator and walk to the lobby you stop Ellie and point to the door seeing two people standing there waving with stuff in their hands âYou gotta be fucking kidding me,â Ellie says walking over to the door to open it to reveal you and Ellieâs friends, Dina and Jesse. âHi my two little love birds,â Dina says with a big smile on her face and with a cafe box in her hand âI bought a new apartment cake to celebrate your new apartment!â She adds opening the box to show you and Ellie.
âJesse bought apple cider cause why not,â She says as you smile at your friend follow you out the apartment lobby and to the car âThank you, Dina, but you really didnât have to do thatâ you commented as Dina scoffs slightly offended âI did your my best friend, of course, Iâm gonna buy you a home warming gift, which Jesse has in the car just say thank you damn itâ you snicker before picking up the big crockpot filled with Soup Joumou âThank you Dinaâ you say closing your parents car door and locking it. âYour welcome now let's hurry I wanna see the apartment,â she says as you roll your eyes at your friend. âit's not quite done yet,â you say as she also rolls her eyes.
âI donât judge, who am I to judge anybody I still live with my parentsâ Dina stated walking into the elevator with you. âspeaking of them how are they?â You ask Dinaâs parents love you they think of you as their child so when you told them about you moving into your very own apartment they were happy for you. âsee Dina I wish you were more like Y/Nâ her mother says in a playful tone Dina rolls her eyes at her mother as you bust into a laughing fit. âShe wants to come visit someday,â Dina says as you nod your head.
You open the door to your apartment as Dina gasps in awe at the apartment slowly coming together. âY/N hand the crockpot to me so I can plug it in,â your mother says taking the pot away from you and placing it on the counter. âWhat did you bring Joel?â You ask washing your hands in the sink he removes the foil from the food he made âBrisket sandwiches, Tuna Casserole, banana pudding, and then Ellie help me with the cornbreadâ he says as you nod at what he said.
âI bought a cake and Jesse bought apple cider,â Dina says once again but to your parents who take the cake and Cider from Dina and Jesse âSit, Sitâ Your mother orders as everyone crowds around the dining room table. âEllie, I got yâall a home warming gift,â Jesse says holding a box in his hand. he hands it to Ellie as she thanks him and unwraps it you glance over at the thing in Ellieâs hand âNo way a PS5!â She yells excitedly.
âYou shouldnât have!â Ellie says as Jesse smiles at his friend Fangirl over her gift âY/N now we can play shit together!â She says as you nod your head thanking your mother who placed Soup Joumou and another plate for Joelâs food down. âWe should have dinners like this every Sunday nightâ Joel requests as your father nods in agreement âI donât see a problem with it,â Ellie says.
âOf course, you donât you donât even know how to cookâ you comment as Ellie rolls her eyes at what you said âYou can always teach her,â your mother says taking Ellieâs side you scoff. âplease Iâve tried plenty of times but every time I do she somehow manages to fuck up everything they touchâ You add as Joel laughs and Ellie doesnât say anything. âBut donât worry Ellie not everybody is good at these types of thingsâ you smile as Ellie sticks her tongue out at what you said. âI remember when Ellie burnt a cup of noodles because she forgot to add water,â Jesse says as the table erupts with laughter âJesse really? Youâre supposed to side with me!â
âSorry dude, not my fault you canât cookâ he adds as Dina nods her head before adding something. âShe put two eggs in the microwave once and when she when to cut it it exploded in her faceâ you laugh at what Dina says as your parents interrupt. âWhen does your bed set get here?â Your father asks as you shrug your shoulders. âTomorrow probablyâ you answer as he nods his head âWe made a pad on the floor with our sheets and shit so we are set for right now,â Ellie says stuffing her face with food. Your mother nods before giggling âYâallâs back gonna hate yâallâ she says as you and Ellie look at each other.
âDonât worry about it though it shouldnât hurt THAT badâ she says with a sarcastic tone in her voice. Just make sure you place a lot of blankets down and you should be goodâ Dina adds in
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You and Ellie say goodbye to your friends and family and cleaning up the mess left behind and placing the gifts given by your parents, Joel, and your friend away. âFinally the two of us,â Ellie says changing out of her clothes you two decided on sleeping in the living room since the couch was big enough for you guys to lay down on you guys decided comfort was better than discomfort.
âIâm exhausted!â You yawn as Ellie walks out with a sports bra and boxers on âsameâ Ellie says sitting up on the couch and reaching for her computer to find a movie to watch. âThis was the best decision that we have ever madeâ you whisper trying to fight sleep Ellie smiles caressing your shoulders. Picking out a movie she places it on the box you guys are using as a table for right now. âIâm glad we are gonna spend all of our time together,â she says as she moves you over slightly to lay down with you.
âTomorrow the stuff you order for your office comesâ Ellie nods her head before looking at the ceiling. âI love you, Ellie,â you say closing your eyes before dozing off âI love you too princess we have a long day tomorrow,â she says before focusing on the movie playing.
Welp another request done I hope you enjoyed this one as much as I enjoyed writing this and I hope you have good day (and keep requesting stuff) orevwa :). â¸ď¸ bellaxellie.
Me and My Husband
Milf Abby x Suburban Wife Reader
Warning: Abuse, Sexism, Smut (in later part), cussing, homophobia, Men being Men, child abuse, happy ending, substance abuse, cheating, religion.
A/N: This fic is based off the song Me and My Husband by the Queen Mitski. This is 8k words and very detailed (Iâm sorry) I'm gonna make a second part so if you wanna be tagged lemme know
PT2 PT3
You once had a dream, a dream so vivid, so intoxicating, that it consumed every part of your childhood. You imagined yourself as a ballerina, twirling effortlessly beneath golden chandeliers in grand ballrooms, the soft glow of stage lights reflecting off delicate pearls sewn into the finest tutus. Your makeup was flawless, your movements enchanting, your presence ethereal. Every pliĂŠ, every pirouette, every grueling hour of practice was supposed to lead to that moment, your moment. But dreams donât always survive reality.
