#self knowledge reading

Camila.R ♏️

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How you perceive yourself: 4 of swords

Rest. Not stagnation, but a lack of progress. This is a pause. Not necessarily peace, but meditation and relaxation.

Who you really are: 8 of cups

Walking away from what no longer serves you. This is very clear. You’re in a state of transition, though this card indicates that it is for the best that you are leaving whatever it is behind.

Mental: 5 of swords

Conflict, a battle with no winners. There’s tension and conflict. The conflict is likely external. Your mental state is highly occupied by tension and a battle that leaves no winners. Winning at any cost. Ruthlessness, even.

Emotional: 6 of swords

Departure, distance. Emotional distance. The space between your heart and your head. This is aligned with your current true state being 8 of cups. You’re moving on and this card indicates that it’s an emotional process, rather than a literal one.

Spiritual: 3 of swords

Heartbreak. There’s pain, spiritually. What broke your heart? What truths came to the surface that changed your spiritual worldview? Or is pain the core of your spiritual identity?

Your strengths: ace of cups

Emotion, abundance, creativity. Despite having the swords in all 3 identity slots, you’re actually quite emotional and loving. You’re likely spiritual and creative. There’s an abundance of these things within you. Feeling things is your strength, not repressing them.

Your weaknesses: 2 of cups

Love, harmony, balance. I’d honestly take this as being overly concerned with romantic prospects, especially a soulmate. It’s interesting that both your strengths and weaknesses are cards that speak on the concept of love. Maybe harmony as a weakness. Needing conflict to feel like something is real?

What to heal: 9 of wands

Perseverance, a trial. You’ve had to withstand a lot, this card indicates. But it is time to heal this. Sometimes you don’t need to stick it out. Sometimes you CAN just jump ship. But also there’s the concept of knowing you can withstand and will be fine at the end.

What to embrace: ace of coins

Stability, long term goals, new opportunity. Fairly straightforward. This could even be a financial opportunity like a new job to embrace. Other concepts are just long term plans and stability and making slow but consistent hard work.

What to let go of: 6 of wands

How you perceive yourself: 10 of wands

You see yourself as burdened, someone taking on too much at once. Maybe you take on other people’s problems or you yourself just have so much going on that it overwhelms you. You likely feel weary and exhausted.

Who you really are: 9 of wands

The reality is that yes, you are burdened, but you’re not collapsing under that weight. This is a card of perseverance. You are a strong individual who is able to withstand the weight that you are under. Despite these two cards playing off of each other, my guidance would be to stop defining yourself by what you can withstand. Strength comes in many forms, and yes, you are strong. But there’s just more to you than your burdens.

Mental: the high priestess

The high priestess points to a mental state that is highly intuitive. You likely listen to your instincts, your gut, before anything else. It’s like you just “know”. There’s also a sense of spirituality and the knowledge that comes with that. Like you enjoy learning about the esoteric.

Emotional: knight of swords

The knight of swords is always rushing forward, and really has little time for things like emotion. He’s intellectual, driven, action-orientated, and communicative. I think this points to someone who chooses to act, rather than sit with their feelings. It could even point to rapidly changing emotions, given the movement this card tends to bring.

Spiritual: 5 of wands

The 5 of wands is about conflict, but specifically conflict that relates back to the ego. For a spiritual state, it definitely indicates that there is some form of conflict, but it also shows that this is coming from conflicting perspectives. It’s like one part of you is the high priestess and is very intuitive and in touch while the other part is the knight of swords who is very much driven to act, not feel. It’s time to reconcile the two.

Your strengths: knight of wands

Your strength lies in your passion and drive. This card has some similarities to the knight of swords in that it points to movement. The knight of wands is full of energy, charisma, and is an overall free-spirited person. There’s just this sense of freedom, like you are who you are and you embrace that energy without being stuck in it.

Your weaknesses: the hermit

Your weaknesses lie in your ability to be alone and self reflect. This is a very quiet card compared to the knights. The hermit is all about introspection and the growth that comes with that. It may not come naturally to you, but there are a few exercises you can try to get to know yourself better. Try journaling about your likes and dislikes. Try simply just sitting still for a few minutes at a time and see what comes to mind in the silence. If that’s too much, find something to do with your hands while you think, like playing with clay. Knowledge is power, but knowing who you are is invaluable.

What to heal: 3 of swords

This card is a bit straightforward. You need to heal from heartbreak. There’s also this sense of reckoning with the truth, as this card often points to heartbreak that comes from the truth being revealed. Healing often comes from self reflection, which is what the hermit was all about.

What to embrace: ace of wands

You’re called to embrace all the passion and energy that is the wands, but also to embrace the spark of new beginnings. Now is the time to get excited and really set out towards something.

What to let go of: king of swords

This could mean two things. It either refers to a person who is represented by the king of swords, or it refers to traits within you that no longer serve you. It’s interesting, because this isn’t a negative card at all. The king of swords is honest, fair, has good judgement, intellectual, and values his head over his heart. Maybe that’s it actually, valuing your head over your heart. How often do you really check in with your emotions? Do you think of them as a hindrance or as information?

