#securiitystuff

★ ( &. S C REAMS ABOUT HOW BECKER ACTUALLY INITIATES THE HUG. ) ★ ( &. HE 'S L E AR NING. ) ★ ( &. NO BUT REALLY THIS EPISODE IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES FOR SO MANY REASONS. ) ★ ( &. && LIKE 98% OF THEM HAVE TO DO WITH BECKER'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIS FRIENDS. ) ★ ( &. HE COMFORTS ABBY WHEN CONNOR GETS TAKEN. ) ★ ( &. HE BACKS UP MATT WHEN HE WANTS TO BLOW THE BUILDING DESPITE CONNOR BEING INSIDE. )★ ( &. HE APOLOGIES TO ABBY WHEN HE / DOES / BLOW IT BC HE DOESN'T KNOW IF CONNOR WILL MAKE IT BUT HE'S HOPING. ) ★ ( &. AND SHIELDS HER WHEN IT EXPLODES. ) ★ ( &. YOU CAN REALLY TELL JUST / HOW FAR / THEIR RELATIONSHIP HAS COME FROM WAY BACK IN THE START OF S3. ) ★ ( &. DESPITE THERE BEING A WHOLE YEAR IN WHICH BECKER WAS LEAD TO BELIEVE HER & CONNOR WERE DEAD. ) ★ ( &. AND MAYBE THAT HAD A LARGE PART TO DO WITH IT. ) ★ ( &. WHATEVER IT IS JUST SIGN ME THE FUCK UP BECAUSE THE TEAM BEING MORE THAN JUST A TEAM. BUT BEING / F RIENDS / IS WHAT I LIVE FOR. ) ★ ( &. ALSO LOOK @ MATT. QT BABE JUST WANTS A HUG TOO. ) ★ &. ┊ ❛ THE MACHINE THAT CHECKS WHETHER PEOPLE ARE FROM THE FUTURE WAS OUT OF ORDER. ❜ ★ &. BROTP. ┊ ❛ PAPER. SCISSORS. STONE. ❜ ★ &. ┊ ❛ DON'T CALL ME SOLDIER BOY. ❜ ★ &. ┊ ❛ IT'S MY JOB TO PROTECT QUEUE. ❜

          ALEX MAY OR may not have heard something about          an asset out of containment.     in fact, he also may or          not have been on his way up to ask which asset, so he          could be certain to avoid that area in his next tour. he’s          only barely stepped into the control room when he sees          the tiny screens with names on the GIANT monitor.

          IT’S VERY POSSIBLE that he just felt his heart fall right          down into his stomach.    the asset in question is the only          asset that he disapproves of.          the one that’s also just           assumed to have just eaten the raptor handler,    or so he          can put together from the shaky words of some assistant.          but more importantly, they sent out a team. & becker may          or may not be leading, he actually can’t tell from this angle.

          THERE’S A FEELING in his stomach, something akin to           déjà vu. something he hasn’t felt for a few years now. not          since---- well, since the death of his sister. & it takes alex          all of a moment to piece it all together.

          THE I-REX IS loose. becks & his team are going to try to          get the situation under control. the door opens behind him,           & owen strides past him. okay-- that’s a good sign.    if he          got away, then maybe so can becker.     at least, that’s his          prayer for the moment. he’s more focused on the screens          than on anything else around him, so when the names on           the monitor flicker & red lines FLATTEN, it hits him the           worst. 

          HE GASPS QUITE loudly,     & the panic in that single gasp           snaps a few people’s attention to him. t hey can see just how           pale he’s gotten,   & someone is trying to ask him something,          but the voice is muffled to him at best.    he’s only focused on          one pulse, & one name on the screen, & as long as that pulse          is still a pulse, then alex is alright. since his sister, he’s never          been a religious man; but in the past few minutes he has said           so many prayers that the pope would be proud.          probably.

          EACH SCREAM HEARD from each member of the team will          haunt him for years to come, but none as bad as his.      at the           sound of BECKER’S scream, alex falls to his knees,     & he          begins shaking at the sight of becker’s pulse  racing & racing

                                                                            until it stops.

          ALEX IS FROZEN in place, his wide eyes never tearing away          from the flat line beside the name & face. people are talking, but          he doesn’t hear them. doesn’t want to hear them.     that’s all he          was to a few of them, he assumes. just a name & a face. but he          was much more than that to him.      he doesn’t know what to do,           but somehow he’s on the ground now, sobbing & screaming at          everyone who tries to comfort him. they don’t understand. no one          will ever understand. even HE doesn’t understand. he probably          never will. 

          HE WAS ONLY there to listen as his world was once again pulled          out from under him ----only this time, Becker isn’t there to pull him                                                           back up. He’s alone. & always will be.