Now, here you are, walking down an aisle lined with pristine white roses, a bouquet of lilies trembling in your grasp. The weight of the dress is your motherâs choice, not yours feels suffocating, like a costume for a role you never wanted. The lace scratches against your skin, a constant reminder that this is not a fairy tale. This is not a stage. This is not the life you fought for.
A fake smile is plastered on your lips, carefully practiced like a performance, but thereâs no standing ovation waiting at the end of this. Only a lifetime of pretending. Your heart pounds against your ribs, a caged bird desperate to break free, but your feet keep moving forward. Each step feels heavier than the last, a silent surrender to a future you never chose.
Your mind races, a storm of memories and regrets swirling in your head. What if you had tried harder? What if you had run away when you still had the chance? What if you turned around right now? The thought lingers, tempting, but you know better. You are stuck, stuck in a life you feared, stuck in a fate you never wanted, stuck in a dream that died long before today. And no matter how much you want to scream, you know no one would hear you.
The church is silent, save for the quiet rustling of fabric and the faint echo of the pastorâs voice.
"Do you, Y/N, take Kieran to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
His words hang in the air, suffocating you, pressing against your chest like a boulder. Your lips part slightly, but nothing comes out. Your throat tightens, and the weight of every choice that led you here crashes down on you all at once.
You don't answer.
The pastor watches you with a patient smile, oblivious to the war raging inside you. Kieran stands beside you, his hand resting over yours, his grip firm, too firm, a silent warning. His smile is unwavering, expectant, like he already knows the answer before you speak it.
Say it. Just say it. Two words. Thatâs all it takes.
But in your mind, all you can hear is the music, the soft, delicate piano of a ballet recital, the sound of your own laughter as a child, the rhythm of pointe shoes tapping against the studio floor.
I wanted to be a ballerina.
You swallow hard, forcing the dream away, shoving it into the dark, neglected corner of your heart where it has no place anymore. You give your answer, and the pastor nods approvingly, continuing with the ceremony as if nothing is wrong.
But everything is wrong.
Your gaze shifts to the two empty chairs at the front, the ones meant for your parents. They arenât here. They never planned to be. In their eyes, you threw away everything they worked for, discarded their vision for your life like a crumpled draft of a perfect future. But what they never understood was that this wasnât your future either. You werenât chasing love. You werenât running toward happiness. You were simply running running from disappointment, running from failure, running from a world that never let you be what you truly wanted. And now, here you are, stepping into a life that isnât yours.
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That was five years ago.
Now, you are twenty-two. Kieran is thirty-five. You live in a quiet neighborhood, far away from everything and everyone that once made you feel alive. The suburbs are suffocating, a picture-perfect prison where the grass is always green, the houses always neat, and the wives always miserable.
You have four children now, four little souls who look to you for love, for safety, for warmth. But how can you give them something you no longer have? Your husband, the man who promised to cherish you, spends his nights with other women and his days reminding you of your place. His hands, once meant to hold you, now strike with purpose. He tells you when to speak, when to smile, when to cry. And when you cry too much, he makes sure you remember why you shouldnât.
You cook. You clean. You play the role of the devoted wife, the doting mother, the woman who should be grateful for the life she has. But every night, when the house falls silent, when your children are tucked into bed and your husband is lost in sleep, you slip out onto the porch.
You stare at the sky, the vast, endless expanse of stars twinkling above you so free, so untouchable. Your fingers grip the wooden railing as silent sobs rack your body. You donât know who youâre praying to anymore, but you pray anyway. Pray for escape. Pray for someone anyone to hear you, to care, to save you.
But no one does.
No one ever does.
You wipe your tears, sucking in a shaky breath as you turn back toward the house, toward the life you never wanted, toward the nightmare you can never seem to wake up from.
"I wanted to be a ballerina."
The words leave your lips in a whisper, barely louder than the wind, before you step inside and close the door behind you.
Your days blend into one another, a never-ending cycle of routine and exhaustion. The morning sun has barely begun to rise when you wake, slipping silently out of bed before anyone else stirs. There is no time to linger, no moment to breathe in the quiet. The house must be spotless every surface wiped down, every floor scrubbed until it gleams, every corner free of dust.
Then comes breakfast, a full meal prepared from scratch, every ingredient measured with precision, every movement calculated. Not because you want to impress anyone, but because if it isnât perfect, there will be consequences.
By the time everything is in place, you have exactly ten minutes to yourself. Ten minutes to exist outside of being a wife, a mother, a servant. Ten minutes before your husband wakes up.
You hear his footsteps descending the stairs, the familiar creak of the third step making your heart jump instinctively. You brace yourself.
âGood morning,â he says, his voice light, casual, as he walks into the kitchen and pours himself a cup of coffee.
You donât trust your voice to sound right, so instead, you hum a soft melody in response, keeping your eyes down. A safe answer. An unprovocative answer. But it isnât enough.
Thereâs a scrape of a chair against the tile floor as he sits across from you. âI have a project at work,â he says between sips of coffee. âIâll be staying late. Eat without me.â
You nod, still not looking at him, still careful. But itâs the wrong move.
âWhen Iâm talking, I expect eye contact,â he snaps, his tone shifting from indifferent to dangerous in an instant.
Your breath hitches as you lift your gaze to meet his. Fear flashes across your face, and he sees it. He always sees it. And he loves it.
His expression softens, his lips curving into a smile that doesnât reach his eyes. He slides his chair closer, the wooden legs screeching against the floor, and reaches out to touch your face. His fingers are gentle, tracing over your cheek, a stark contrast to the bruises heâs left there before.
âI love you,â he says.
You wish you could understand what love means to him. You wish you could make sense of how a man who claims to love you can also be the same man who terrifies you. But you canât. You never will. So you do the only thing you canâyou force a small smile and nod, pretending, always pretending.
