#self10

You got a lotta nerve to say you are my friend When I was down, you just stood there grinning You got a lotta nerve to say you gotta helping hand to lend You just want to be on the side that's winning

You say I let you down, you know it's not like that if you're so hurt why then don't you show it? You say you lost your faith, but that's not where it's at you have no faith to lose and you know it

I know the reason that you talk behind my back I used to be among the crowd you're in with Do you take me for such a fool to think I'd make contact With the one who tries to hide what he don't know to begin with?

You see me on the street, you always act surprised you say, "How are you? Good luck," but you don't mean it when you know as well as me you'd rather see me paralyzed why don't you just come out once and scream it?

No, I do not feel that good when I see the heartbreaks you embrace if I was a master thief perhaps I'd rob them And now I know you're dissatisfied with your position and your place Don't you understand, it's not my problem

I wish that for just one time you could stand inside my shoes And just for that one moment, I could be you Yes, I wish that for just one time, you could stand inside my shoes You'd know what a drag it is to see you

Rachel held the last note before wiping the tears from her eyes. She hated feeling weak and like she was useless. She hated that she ever trusted somebody from McKinley Heights. They were all the same. They didn’t care, fuck most of the Lima Heights kids didn’t care… more like Quinn didn’t care.

“Quinn, everything comes back to Quinn fucking Fabray.” Rachel muttered to herself.

She was the girl who broke her heart after making sure Rachel gave her everything. She was the girl who never came through and made Rachel wait time after time for her. She was the girl who Rachel wasted her time with when she could have been seeing if the chemistry she and Puck shared was something. Or it could have saved her from being hurt by a McKinley High kid who thought he was better. Or it could have kept her in the same spot she was. With nothing. Rachel had lost so much over the past week. Her girlfriend, her first love and one of her best friend’s and Noah. A boy she opened up to in ways she couldn’t even do so with Quinn.