⭐️ Annual Writing Self-Evaluation 2025 ⭐️

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 12 fics (oh shit)

2. Word count posted for the year: 189,226

3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction (11), SPN (1 lmfao)

4. Pairings: 

Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Castiel / Dean Winchester

5. Story with the most Kudos: two (left) feet in front of me

Bookmarks: two (left) feet in front of me

Comments: two (left) feet in front of me

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): hmm this is a hard question. I think I really love my neighbour au because I wrote it so quick and all in like, one sitting. And it was exactly what I imagined. And it was smutty af, which is a bit hard for me lol.

7. Share or describe a favorite review you received: EVERY comment is the best comment, it is really hard to choose. I actually screenshot and save them, most of them anyway, because I am a sap. But let's see, here are some choice phrases I loved last year:

"oh my God what the fuck was this???? I love it so fucking much??? I feel like this has done something to rewire my brain???"

"Can I just say, I have read some bad fics where they go from strangers to fucking and immediately start with the Daddy shit, and it’s often cringy and unnatural, but you write it well every time. If I didn’t know any better I’d swear that you’ve called a stranger Daddy before."

"I love the notion that, even when you are at your most miserable, you may still be someone else's inspiration."

There were tons of amazing reviews, especially from one particular person who took the time to write their own novels in my comment section (you know who you are), so all I can say is THANK YOU.

8. A time when writing was really, really hard: I had a really awful time in August in my personal life and it made writing really difficult. I have to say, the Wordplay discord and other authors in that fest carried me through. I'm proud of my year!

9. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: I think the whole the trail provides fic surprised me... I didn't mean to, but I ended up being really real and authentic in ways I didn't plan and re-reading it made me sad/proud/feel weird. Anyway, it was more heartfelt than I usually allow myself to be.

10. A favorite excerpt of your writing : umm... literally how can I even find that? I have no idea. I can't remember what I write much less if any of it is good... I tried but I can't find a single thing lol sorry

11. How did you grow as a writer this year: I participated in SO MANY FESTS. I tried omegaverse and 5+1 times (both were not great hahaha I don't love those tropes) and I joined some discord servers to stay motivated. It's been fun!! I've tried to just lean into the whole dirty dirty smut thing haha.

12. How do you hope to grow next year: I'd like to do the 1DBB. I have always wanted to do a BB and like. I really hope to do it this year!!!

13. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): well haha the entirety of the wordplay discord but I mean, if I am being completely honest, @emilarry. Feels impossible to answer anyone else.

14. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: HELP. Related to the previous question, one of my fics is just... ugh. Too real.

15. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: no, nothing new. Just. Be yourself and write for fun. Fuck stats.

16. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: Gotta finish 2 fest fics and then the bigbang so I am really looking forward to summer because I am gonna write FOR FUN and it's gonna be SMUT and maybe sequels and additions to old verses!!!!

17. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

self evaluation

Any restriction on information will limit your ability to understand, which in turn limits your ability to discern, change, create, perceive, and progress. I urge you to move forward with greater discernment.

I am not a "good" artist.

I can only draw with references, only copy OTHER people's work through visual tracing.

The MOMENT you take that away my "good" artwork drops to the skill of a third grader.

So whenever someone asks about if I thought about going into tattooing, the answer is yes I have, and the answer is ALWAYS hell no.

A- if I fuck up someone has to deal with the consequences.

B-it's the equivalent of drawing and sharpie. And you cannot erase your mistakes.

C-I am faint at the side of blood.

D-I cannot create anything original, and nothing I draw is my own.

Therefore, I am NOT a "good" artist.

And in my opinion, "good" artists are those who can draw original artwork from their mind, occasionally using references in regards to proportions and orientations. (Of which I cannot do; therefore, I am not a good artist.)

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Turns out, in overstimulating environments, I get irritated very quickly. Like... To the point where it drives out my anxiety, and I start lashing out at people, even those I care about.

I wanted to hit people and tell them to shut up, but thankfully my social filter was still intact. Not for all things, though. Certain words and insults still slipped from my head out of frustration. Once I was out of that environment, I felt terrible for being rude and unable to control my anger.

... I've actually never considered my aggression before. I usually like to consider myself a shy, albeit kind person, but my behavior takes a massive shift. Almost like it's a form of self defense.

Of course, I would never hit or threaten someone. But when I'm overstimulated, or even just frustrated with something like a project, I get irritated and angry. Still, it's nothing to the point that would cause actual harm (I never get physical, although I do touch people as a silent indication to quiet down... Which now that I think about it isn't really good, either...).

Parts of my childhood also had this. I would get frustrated with my peers when they couldn't grasp what I was saying or when they were making fun of me.

So yeah... I get frustrated easily, especially in overstimulating environments. And then I feel absolutely awful afterwards for yelling and being rude to people.

Is it a form an of autistic meltdown? Idk. The word meltdown is condescending. I still had a filter and I could still control my actions.

Self Evaluation

Janessa Harmon

Hey guys!! I’m starting my journey to being a better person in all aspects of life. I’m following along with the guided journal “This is What Matters” by Perpetua Neo. So far it has really really helped. The page above is a graphic I made to hold myself accountable. If you’d like to hear more about my story or share your own, please let me know!!!