The journal
Sweet pea X reader
Summary - you are having a bad day which caused you to ignore your friends , sweet pea comes by your house later to find out what’s going on with you and he finds your journal and find out more than he should .
Warnings - sensitive and triggering for some people ( there is a part where she talks about how she feels compared to others)
Y/n POV
Being a serpants comes with “ demons “ some may say . I Like to call them inconvenient thoughts we get once a while . Lately I’ve been having a lot of “ demons “ and I just didn’t know how to go about “facing” them . I Take a deep breath while walking into southside highschool . If i can say one thing I’ve learned from this highschool is that you let people see you have “demons” your as good as dead . I’ve grown up keeping my thoughts inside . That’s until I learned that writing is basically letting my thoughts flow onto paper ,But lately I’ve been feeling like everything I feel isn’t going away by banishing it away on a peice of paper. I’ve let my thought go on to paper with no problem for 3 years now. I’ve gone through 9 notebooks moving onto the 10, and I’ve never had this problem so why now .
Without even knowing it I had been engulfed in my thought for so long i hadn’t noticed I walking to my locker and had opened it . I shake my head to get out of my thoughts and grab my English book , it’s practically falling apart ever since SP borrowed it . That’s what I get for letting him borrow my book after I know how his lap top looked . I close my locker and started to head to my next class . On my way to my next class I walked right passed my friends - sweet pea , Toni , and fangs - into my class and sat down .
It’s the end of the day and I’m walking to my apartment . I live with my dad and since he got his new job , so since our schedules are so different I’m home when he’s not and he’s home when I’m not . I put on sweatpants and a crop top and got my journal .
‘ maybe if I write , everything will stop bugging me ‘ I thought
Write when my pencil touched the lined paper there was a knock on the door . I get up and hide my journal under a pillow . I go to open the door . And when I open it to my surprise it’s sweet pea .
“ hey sweets what’s up “ I said pushing hair out of my face and relocating it behind my ear .
“ hey that’s all your gonna say “ he said with a smirk . “ you don’t talk to me , fang, not even Toni “ he chuckled .
“ I’m sorry sweets it’s just im having a bad day I didn’t want take it out on you guys “ I said opening the door more signaling him to come inside . He walks in and sits right next to the spot I hide my book . Great .
“ do you want anything sweets “ I asked playing with a charm bracelet on my wrist .
“ no I’m good y/n I just came to talk to you “ he said running him hand through his hair and laying back.
“ okay then I’ll be back ima make some coffee “I said going to the kitchen .
Sweet pea’s pov
I lean back and feel something hard push against my back . As y/n turns to walk away i turn to see what it wa . I see a journal and get intrigued . I grab it and open to a random page
‘ 5-16-16
I was looking around at everyone in the cafeteria today and noticed how different everyone is to each other but we get along so well , and how our difference can lead to hatred . How weird is that ? ‘
I smile
‘ that is the y/n I know digging deep into the most normal things ‘ I thought , I turn to the next page
‘ 5-17-16
I hate how I feel like I’m not normal , I don’t fit in with the serpants I don’t fit in at riverdale high, I definitely don’t fit in with the ghoulies and thank god for that where do I belong ?’
I frown and skip a few more pages
‘5-20-17
Starting to think I’m not good enough for my friends ... great . I know or I think I know that care but I feel like I hold them down . I’m going to trying flying solo ‘
“ okay I’m ba- SWEET PEA WHAT THE HELL” I hear as y/n rips the book out of my hand
“ I’m sorry it was behind me and I got curious “ I said putting my hands up like I had been caught red handed .. wait i was .
“ that doesn’t mean you can read it , how much did you read anyways “ she said with a worried look on her face
“ I read enough to know that your not okay , princess “ I told her “ why don’t you talk to Toni , me , for fucks sake you have fangs to “ I said raising my voice but calming down know it not the right place or time .
“ it never seemed important sweets “ she said lowering her head . I patted the cushion next to me for her to come sit next to me .
“ sweets you don’t understand do you “ she said as she sat next to me laying her head on my shoulder . “ we’re serpants we’re known as strong people that don’t get sad or depressed over little things “
I held her hand .
“ that’s not what being a serpants is y/n . Being a serpant is knowing that you have family so you don’t face things alone , knowing that your family will always be there to protect and help you and knowing that we expect the same from you , your never alone y/n you always have us “ i said kissing her forehead .
“ you’ll never be alone “ I whispered
“ sweets ... thanks this means a lot “ she said smiling at me . Damn she’s so beautiful .
That’s night I feel alseep at her house know that I will never let anything or anyone hurt this girl . That’s when I knew I loved her .
Y/n pov
Falling asleep in sweet peas arms made me sure of one thing .
I love sweet pea .