The day drags on, long and grueling, filled with never-ending tasks. The floors must be swept, the laundry folded, the beds made with perfect precision. The children need attention, their needs coming before your exhaustion. Then thereâs dinner to prepare, and not just dinner, dessert, too. Everything must be ready before your husband walks through the door, or youâll hear about it. Over and over again, until the words cut deeper than any bruise ever could.
And when the sun finally sets, when your body screams for rest, you know better than to listen. Because rest is a luxury you donât have. Not in this house. Not in this life.
You hum softly, the gentle melody barely louder than the whisper of the evening breeze slipping through the open window. Your fingers move carefully through your daughterâs thick, brown locs, working through the knots with practiced patience. She sits between your legs, small and fragile, her back resting against your chest. Her tiny frame is warm against you, her breathing soft and steady.
As you weave her hair into neat sections, your mind drifts wondering, fearing. Do they know? Do they understand?
Your children are still young, too young to fully grasp the weight of their world, but they arenât blind. They see the way you flinch at sudden movements. They hear the way your voice changes when you speak to their father. They feel the tension that hangs in the air like a thick, suffocating fog. And while they may not have the words to describe it, you know, you know that itâs affecting them.
The confirmation came during the last parent-teacher conference.
You sat beside your husband, hands clasped tightly in your lap, your pulse drumming an anxious rhythm as the principal sifted through a thick folder. A heavy silence loomed over the room, stretching out like a warning before she finally spoke.
âMr. and Mrs. L/N,â she began, her voice measured, careful. âWeâve collected some artwork from your eldest child.â
Your stomach twisted as she pulled out the drawings, dozens of them, scattered across the desk in a flurry of colors and lines. Crude, childlike figures, their shapes barely distinguishable, yet painfully clear in their message. You saw yourself, a woman drawn in shaky, jagged lines. A man stood beside you, your husband, his figure dark, looming. And in nearly every picture, something was wrong.
In one, you were on the floor, your body curled in on itself while the larger figure towered over you. In another, your child had drawn you with tears streaming down your face, your hands clutching your stomach as if bracing for impact. There were others, too scenes you recognized all too well, moments that had played out in the shadows of your home but now lay exposed in bright, crayon-colored horror.
Your breath caught in your throat. You didnât need to ask what they meant.
The principal exhaled, watching you carefully, her fingers drumming against the desk. âNow, I donât know whatâs going on in your household,â she said, her tone firm but not unkind. âBut whatever it is, itâs clear that this is not a safe space for a child to be in.â
Her words slammed into you like a gut punch, knocking the air from your lungs.
You didnât dare glance at your husband. You already knew what his expression would be tight-lipped, jaw clenched, eyes dark with quiet, seething rage. A silent promise that you would pay for this later.
And you had.
Now, sitting here, your daughter nestled in your lap, her small voice humming along with yours, you wonder how much longer you can keep pretending. How much longer you can keep them shielded from the storm that rages within these walls.
Because if they already see it, if they already feel it then maybe youâre too late. Maybe the damage has already been done.
As your children run through the house, their laughter echoing softly against the walls, you move with quiet urgency, tending to your endless list of chores. The floors must be spotless, the furniture dust-free, every misplaced item returned to its proper place. The kitchen needs to be in perfect order before you even begin cookingâbecause if itâs not, heâll notice. He always notices.
You glance at the clock. Two hours. Thatâs all the time you have to scrub away any imperfections, to prepare dinner exactly the way he likes it, to make sure thereâs nothing, nothing that could set him off tonight.
But as you wipe down the counters, kneeling to pick up scattered toys along the way, a different hope settles in your chest. You hope whatever is keeping him at work lasts longer than expected. You hope, just for a little while, that the house remains untouched by his presence. That your children can play without the weight of fear pressing down on them.
Because these rare moments when his shadow isnât looming over you, when the air isnât thick with tension are the only times you and your children can breathe.
You step outside, grateful for the brief moment of peace, watching as your children run and play, their laughter ringing through the air like music you once cherished. You let the cool breeze hit your face, a small, fleeting comfort in a life that feels like itâs constantly suffocating you. But itâs a moment of freedom, however brief, and you hold onto it.
Then, out of the corner of your eye, you see a truck pull into the driveway next door. A new neighbor. The thought stirs something in you, curiosity maybe? The desire to greet someone new, to make a connection. But then, reality hits. Your husband would want to go with you. He would want to make sure you didnât step out of line, make sure the interaction was on his terms. The thought of him joining you, watching your every move, makes the idea of introducing yourself feel too heavy, too complicated. So you stand there, watching instead of acting.
A muscular woman climbs out of the truck, her movements sharp and purposeful. Sheâs got a single braid running down her back, and she moves toward the truck bed, probably to grab some boxes. You can't help but stare.
A woman. Moving in next door.
You wonder if sheâs different if her story is anything like yours. Could she be here, in this same neighborhood, living a life that doesnât suffocate? Or maybe, like you, sheâs just trying to make it work, trying to survive the weight of it all. Your heart twinges with longing what if she understood? What if she knew the pain of walking through your own front door, knowing you were trapped, knowing you were invisible, knowing your life was nothing like you once dreamed it would be?
Your thoughts are interrupted when a small figure dashes out from behind the house, a little boy, his laughter bright and carefree. He holds a plastic dinosaur in one hand, his face lit with a smile so wide it almost hurts to see. "Momma, momma, the house is huge!" he shouts, running in circles around her, his feet kicking up dust as he giggles.
The woman your neighbor looks down at the boy with a tenderness that makes something inside you ache. She smiles softly, bending to catch him in her arms, laughing at his excitement. But then, she straightens, her eyes scanning the neighborhood. They meet yours.
She smiles at you, a warm, inviting smile, before giving a small, hesitant wave.