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How you perceive yourself: knave of wands

Passion, ideas, playful, charisma. The knave of wands, like the other knaves, is setting out on a journey of sorts. As a member of the suite of wands, they are full of passion and relate back to your hobbies and work. For general traits, the knave of wands is a little immature, but courageous. They’re chromatic and optimistic.

Who you really are: the magician

Inner power, control, manifesting. The magician is all about harnessing the power within you to shape your reality. This is a card of great potential, so long as you harness it and point it in a direction you’d like to go in.

Mental: knave of swords

New idea, impulsive, intellectual, communicative. The suite of swords is all about the mind, communication, and conflict. For a mental state, this reflects new ideas, but little plans to carry them out besides just jumping into it. It also reflects curiosity and intellect. There’s also the degree of immaturity that is present in all of the knaves as they begin their journeys.

Emotional: the moon

Hidden depth, mystery, subconscious, illusion. This would point to a heavily shrouded emotional state, one that maybe you can’t even place. Despite all the mystery, there’s depth. There’s deep emotions, likely repressed, just sitting under the surface.

Spiritual: the tower

Sudden change, upheaval, disaster. When referring to identity, I go in 2 directions with this card. It either indicates that you are going through a complete shift in your spiritual sense of self. Or it indicates that there is no core truth that you hold as an identity. After all, the tower is collapsing under the weight of new truths. But it can only collapse because the foundation wasn’t strong enough.

Your strengths: knight of swords

Direct, aggression, courage, honesty. This card is all about movement. Movement towards the truth, communication, intellect, or conflict. Your strengths lie in your ability to seek the truth and take action with bravery.

Your weaknesses: ace of swords

Clarity, triumph, breakthrough. With this as a weakness but knight of swords as a strength, there’s a bit of nuance. Like you act without clarity first. Act now, think later. Movement without a clear plan in mind.

What to heal: ace of coins

Stability, new opportunities, finances. I lean towards the less material interpretations of this card, so that would point to a need for stability and long term goals/plans. I mean, the presence of all the swords cards indicate that you’re a fast paced person, where this card is slow and steady. Maybe it’s time to heal the part of you that needs to move so fast.

What to embrace: king of swords

Clarity, fairness, intellect, communication, self discipline, honesty. You’re being called to master the realm of the swords. Ideas without a plan are just thoughts. Action without ideas is just lateral movement. Master the balance of the heart and the mind. Encourage clarity and honesty and truth within yourself. Think clearly and without bias. Have the self discipline necessary to pursue these things.

What to let go of: 6 of swords

Departure, distance, moving on. How quick are you to move? How much distance do you place between your head and your heart? I get the feeling of emotional distance, which would be in line with the mystery and depth of the moon as an emotional identity.

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How you perceive yourself: knight of cups

Romantic, creative, spiritual, emotional. The knight of coins is in action, striving for the perfect romance. They’re poetic and emotional. They’re loving and compassionate and charming.

Who you really are: 6 of swords

Departure, moving on. There’s a few ways to interpret this. The basic is the idea that, really, you’re in a state of transition in your identity, leaving behind something. There’s also the concept of emotional distance. Then the identity of the swords suite, which would be intellectual, communicative, and used to dealing with conflict.

Mental: the hanged man

Pause, a change in perception, sacrifice. This card indicates a need to shift perspective through reflection and pause, maybe even by letting something go (sacrifice). This does go back to the 6 of swords, given that the swords card is about leaving something behind.

Emotional: 6 of cups

The past. Good or bad, your emotions are fixated on your past experiences. Normally, this card indicates nostalgia, so I don’t necessarily think this is a bad emotional state. It depends on your past experiences.

Spiritual: 2 of swords

The pause before making a decision, indecision. Much like the hanged man, this card calls for a pause and reflection. Your identity is in your hands, so make sure your decision is made with both your head and heart in alignment with your truth.

Your strengths: 2 of cups

Love, harmony. This card reflects that there’s some truth to you seeing yourself as the knight of cups. You’re a very loving and emotional person, which is a strength. Strength in vulnerability and your desire to truly connect with others on a genuine level.

Your weaknesses: 6 of coins

Giving and taking. Maybe you struggle to accept help from others. Maybe you struggle to give to others. There’s just the concept of giving versus receiving here.

What to heal: 7 of swords

Lies, manipulation, betrayal. I imagine this was an experience that troubles you still. Someone likely manipulated you through lying and betrayed your trust. Ultimately, this is something to heal rather than hold on to. Is this the past experience that the 6 of cups referred to?

What to embrace: judgement

The call to change. It’s time to shift. The hanged man and the 2 of swords both give the guidance that it’s okay to pause and reflect, but a change or decision must be made. The nature of this card implies this change to be primarily spiritual, but it calls for rebirth. A new self must be formed.

What to let go of: 9 of swords

Anxiety, fear, negative self talk. It’s time to let go of the negative pattern of how you speak to yourself. Pessimism does not serve you. Anxiety and fear cannot be allowed to control you. Between this and the 7 of swords, there is a clear direction that the cards indicate you could start with to embrace judgement.

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