#self remembrance

I'm beginning to realize that while we are all so very unique, we are all really just trying to find the answer to why we are here.  We are all thinking the same things!  I am You, You are Me.  

I want to share something that I hope will give a little peace.  I was raised Mormon, and with that came a paradox of feeling secure in being told my higher purpose and feeling confused about everything else around me.  When I was 16 my parents split, and that was the beginning of my rebellion..my search for something else.

I basically renounced everything I had been taught from birth, because I felt that it wasn't my choice to be born into a certain religion and I should be able to find my own way.  I changed my mind all the time about whether or not I believed in God and whether or not anything even mattered.  I was angry, frustrated, and constantly battling waves of emotion and confusion.  I decided that everything sucked except for my boyfriend and my room.

When I got to college, my main objective was rebelling even more with my newfound freedom...and believe me, I used it to my full advantage.  Like most kids in college, heavy drinking was the norm; alcohol covered up everything I wanted to forget and gave me a false sense of self....a veil covered up who I innately am and I lived for years in that foggy haze.  

I don't know exactly when my light was sparked again, but after I hit rock bottom, the slow process of self remembrance began and led me to where I am today.  

And here is what I have realized: What I am I have always been.  And this is true ALL THE TIME.  I have always been the sweet, shy, innocent child...I have always been the angry, questioning rebel...I have always had a light inside that will not go out, no matter what.  And that is an important factor in my remembrance.  If I wasn't meant to be a being of peace, harmony, and pleasantness, then that pesky light would've gone out long ago.   

Now I am beginning to cycle through my life back to the beginning, back to my innate self, but with all the knowledge I have collected from my constant searching and questioning.  I am able to feel a sense of peace because I know that all the conditions of my birth here on Earth were exactly as they needed to be for my soul progression. 

To be here now is a gift.  Every struggle, every fear, every feeling of doubt and loss has a balance in the course of self realization.  We are living in really crazy times.  A shift in consciousness IS occurring, and it is amazing that we are all here to be a part of it.  We are MEANT to be here!  Each of us is a piece of the puzzle...We can't do it alone...which is why Tumblr is such a great resource.  I am so inspired by all of you, in your joys and your struggles.  THANK YOU for being you and for making your voices heard.  

Be your True Self; who you are is your gift to the whole.  

WE ARE ALL HERE TO REMEMBER

Namaste

Love and Light