For a moment, you freeze. You could wave back, maybe even walk over and introduce yourself. But something holds you back. The weight of your own silence, the fear of being seen for who you really are, the unspoken rules that keep you in your place.
Instead, you turn away, looking down at the ground, your heart heavy in your chest. You usher your children back inside, pushing past the small pang of regret that starts to settle in your gut.
Another chance at connection slips away. And you canât help but wonder, with a bitter twist in your heart, if it was ever really yours to begin with.
You shut the door behind you, the soft click of it closing sounding like finality. The air inside the house feels thicker somehow, as if the outside world, full of possibilities and fleeting moments, has evaporated into something unreachable. You stand in the hallway for a moment, the echoes of your footsteps the only sound in the stillness.
Your kids are still playing, oblivious to the world around them, the joy of their laughter cutting through the silence like a knife. You force a smile as you watch them, but itâs hollow, a shadow of the joy they should be feeling.
Thereâs so much left to do. So many chores, so many tasks to complete before your husband gets home. Dinner to cook, the house to clean, everything perfect. Itâs always like this always the same, endless cycle of small duties that keep you trapped, that keep you busy enough not to think too hard about anything. You donât have the luxury of rest, not when thereâs always something else waiting for you, some small task that needs your attention.
But right now, your mind keeps drifting back to the neighbor. The woman, the boy. Their easy laughter. That brief moment of connection that was so close, yet so far. You can still see her smile in your mindâs eye, the softness of it, the warmth that for a split second made you feel like you could be part of something bigger, something better.
You shake your head, pushing the thoughts away. You canât afford to think about her life, about what couldâve been. You canât let yourself feel anything but the responsibilities piled up around you.
But the question lingers, quiet but persistent: What would it be like if you could just be free? Free to step outside and be yourself, free to talk to someone without fear of the consequences.
As you walk into the kitchen to start dinner, you realize youâre moving on autopilot again. The knife in your hand is familiar, the cutting board beneath it a routine. But something feels off, a shift inside you, like a small crack starting to form on the surface.
For a moment, you pause. You look at the vegetables in front of you, the simple task of chopping them feels like the only thing you can control in this life. And it occurs to you that, for the first time in a long time, you want something more. You want more than this life of quiet submission, more than this existence where every day feels like itâs slipping through your fingers.
Your hands are still, the knife resting on the cutting board, and you think just for a second Maybe tomorrow will be different.
But then the sound of your husbandâs car engine rumbles in the distance, and the world goes back to what it has always been. You sigh, picking up the knife again, the weight of it grounding you in the life you know.
For now.
You keep chopping, one slice at a time, knowing tomorrow will come with the same expectations. But thereâs something inside you now, a small spark, something that maybe, just maybe, is enough to keep you going.
Dinner is done. The house is spotless, every corner scrubbed, every toy picked up. Your kids are bathed, their small faces glowing from the warm water, their hair still damp as they run around, carefree. The time to yourself that you so desperately crave is finally here only ten minutes, but it feels like a fleeting gift, one you never seem to get enough of.
You sink into the couch, exhaustion hitting you like a wave, your eyes closing for just a moment as you savor the quiet. For a brief second, the weight of it all lifts, and you imagine what it would be like to simply rest, to feel like yourself again. You let out a shaky breath, one you didnât realize you were holding in.
But then, the sound of the door unlocking breaks the silence. You freeze, the peace shattering like glass. The door creaks open, the familiar footsteps youâve come to dread echoing in your ears. The hairs on the back of your neck stand up, your heart skips a beat, and in an instant, youâre back in the role you never asked for.
Your husband steps inside, his shoes scraping against the floor as he shuts the door behind him. The air in the room shifts, the heaviness returning like an old friend. He looks around, scanning the house, his gaze sharp, calculating. You donât even need to ask what heâs thinking you know.
"How was your day?" he asks, his voice flat, almost disinterested. But you know the question isnât really for you. Itâs just a routine. A way to check if you've done your part. His eyes flicker toward the kitchen, then back to you, waiting for a response. You force a smile, standing up quickly, trying to hide the weariness that threatens to consume you.
"Itâs fine," you say, your voice soft, steady. But inside, it feels like everything is unraveling. You just wanted those last few minutes. Those precious, fleeting moments of silence, just to breathe, just to feel like youâre allowed to exist without serving someone elseâs needs for once. But now, theyâre gone.
Your kids are still playing in the other room, unaware of the shift, unaware of the tension thatâs already thickening in the air. You glance at the clock, only ten minutes and you know youâll spend the rest of the night fighting for whatever small scraps of peace are left. You hate that you have to force yourself to breathe, to stay calm, to stay perfect for him.
You hear him moving through the house now, checking things, his footsteps getting closer. You brace yourself, your body stiffening as the familiar dread creeps in.
The moment you were hoping for, the sliver of peace, is slipping away like water through your fingers.
You step into the kitchen, the faint scent of the dayâs exhaustion lingering in the air. The room feels smaller, the walls closing in, as you gather everything needed to set the table. The routine is almost mechanical by now like every other evening before this one, and every evening thatâs come before it. You move quickly, your hands shaking ever so slightly as you set out the plates, utensils, and glasses, making sure everything is perfect. Itâs the least you can do. At least in this small space, you can control something.
The soft sound of his footsteps echoes through the hallway, the familiar thud of his boots on the stairs. He doesnât speak as he passes through, the weight of his presence almost palpable as he heads upstairs to your shared room. Heâs probably going to get comfortable, change into something more suited for relaxation after a day of whatever it is he does. You donât really know, not anymore. The distance between you both has grown too wide for you to care about the details of his day.
As you hear him move upstairs, you feel an unfamiliar pang of something maybe irritation, maybe longing. Itâs hard to distinguish these days. You force yourself to focus back on the dinner preparations, but itâs hard not to feel like a ghost in your own home, invisible in the same space you once thought youâd share everything with him. Now itâs just a routine. Another night, another meal. No words exchanged unless necessary.
