I was looking pretty Nancy Downes today, but sadly that didn’t save me from having quite the panic attack on the way to my cardiologist. I had to pull over into some random parking lot to call and cancel my appointment (because who doesn’t love answering questions while shaking really hard and trying to keep a headache at bay?). Thankfully they were really understanding, and made sure I had the medication I needed and a safe route home. I do really love dressing up and cosmetics and accessories, but there is absolutely nothing glamorous about agoraphobia. Those scenes in movies and TV shows where the camera messes with the depth of field? That’s real. Only you feel it, too. It twists your insides like it’s wringing out a washcloth. I try not to count days like these as failures. I did everything I should have done, but obstacles are more numerous on some days than others, and today the course was rough. #chronicallyill #chronicillness #dysautonomia #potsyndrome #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome #ptsd #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocd #fibromyalgia #disabledlife #selfiepower #nofilterjustsunonaghost
