#senare

I'll just delete this later but I'm so done. I'm so tired of everything I'm so lonely I'm so full of hatred to myself and full of fear to the world. I was hoping that it was going to be better after I was done with my thesis but I knew it wouldn't. The days of stress without sleep at least kept me focussed. I'd spend my days stressed but at least I wasn't crying. I don't mind crying for the little things, I love crying for sweet or emotional things but not this, not like this. I'm so tired and I don't know if I can go on much longer

Jag kan prata svenska i Helsingfors innan jag går till Sverige. Jävla. Vet du vem skulle alltid prata svenska nu? nej, det ska inte bli jag för att min svenska är dåligt.