You place the last of the dishes on the table, your movements slower now, as if each action takes more effort than the one before. You look down at your hands, the rough skin from years of doing everything, from maintaining the house to caring for the kids to keeping him satisfied. Your nails, chipped and bare, remind you of all the things youâve lost your own identity, your sense of self.
And yet, you continue. You set the table, trying to make the best of what you have left. But inside, thereâs a quiet ache, a space thatâs only growing wider with each passing day.
His footsteps upstairs, the creaking of the floorboards, feels like a distant echo now. Itâs almost as if the walls themselves are blocking out the sound of him, distancing you from the reality of the life youâve somehow found yourself in. You swallow hard, pushing the thoughts away, trying to focus on the task at hand. Dinner needs to be served. The children need their mother.
And you? You just need a moment.
A moment that feels like itâs forever out of reach.
As you move around the kitchen, the scent of warm spices and simmering food fills the air, though it does little to soothe the unease curling in your stomach. Your hands work on autopilot, scooping portions onto each plate with practiced efficiency, the weight of the evening pressing heavily against your back. The faint creak of the staircase makes your muscles tighten instinctively, your body already anticipating the shift in atmosphere.
Your husbandâs footsteps are slow, measured, followed by the softer, lighter pitter-patter of your childrenâs. They make their way down the stairs, filing into the dining room in a quiet procession. You glance up just in time to see him lower himself into his usual seat at the head of the table, his presence immediately filling the room with an invisible tension.
The children take their places without a word, their small bodies stiff as they settle into their chairs. They know the rules. No unnecessary noise. No fidgeting. No missteps that might draw unwanted attention. Their wide eyes flicker between you and their father, reading the energy in the room before deciding how to carry themselves for the evening.
Your husband leans back slightly, his gaze heavy as he watches you move, waiting for his plate. He doesnât offer to help, doesnât acknowledge the effort it takes to prepare every meal, to keep everything running smoothly. He simply expects, expects the table to be set, the food to be plated, the house to be pristine.
You swallow down the lump forming in your throat and force your shaking hands to stay steady as you lift the final dish from the counter. The weight of the serving tray feels heavier than usual, or maybe itâs just the exhaustion settling into your bones. You walk carefully toward the table, the warmth of the food against your fingertips a stark contrast to the chill that has settled deep inside of you.
Your children sit with their hands folded neatly in their laps, their gazes flickering toward you, seeking silent reassurance. You offer them the smallest of smiles, one that doesnât quite reach your eyes, before turning your attention back to the task at hand.
As you place the last plate down, your husband clears his throat, an impatient sound that makes your stomach tighten. You know what it means. Youâre moving too slowly. Taking too long.
You murmur an apology, though youâre not even sure what youâre apologizing for, and take your seat at the table. The silence stretches, thick and suffocating, as you wait for the inevitable his judgment, his approval, or worse, his disappointment.
Your hands rest tightly in your lap, fingers clasped together so hard that your knuckles ache. Itâs the only way to keep them from shaking. You stare down at your plate, pushing bits of food around with your fork, but the thought of eating makes your stomach churn.
Youâre not hungry. Not for this meal. Not for this conversation.
Swallowing against the tightness in your throat, you force yourself to speak.
âWe have new neighbors,â you murmur, barely loud enough to be heard over the clinking of silverware against plates.
Across from you, your husband barely glances up, too busy stuffing his mouth with food to acknowledge your words right away. You wait, your pulse a steady drumbeat in your ears, until finally he looks at you.
Just a glance. A fleeting moment of attention. But itâs enough to send your heart skittering against your ribs.
You regret speaking immediately.
âWe should introduce ourselves,â he says between bites, wiping his mouth lazily with a napkin. âBe neighborly.â
Your stomach knots so tightly itâs painful. You donât want to.
You donât want to stand next to him like a perfectly trained wife, offering a forced smile while he takes charge of the conversation. You donât want to meet the woman next door, the one with the muscular frame and sharp eyes and feel her gaze linger too long, like sheâs trying to see you.
Because what if she does? What if she looks too closely? What if she already knows?
But saying no isnât an option. Not in this house. Not with him. So, you do the only thing you can.
You nod.
A single, obedient nod. And with that, your fate is sealed.
The rest of dinner is quiet. Suffocating. The only sounds are the occasional scrape of a fork against a plate, the distant hum of the refrigerator, the soft rustling of napkins. Your children eat quickly, eyes lowered, shoulders tense. They can feel it too that subtle shift in the air, the way the weight in the room seems to press down harder when your husband is thinking. Calculating.
You donât look at him, but you feel his gaze settle on you every now and then, like heâs waiting for something. Some sign of defiance. A reason to be angry.
You donât give him one.
After dinner, you clean up in silence. You wash the dishes, wipe down the counters, make sure everything is in perfect order just the way he likes it. All the while, your mind is racing, heart pounding with an anxious rhythm that refuses to slow down.
Because you know whatâs coming next.
And sure enough-
âGet ready,â he says from the living room, standing by the front door as he adjusts his watch. âWeâre going.â
Your hands tighten around the dish towel in your grip.
You take a steadying breath, forcing yourself to move. To comply. To do exactly whatâs expected of you.
A few minutes later, you step onto the porch beside him, the evening air crisp against your skin. The sky is a deep navy now, the last traces of sunlight fading over the horizon. Crickets hum softly in the distance.
Next door, the house is still lit up. The moving truck is gone, but a few unopened boxes sit on the porch. Through the window, you see the faint silhouette of the woman from earlier, pacing around her living room, arranging furniture.
Your stomach twists.
You donât want to do this.
But you have no choice.
Your husband knocks. Three sharp, authoritative taps. The kind that announces his presence, the kind that demands attention.
It doesnât take long for the door to open.
And then, there she is.
