#self-esteem problems

Some Examples:

Bakugou Katsuki (BNHA)

Agatsuma Zenitsu (Demon Slayer)

Tsukishima Kei (Haikyuu)

Ishida Shoya (A Silent Voice)

Keith Kogane (Voltron)

Lance McClain (Voltron)

Shiota Nagisa (Assassination Classroom)

Desperately want to lose weight again; I’m well short of my all-time high (by something like 70 pounds) but I’m still really unhappy. There’s a full-length mirror in the hallway and every time I see myself in it I think, ‘ugh, disgusting.’ I know I’ll never be slim and ‘hot’ but I hate...well, everything: giant butt, tummy rolls, nasty arm flab, the chins, the jowls, blech blech blech. Other people carry their weight so much better than I do. I’ll still be ugly if I lose it, nothing will change that (and I could do without all the coarse ingrowing hairs on my chin and lip too thank you! Come back estrogen, all is forgiven...). It would be something, though.

But I just can’t seem to muster the willpower to do it, not enough. ‘Calories in calories out’ well I don’t know what to tell you. I’m tired. A lot of healthy low-calorie food either doesn’t fill me up enough or I just don’t like it. I wish to god I loved salmon and broccoli and whatever the hell else, but I don’t. If I try to eat things I hate I just won’t eat.

There’s a limit to how much I can lightly torture myself on purpose, deprive myself, knowingly make myself miserable in the now for a maybe-feeling-better later. There just is. Eru knows there’s enough other garbage happening every single day, every hour, near enough, to make me feel bad already, most of which I can’t do much about. The election has me sick with dread about what feels likely to happen and what that will mean for me and people I care about and everyone else there - and here, for that matter. Politics is global. Have I done enough? Will I need to take a page from the brave women of Iran, and go back and protest and suffer and maybe/probably die for it? Where would I stay? What about my job? It was one thing when I wasn’t working but I’ve made a commitment now. You’re spiraling, Bear...

There’s a thing I wanted to do and I’ve already talked myself out of it largely because I feel too hideous and ugly and ashamed and guilty. Maybe if I can lose the weight...but it still won’t be enough, will it. What am I even doing? I’m being disgusting as a person as well as a body. None of this is healthy or well-adjusted.

Anyway TLDR, I’m great and things are awesome!

Develop Self-Confidence through High Expectations

For someone that has little to no self-confidence there’s a rule to remember when you get serious about changing that part of yourself. That rule is a very simple one: Have high expectations of yourself and believe that you can meet them. Isn’t that a really easy rule to remember? Of course, you’ve also got to get yourself in the frame of mind to start reaching for stars or grabbing the brass…