I miss Sera more than most today. Maybe because she wasn't fond of me.
What's that thing? Why's it just standin' there? Why won't it move, won't blink, won't eat, won't do anythin'. It's just wrong, I wish it would do SOMETHIN'!
She didn't like nothing, stillness, silence, suffocating, stiffling nothing.
And that's all I was for quite some time... I still liked her. Liked the gap in her teeth when she smiled, the snort when she laughed and how she made up words. She still didn't like me. She was still afraid of nothing.
One night it rained terribly, I saw Sera hurting badly. A knot tangled up in itself and pulled so tightly that I almost didn't try to undo it. Her heart broke over one of the cats passing, it had babies that were now cold and soaked to the bone, hungry and helpless. She felt so deeply and I offered to help, I was surprised that she actually let me.
When the others helped me feel more human I started to change, I got mad, reacted when she said something teasing and for the first time I saw a glint behind her eyes.
She smiled and teased me more. Varric told me later that it was a good thing, that she finally saw that I wasn't so bad.
The next few weeks were hard for me, eating and sleeping were new to me along with all of these emotions, the kinds I drew out when trying to help people.
Sera brought me cookies, said I had to try them now that I could. It made her happy that I liked them.