Up close, sheâs even taller than you realized. Broad shoulders, strong arms, brown hair pulled back into a single braid. Thereâs something steady about her presence, something firm yetâŚwarm.
She blinks at the two of you, her expression shifting from curiosity to polite surprise.
âUh- hey,â she says, glancing between you and your husband. âCan I help you?â
Your husband steps forward, offering his hand with that well-rehearsed, charming smile that youâve seen fool so many people before.
âEvening,â he says smoothly. âWe live next door. Just wanted to come by, introduce ourselves properly.â He says trying to look in the opened door probably for a husband.
She hesitates for a second before shaking his hand. You watch as she grips it firmly, her posture relaxed but observant.
Your husband turns to you then, his smile still fixed in place. âThis is my wife.â
You force yourself to meet her gaze, and for a brief moment, you swear you see something flicker in her eyes, something unreadable.
But itâs gone just as quickly.
âIâm-â Your voice catches in your throat, so you clear it and try again. âIâm Y/N.â
She nods, offering a small smile. âNice to meet you. Iâm Abby.â
Abby.
The name settles somewhere in your chest, unfamiliar yet strangely significant.
From inside the house, a small voice calls out.
âMomma?â
You glance past Abby just as a little boy comes into view, clutching a toy dinosaur in his tiny hands. His curls bounce as he runs up to her, eyes wide and curious as he peeks at the two strangers on their doorstep.
Abby chuckles, resting a hand on his shoulder. âThis is my son, Ezekielâ Abby introduce as the little boy waves and runs off Your husband smiles at the little boy before speaking
âWhat a nice boy you have,â the man comments, his voice warm with forced politeness. Abby offers him a small smile, nodding in gratitude, but her eyes drift toward you silent, hesitant, your gaze lowering to the ground.
âAnd what does your husband do for work?â he asks, his curiosity laced with something less innocent than casual small talk.
Abbyâs smile doesnât waver, though thereâs a flicker of something unreadable in her expression. âI donât have one,â she answers simply.
You nod in agreement beside her, confirming her words without elaborating.
âOh, divorced?â he pressed, his tone too nosy, too expectant. Abby studies him, wondering why he seems so invested in the status of a strangerâs love life.
âI guess you could say that,â she replies, her voice measured as she glances at you.
The man bobs his head in understanding before his lips curve into a smug smile. âWell, if youâre ever in need of a new one, I might be able to help you find one,â he offers, a hint of amusement in his voice. âThough, you might have to lose some of the muscle. Makes you look a little... masculine.â
His words land with an air of casual cruelty, but Abby only stares at him, as if heâs just spoken in a language she doesnât understand. You can feel the weight of his remark, the sheer audacity of it, and a part of you wants to say something to cut in, to apologize on behalf of your husband. But you donât.
Instead, Abby turns to you, her eyes catching yours. She sees it, sees the silent apology written in your expression, the regret pooling behind your gaze. And, somehow, despite the tension hanging in the air, she smiles.
âOh, uh, no, Iâm really fine, actually,â she says, her voice steady but kind. âIâm pretty happy being a single mother.â
She punctuates her words with a small, confident smile, but your husband barely lets them settle before your husband coughs into his fist, an exaggerated sound that barely masks his irritation. âWell, thatâs surprising,â he says, forcing a chuckle as if Abby had just told a joke instead of asserting her independence. âMost women I know canât handle all that on their own. Must be exhausting.â
Abby tilts her head slightly, her smile still in place but now honed to a fine edge, like a blade hidden beneath silk. âIt has its challenges,â she admits, her voice smooth, deliberate. Thereâs no hesitation, no vulnerability just quiet certainty. âBut nothing I canât handle.â
Your husband makes a noise under his breath, something between a scoff and a grunt, barely audible. His eyes drift across the room, scanning the half-unpacked boxes stacked against the walls, the lingering signs of transition still settling in. âYouâve got a lot to unpack,â he observes, his tone casual, almost thoughtful. âNeed a hand getting everything sorted?â
Abby doesnât answer right away. Instead, she watches him, her expression unreadable, as if weighing the offer itself rather than the words behind it. The pause stretches just long enough for discomfort to settle, but before she can say anything, your husband clears his throat and smiles an easy, practiced expression that doesnât quite reach his eyes.
âMy wife can help you.â
Itâs not a suggestion. Itâs not even a question. Itâs a decision, handed over without thought, as if your time and effort belongs to him to give away.
You feel his eyes on you, expectant, waiting for you to nod along like you always do. But the words sit heavy in the air, pressing against your chest, and all you can do is look away, shifting in place as a quiet discomfort settles in your bones.
Abby notices. She doesnât press, doesnât call attention to it, she just studies you for a moment, her sharp gaze softening slightly before she gives a small nod. âYeah,â she says, her tone measured but light. âThat would be nice.â
Your husband claps his hands together, seemingly satisfied with how effortlessly heâs delegated your time. âGreat,â he says, flashing a smile like heâs just solved a problem. âSheâs good at that kind of thing organizing, tidying up. She keeps our place in order.â
Thereâs something about the way he says it, so dismissive yet possessive at the same time, that makes your stomach twist. Like youâre just another extension of the home he thinks he owns, another thing to be managed.
Abby doesnât look at him. She keeps her gaze on you instead, her expression unreadable but attentive. Itâs subtle, but you can feel it sheâs waiting for something. Maybe for you to speak. Maybe for you to push back. Maybe just to see if you will.
You donât.
You just look up at her and give her this face smile âIâll helpâ you murmur, though the word feels hollow in your mouth.
