#self maintenance

keeping myself clean, showering often, combing hair, wearinf clean clothes

keeping my home clean and organized and finding furniture and decorations

eating consistently

doing at least one social activity a week

doing at least one solo activity just for fun

moving my body playing with the kids while I'm working, taking long walks, attending free exercise classes are what I want to do next

trying to do things for my community by volunteering at a community meal once a week

affirmations (I am kind, I am helpful, I am intelligent, people like me, I like myself)

making art

I learned to explore those kinds of things and it gave me a reprieve from the constant state of stress I lived in. I once made myself feel like an actual cat. That was nice. I did it entirely for myself.

Somehow, I eventually found my robot kink. It didn't quite seem like it at first, but I eventually figured it out. I experimented with the digital aspect of things, and that was fun. I basically fell down a rabbit hole.

My period before this one basically pushed me over the edge. The pain was bad, it was heavy, and it just magnified my dysphoria. I also needed to be able to function, but there was a vicious cycle of anxiety and executive dysfunction. I was desperate.

And then I found that my solution (dronification) made doing things (as directed by another part) so much easier. I just did it. Lilu started it (but it originally goes back to Sammy), and it's a general state that should work for all of us. So we started making a basic weekly schedule, which turned into rules on how our drone state works and actual routines.

It really excites me how well this is working out. The peacefulness of being able to entirely silence my anxious mind is pure bliss. I actually love it. It's essentially roleplay, and it makes it easier to take care of myself and my home.

Funny given my primary source, but I don't really care now. I know exactly what I am here. The fact that I've been through fusions helps with that perspective.

🪄I am vibrating with rich bitch energy✨