I am gonna be digging my own grave and admit to being an 'apathetic dickhead ' by not looking at any of the Palestine stuff because of my suicidality and not being able to handle serious topics to a certain extend without wanting to kill myself or having panic attacks
I lost my job, I am dealing with a ton of health issues and familiar issues and I do only come on here to cope with my own struggles and I personally for example take priority over taking care of that before anything
I am all for people supporting and spreading information and donating and all of that jazz but like
How about we just also respect people that exist that are not able to look at people dying on the daily
If it was with *any* other topic people would be appauled by you claiming that "oh this is supposed to trigger and upset you" because wtf lowkey
If y'all take offense with this stance then I'm sorry but I'm standin by it and the block button is right there
I'm all for supporting people in need I just cannot partake and neither can a lot of people I assume
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Y'ALL i just found out about the wierdass plastic food phenomenon goin on in america rn and even tho it could possibly be fake I am fucking terrified of the thought that all food just becoming plastic-
bru if we ever have this shit in europe I'm going full tiktok carnivore until they change the meat to plastic too then Ig I'll just eat bugs fuck if i know-
brothers [/gender neut.] I am gonna be getting my very first own pet tarantula soon [a b. hamorii because it's the only beginner friendly spode I have access to locally next to a curly hair-]
yippieeee!!
dw I am doing my research nd going slow instead of randomly impulse buying the beby :+1:
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Randomass thought but fuck people who shame others for not shaving
Like funfact you can lowkey fuck up your skin and irritate the fuck out of it if you shave [speaking from experience and now I can no longer anyway due to other skin deseases going on on my end]
Like let people choose and not pressure them just because "society said so" it's fucking stupid
And same thing other way around, let amabs shave if they want to gah damn lmao
Hey I am sorry but like- I had a memory recently and just like-
I used to go to therapy actually when i was like 16/17 somewhere around the age and the therapy itself was kind of dogshit wich I didn't notice becuase how tf am I supposed to know if i have had no prior experiences and like
there was a time at the end of one of our sessions where I brought up that I absolutely hate having my mom shout at me and THE ADVICE I FUCKING GOT?
LISTEN TO LOUD MUSIC/NOISE TO GET USED TO IT
I don't know if that is like a legit memory I have because I am confident it is but i am also kind of sceptical because it just doesn't sound fucking real :sob::sob:
And funfact all that I was listening to already at the time was loud music and such and it still didn't help because golly gee maybe that shit won't help me in the first place-
have some more shitty advice below
Some other advice I remember was that I should never fidget with stuff atleast not out in public or when interacting with people because it will make me look like a fucking wierdo [I used to fidget a ton with my housekeys at the time and I also used to wear it around my neck wich I lost the habit off because my therapist insisted on me having it in my backpack until I actually needed to use it]
I was also never allowed to describe any of my problems/symptoms with medical terms because blablabla self diagnosis but like- how tf am I supposed to describe that I am paranoid wihout using the word paranoid? anxious or AfRaId is not the right word for what I am experiancing so what the fuck am I supposed to use? I get that "oh hey dont actually self diagnose" but like- How the fuck am I supposed to describe shit at all? [I already have a very bad time actually wording myself properly to get my stuff across, especially when new stuff is happening and at the time I was actually starting to have my first few times dissociating [probably] and while describing my experience to my thera she just didn't get it and just said lmao sleep more + eat healthy and while that can be helpful I KIIIIIND OF doubt that does a huge impact]
HELL I could probably give a list of what I think I possibly have and my thera could just correct me with "oh you actually have this and that and that is the more appropriate terms for that" instead of just having me water my own problems down for the sake of not self diagnosing
All of my internet friends are also not real people, oh and if your partner in another country is struggling Just ditch them and choose a "real" person to be with! and you must have "real" friends or you will stay depressed forever and always! [I have a partner who I meet up with on a more regular basis + some irl friends yet I may be clinically depressed so where tf is that logic I-]
so yea fun, i hope my next therapists will be more respectful with me if i even manage to find one-
controversial hottake but I don like hazbin hotel so far
especially that episode 4 I recommend staying fffaaaaaaarrrrr away from that especially if you are sensitive to S/A and general Abuse because there is a whoooollleeee lodda that in there
there than that the first 3 episodes were mid as fuck /lh