Your husband pats your shoulder lightly, as if to seal the deal, then turns his attention back to Abby. âSee? Sheâs happy to help.â
Abby exhales softly, something like amusement flickering across her face, but itâs fleeting. She steps aside, gesturing toward the boxes. âWell, I wonât say no to an extra set of hands.â
Your husband nods, clearly pleased with himself, but his attention is already driftingâlike heâs done his part and the rest no longer concerns him. âAlright, Iâll leave you two to it,â he says, stretching his arms before casually checking his watch. âIâve got some things to take care of anyway.â
With that, he turns on his heel and walks away without a second glance, leaving you standing there with the woman in front of her door. His absence lingers for a moment, a quiet finality in the sound of his footsteps fading down the hall.
Abby shifts her attention back to you, her lips curving into a small, knowing smile. She doesnât say anything at firstâjust watches you for a second longer than necessary before stepping aside, wordlessly inviting you in.
You hesitate, only for a beat, before crossing the threshold. As soon as you do, Abby gently pushes the door shut behind you, the soft click of the latch settling into place. The air inside is warmer, quieter, almost cocooning.
âThanks for helping,â she says, her voice light but sincere as she walks ahead of you.
You glance at her, offering a small nod in response. âYeah, of course.â
But as she moves toward the scattered boxes, your gaze flickers down to the watch on your wrist. *8:30 PM.* You do a quick calculation in your head if you help her with everything she needs, you can probably be out of here before *10 PM.*
Itâs manageable. A couple of hours. Then you can go home, slide back into the quiet routine youâve grown used to.
Abby doesnât miss the way your eyes linger on the time. âYou didnât have to,â she says, her tone softer now, more thoughtful. She walks over to one of the unopened boxes, kneeling as she tugs at the flaps, prying it open with ease.
You shake your head slightly, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. âNo, itâs fine. I donât mind.â And maybe thatâs true.
Or maybe itâs just easier to say than admitting you donât quite know how to refuse.
You crouch down, carefully lifting the flap of one of the boxes on the floor, your fingers brushing over the edges of a few photographs that are loosely packed inside. As you move the items around, your eyes land on a pictureâan image of Abby and her son at a theme park, their faces bright with joy. The moment captured is full of light, a rare instance of carefree happiness, and you can't help but smile at the sight of it.
For a moment, you forget the reason youâre here, lost in the simplicity of the photograph, the love between mother and child so evident. You gently pull it out, holding it between your fingers as if the memory is fragile, precious.
You glance up at Abby, suddenly aware of the quiet tension thatâs still lingering in the air between you. You take a breath, your voice quieter now, almost apologetic. âI wanna apologize for my husband,â you say, the words feeling heavier than they should.
Abbyâs eyes flicker to you, but she doesnât seem surprised. In fact, thereâs a subtle shift in her expression, like sheâs heard this beforeâor perhaps itâs the kind of thing sheâs come to expect from people like your husband. She doesnât speak immediately, just watches you with a gaze thatâs more resigned than anything else.
âItâs fine,â she replies, her tone smooth, almost indifferent. âIâm used to men like him.â
Her words hit you harder than expected. Thereâs no bitterness, no anger, just a calm acceptance a kind of understanding that makes you pause.
Youâre not sure if itâs the way she says it, or the sheer matter-of-factness of her voice, but it makes you feel like youâve just glimpsed a side of her you werenât prepared for. Abby isnât just playing along with the situation, pretending it doesnât affect her. Sheâs *adapted* to it, found a way to make peace with it.
You hold the photo a little longer, your fingers tightening around it before carefully placing it back in the box, suddenly aware of how small the space feels. A quiet, uncomfortable weight presses in, but Abby doesnât seem bothered by it, sheâs already back to her own work, moving onto the next box, as though the moment never happened.
âYou know you donât have to take that?â she says suddenly, her voice cutting through the quiet like a soft but deliberate interruption.
You freeze in your tracks, the words hanging in the air like a riddle you canât quite solve. The rhythm of your thoughts stutters, and for a moment, you just stand there, blinking at her in confusion. What is she talking about?
You turn toward her, still processing, and notice the subtle way her smile seems to stretch just a little wider, more knowing now. Thereâs a strange glimmer in her eyes, something calculated, something that makes you feel like youâve missed something important.
You open your mouth, then close it again, not sure how to respond, still caught off guard. "Wh- what?" you ask, your voice almost faltering as you search her face for some kind of explanation.
Abby stands there, her posture relaxed, arms crossed casually as if sheâs waiting for you to catch up, for the pieces to fall into place. The smile on her face, it doesnât waver, but thereâs an edge to it now, a knowingness you didnât expect.
Abbyâs gaze lingers on you, sharp yet steady, her expression unreadable. She doesnât need to raise her voice to make herself heard her words cut through the space between you like a knife, precise and deliberate.
âYou know,â she says, her tone measured, almost casual, but thereâs an undeniable weight behind it, âthe disrespect.â
The statement lands like a slow, creeping chill, settling into your skin before you even fully process it. Your fingers twitch slightly at your sides, but you donât move, donât respond. You just stare at her, expression carefully blank, waitingâhopingâsheâll drop it and move on.
She doesnât.
Instead, she shifts her stance, arms still crossed loosely, her presence unwavering. âI mightâve just met you today,â she continues, her voice softer now, almost gentle, âbut no woman deserves to go through that.â
The words hit a little deeper than you expect, stirring something uncomfortable in your chest. But rather than let them sink in, let them *mean* something, you push back the only way you know how.
A snicker escapes you, short and humorless.
She doesnât know what sheâs talking about.
She doesnât know you.
âYou have no idea what youâre talking about,â you snap, your voice sharper than you intended. Defensive. Immediate. A reflex you donât even think about before itâs already out.
Abby doesnât flinch. She doesnât even blink. If anything, the corners of her mouth twitch slightly, like she expected that response. Like sheâs seen it before.
And that just makes your skin crawl even more.
Your stomach twists with regret almost instantly, the sharpness of your own words lingering in the air like a slap you canât take back. You let out a slow breath, pressing your fingers against your temples before finally looking up at her.
