#seldomabsent

Knocking softly on his door, y/n quietly slipped in without waiting for his response. From what Sirius told her, he was too knackered to say anything.

Full moon was approaching and as always it was not treating him well. Other than his mood being all over the place, it seemed like his body was physically preparing for the transformation as around this time of the month, he would suffer unbearable pain all over his body.

Not that he’d ever complained, mind you. Y/n had always admired his strength and couldn’t for the love of him, comprehend how he’d ever think anything bad about himself. He was the strongest person she knew. Hell, that all the Marauders knew. 

Not only because he has to go through this enormous pain every month and had never once complained but because despite the cruelty and the ugliness of his condition, Remus had never let it hinder his view on life. He was always so optimistic and kind to everyone. And y/n knew for a fact how much strength kindness and compassion took. 

If there was something though that he didn’t have the stomach to do was to ask for help. 

It took a while for y/n to understand what was going on. She knew of course that he was a werewolf but apart from the actual transformation she knew very little about it. It was not something Remus liked to talk about and she wasn’t close enough to the other Marauders to ask them instead.

So, the first months of their relationship were a bit strained. Because he would disappear for almost a week, a few days before and after the full moon, and at first y/n didn’t understand why. If a part of her knew that it had to do with his condition, the fact that he completely ignored for those days every month hurt her. Surely she could at least know what was going on. Right?

But Remus would always act none the wiser after and y/n was too happy to see he was well to bring up something that might upset him. 

And so time passed and eventually she and Sirius, above everyone else, got quite close. Remus was happy that his girlfriend was becoming part of his group, wanting nothing more than having the people he loved most to get along. 

So, around the third month of their relationship, when the full moon was approaching, and Remus expectedly disappeared, she could finally talk to someone about it.

And what Sirius told her made her worry, yes, but it also broke her heart.

The fact that the sweetest creature on the planet had to go through such a terrible thing was horrible enough but the fact that he was doing so alone? Because he didn’t want to be a bother? Heartbreaking.

“Rem?” 

Walking into the barely lit room, y/n could barely make out Remus’ shape under the sheets. But she knew where he was and so covered the familiar distance between the door and his bed.

Remus’ rest during this time would always be barely effective and practically consisted of him trying to sleep but restlessly shifting in bed. Numb with pain, he barely registered the door opening and closing but he did hear a voice. Not sure if it was a dream or not, he barely grunted and laid on his back.

He opened his eyes but couldn’t see anything, although he was now aware that there was someone in the room.

“It’s me.” Answered a voice he knew well almost as if she could hear his unspoken question.

He was about to ask her what was she doing here when a wave of pain suddenly shot through him and he ended up hissing instead. Shushing him, y/n quickly removed her shoes and climbed onto the bed. Mindful of his pain, she laid down carefully next to him. 

“It’s okay, I’m here.” At this, almost like a wounded puppy, he nudged his head closer to her. Taking this as a green light to touch him, y/n gently cradled his body closer to hers in a light embrace.