#seraleya

And I will remember the love I deserved but never Got and I had to Pry your fucking heart open And crawl my way in Make room for myself That’s all I’ve ever done Everywhere I go I fit into the empty spaces, I burst at the seems, Where I don’t belong Throw myself down, Lay myself out, I’m halfway there But I can’t make a seed Grow anywhere

I resembled a dying rose today and it was exhausting. I’m tired of staring at the ground. I’m tired of losing all my petals.

In all of those moments, I wanted to cut out all my sins from my body and lay them down upon the earth before you. Like pieces of bark they are rough and dead, once clutching onto my very skin, all a part of me. You make me want to strip myself bare and lay myself out to you, I want you to see all my flaws, I want you to know I am not beautiful, yet all the while wanting you to take me anyway. I am composed of things that are dead, I am not a tree, I do not give life, I am just bark, flaws, stitched together with hope for something more. I wish for love, I wish for more.

But you loved me like the flowers grew; and died.