âIâm sorry,â you murmur, your voice quieter now, unsteady. âI- I didnât mean to snap at you like that.â
You donât wait for her to respond. Instead, you stand abruptly, needing to put some space between you and the weight of the conversation. Your legs carry you across the room almost on autopilot, and before you even think about it, you sink onto the brown couch sitting against the bare wall. The worn fabric is rough beneath your fingertips as you clasp your hands together in your lap, staring down at them, feeling the awkwardness settle in your bones.
Abby doesnât say anything right away. You hear the soft rustle of her clothes as she shifts, and when you glance up, sheâs watching you with that same unreadable expression. But thereâs no judgment in her eyes. No irritation. Just quiet understanding.
âItâs fine,â she says after a moment, her voice calm, steady. âI understand.â
And then, without hesitation, she walks over and sits down beside you.
The silence that follows is thick but not uncomfortable. Just⌠there. Heavy with unspoken things neither of you seem ready to voice. The only sound in the empty house is the faint creak of the couch as you both sit there, unmoving, breathing in the stillness.
You should say something.
You should *do* something.
But for now, you just sit. And, somehow, that feels like enough.
Abby leans back against the couch, exhaling slowly as she rests her arm along the back of it. She doesnât look at you right away, giving you space, letting the silence stretch between you both. Itâs not uncomfortable, not exactly, but it carries a weight youâre not sure how to address.
You shift slightly, rubbing your palms against your thighs, grounding yourself in the rough fabric of your jeans. The house around you feels too big, too empty, the lack of furniture making every sound more pronouncedâthe soft creak of the couch beneath you, the faint hum of the street outside.
âI didnât mean to assume anything,â Abby says eventually, breaking the silence, her voice softer than before. âI just⌠I recognize certain things.â
Your chest tightens, and for a moment, you donât know how to respond. Thereâs something about the way she says itânot pitying, not prying. Just understanding.
You force out a small, dry chuckle, shaking your head. âYou must think Iâm pathetic.â
Abby turns to look at you then, her brow furrowing slightly. âNo,â she says, firm and immediate. âNot at all.â
You glance at her, and for the first time since stepping into her house, you really see her. The steady confidence, the way she holds herselfânot just physically, but emotionally. Itâs something solid, something unshakable. And for some reason, that makes your throat feel tight.
âIâm notâŚâ You start, but the words die before they fully form. Youâre not what? Weak? Trapped? Lying to yourself?
Abby watches you, waiting.
You exhale sharply and shake your head, dropping your gaze. âForget it.â
She doesnât push. She just nods, as if she already knows youâre not ready to say it out loud. Instead, she leans back again, giving you room to breathe.
Abby shifts slightly beside you, her gaze steady, unreadable. âTalk to me, Y/N,â she says, her voice low but certain. âIâm your friend.â
The words sit heavy between you, pressing against something fragile inside your chest. You want to believe her, to let the dam break and spill everything out. But you canât. Not like this. Not right now. And especially not to someone you barely know.
Your fingers tighten against the fabric of your jeans, and you shake your head. âIâm sorry,â you murmur, voice barely above a whisper. âI just⌠I canât.â
Abby watches you for a moment, searching your face, but she doesnât push. She just nods, accepting your silence for what it is. âAlright,â she says simply, leaning back into the couch, giving you space.
The silence in the room stretches, thick and suffocating, pressing against your chest like a weight you canât shake off. You rub your hands together, a feeble attempt to ground yourself, but it only makes you more aware of the warmth radiating from beside you, of the way Abbyâs presence fills the space, steady and unshaken. Itâs unnerving how calm she is, how effortless it seems for her to sit there when you feel like youâre unraveling.
You donât know how it happens.
One moment, youâre staring at your hands, trying to focus on anything but her, trying to steady the erratic pounding in your chest. The next, you glance up, and sheâs already looking at you.
Sheâs closer than you realized.
The dim glow of the lamp catches on her features, softening the sharpness of her jawline, her cheekbones. But it does nothing to dull the intensity in her eyes the quiet understanding, the weight of something unspoken lingering between you. Itâs in the way she doesnât move, doesnât look away, just waits.
Your breath catches.
And then, before you can stop yourself, before reason can drag you back to reality, you lean in.
The kiss is fleeting barely a second but itâs enough. Enough to feel the warmth of her lips, the way she stills against you, frozen in surprise. Enough for your heart to drop the instant it happens, for cold panic to settle in your stomach like a stone.
What have you done?
You pull back so fast it feels like the air itself is pushing against you, your chest rising and falling in short, panicked breaths. âIââ Your voice dies in your throat. There are no words for this. No way to explain the rush of emotions crashing into you all at once.
Abby blinks, her lips still slightly parted, her expression unreadable. The shock hasnât fully faded from her face, but she doesnât say anything.
You canât do this.
âI have to go,â you blurt out, your voice sharper than you mean for it to be. You push yourself up from the couch too fast, the world tilting slightly as you grab your bag with unsteady hands. You refuse to meet her eyes, refuse to acknowledge the way your skin still tingles where she touched you.
âY/Nââ
But you donât let her finish. Youâre already moving, your feet carrying you toward the door, toward anywhere but here.
The second you step outside, the cold air slaps against your skin, but it does nothing to calm the storm raging inside you. Your pulse pounds in your ears, your lips still tingling with the ghost of a kiss you shouldnât have stolen.
You kissed her.
And you regret it.
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Hola, solo querĂa saber si todavĂa vas a escribir "lengua atada". De hecho, tenĂa mucha curiosidad. EstĂĄ bien si no lo haces, no hay presiĂłn.
HELLO!! Yes I am going to update Tongue Tied I donât wanna say when cause Iâm still writing the first and second chapter but snippets, moodboards and other cool things to get you guys into the feeling of the story should be out sooner or later. I am truly sorry for disappearing like I did I hope to never do that again. thanks for asking love đŤśđž






