Day 18: Staying connected with others in general is something has been difficult for me from time to time. It seems to be in the cards for me to remember to stay strong in my beliefs and allow myself the courage to put myself in a place where I have the ability to stay connected and to talk to people about things instead of keeping to myself and wishing I could be out doing something fun with a friend. I have to take a step forward in myself, so that I can maintain those connections with others.

Days 12-17: I need to remember to allow myself to enjoy how far I have come as I prepare to continue to grow. The fire must continually be fed in order to stay bright. My cards appear to be telling me that I need to know to stay motivated in staying motivated to love my badass self, which is sassy but helpful. The urge to ignore the difficult things is definitely something that has always stood in my way. I have struggled with thinking if I ignore it, it will go away, however that leads me to even more difficult time in dealing with it later, so in order to solve this I must have patience and put in the work to move past all of these things. In loving myself, I must grow, so that I can have the confidence and strength to stay connected with those I love and care for even when difficult emotions stand in my way.

Day 11: Once again, I appear as my own worst enemy. The only thing standing in my way is me. I do not allow myself to feel the peace I need to be sensual and creative in loving myself. I am constantly worried about those around me and the unfortunate possibilities rather than looking forward and being positive about what’s to come. I am getting better at these things, but I have a ways to go and am still standing in my own way at the moment.

Days 7-10: My cards appear to be telling me that the key to feeling secure in loving myself is to let go past hurts and problems and allow myself to move past them into the future where I can learn to enjoy the peace and tranquility needed to also feel sensual and creative. The presence of so many major arcana cards is sometimes a little overwhelming, but I think that in this present moment, they were exactly the ones I needed to see. Moving forward with life after hardship or traumatic events is always difficult and I have found myself in the past couple of years continually believing that I have moved on, but then having revisited the moments that hurt the most and feeling as if I am reliving them again, each time it begins to be easier to move forward and I hope I can allow myself to move past these visualizations and begin to feel even more at peace with myself.

Day 6: In order to overcome the challenges ahead, I must allow myself to do what I need to do for me and if it causes me to feel anxious, I should allow myself to feel this way as I work through it to success. I am my own person and I deserve to do the things that make me feel joy.

Day 5: The Page of Cups is one I have had a difficult time reading, but in this case I know I need to relax and take in my surroundings. The past several months have helped me to begin realizing my dreams in a way I wasn’t sure I’d ever really accomplish. In this moment I need to take the time to breathe and allow myself to work through to my goals with less stress, things are in the works and I’ll get there soon enough, now is the time to take it in and enjoy life’s journey.

Day 4: At first glance, the eight of Cups appears to be asking me to begin an internal journey of self-discovery. I believe she is telling me yet again that despite what I’ve had tendency to believe, I can find fulfillment within myself and I don’t need to focus on everyone else to feel whole. I am worth my time to build and obtain my goals.

Day 3: For most of my life, I have felt most fulfilled when helping others to achieve their goals and have not attempted to do much of anything for myself. The six of Pentacles represents this cycle of dependencies and is showing me that I need to learn to be more self sufficient. I can find worth within myself and I need to try harder to look within and find it.