#secret-warlock

Ohmygosh im crying this is absolute perfection you beautiful soul. Thank you for this so so much <3

also if theres any words in here you dont understand feel free to come and ask me!!! some stuff is cultural and not everyone knows so! feel free im so ready to talk about this

so like i said maureen is a muslim

she was born into a muslim family and it was good!!

she loves her abu she loves her ami, she loves her sister (shut up she has a lil sis now i said so) and she loves her aunties and uncles

now heres the thing she was v religious as a child

she dreamed of wearing the hijab, she dreamed of being A Big Girl™ and staying up alllll night during ramadan esp. in the last 10 days

and then middle school came

and middle school was...strange for her (for lack of a better word)

she started wearing a hijab!!! v exciting stuff! now in the beginning (re. 6th grade) she wore the slip on bc like it was the beginning right? she still needed to get used to it and yall know what i mean)

she met clary and at first it was nothing just another friend

but then they got assigned together on a few projects and got closer

anyways maureen ended up going to clarys house once for this english project and lo and behold!!

she meets luke garroway!!!

who!! is!! praying!!!

and at first shes shocked bc like?? clary never really mentioned anything before so she never really thought about it

but oh look!! clary has a muslim step father which is so cool!!!!

like outside of her family and the masjid maureen had never really met anyone else you know? and was pleasantly surprised

anyways so she and clary get started on the project and leave luke alone to do the prayers (maureen did hers before coming over to clary bc she good lil girl)

and anyways they essentially get nothing done bc theyre two idiots and end up laughing at stupid things on the internet

but anyways they end up getting really close and oh wHOOPS AT ONE POINT MAUREEN MAYBE IS SITTING A LITTLE TOO CLOSE TO CLARY AND MAYBE SHE NOTICES THAT CLARY HAS REALLY SOFT LIPS AND MAYBE SHE THINKS THAT HER LIPS WOULD GO REALLY NICELY ON HERS

(MAYBE)

but ohshitohshitohshit this cannot be happening and maureen freaks out bc heres the thing. the muslim community. not terribly open to the idea of a queer girl.

and maureen buys into what theyre saying that yeah maybe queerness is wrong and homosexuality is wrong bc no one ever told her otherwise

but anyways shes freaking about clary and so she tries to repress it (and fails ofc)

she also feels v distant from islam at this point

bc she thinks that her religion hates her, she thinks her religion wants people like her to to be damned

and she hates it

bc honestly she made it this far, shes dealt with people calling her a terrorist, shes dealt with people yelling slurs at her due to her race, shes dealt with all of it and no some red haired girl is her downfall???

so she vows to not really be in in contact w. clary

but that also means she doesnt hang out at her house as much

which is really sad bc like. she liked clary.

and also whenever clary wasnt home she was out on some art class or smth maureen would kinda sit on the couch waiting and she’d talk to luke

and the thing is that luke liked her too 

they both bonded pretty easily

over islam, over animals, over everything

like he became one of her most trusted adults. he came over to dinner at her familys house

where she obviously acted very proper and served gulab jamun and everything

like he was like another uncle (bc lbr any family friend just becomes another distant relative okay theres no other option)

and you know he was always there during eid and he did her mehndi once or twice and they got along

and she misses him

but shes thinking that she cant go over but she owes luke something and so she goes over to the house trying to figure out something

and just as she gets there theres someone else in the apartment

its a man

whos with luke

who kissed luke

like it was super brief, a quick peck but holyshit it was there and she saw it

she freezes bc what the hell isnt this bad??

luke sees her and for a second everything is just frozen but then all of a sudden the world is back into rushing

they both open their mouth and maureen instantly blurts out smth like “i thought this was unholy, i thought this was smth and the Prophet Muhammad ʿalayhi as-salām was against im confused are we both going to jahannam???”

and lukes eyes widen just a bit and he realizes ya Allah this poor girl likes girls and thinks shes going to die bc of it ya Allag please

so he quietly just tells her to come inside

and he breaks it down for her

islam, never ever ever directly says anything about homosexuality being bad. our religion is beautiful he reminds maureen, Allah wouldnt punish us for something out of our control

however, and he explains to her that the muslim community is v different from the religion. which sucks

he also explains that the homophobic muslims ‘reasoning’ is going off of a passage thats actually talking about rape

(the passage is a story of this group of men who went and raped anyone and everyone. men, women, children, etc. and obviously this was shown as a god-awful thing. however the homophobes pointed to the very small area where it says that the group raped innocent men and said ‘look!! homosexuality MUST be bad’ therefore missing the point of the passage and being terrible people)

maureen breaks down and cries after he finishes

he doesnt say anything, he just holds her v calmly and waits

once she calms down she explains that maybe she had a tiny (huge) crush on clary and maybe was freaking out

luke grins and kisses her temple and tells her that its okay

he also grins and while wagging a finger and says that maureen still needs to properly ask for his daughters hand like any other guy would

she lets out a watery laugh at that

after that she goes home and her mind is buzzing

she does the only thing she knows how to. she reads the quran

she reads her favourite stories, she cries more and when the athan comes she does her namaz

the next day shes a little more calmer and a lot more curious

she goes online. she reads and reads and reads. not everything is accurate. not everything is good. not everything is bad either.

but its summer and so she goes to the masjid a lot

she reconnects with her religion. she falls in love all over again.

ramadan comes and she stays up all night and she prays

she prays to Allah to forgive her for her sins

she prays to Allah to help her with her schoolwork

she prays to Allah to help her figure out this whole sexuality thing 

when school starts maureen starts to reconnect with clary

(her feelings. they are still there)

but regardless they fall into an easy relationship and maureen meets simon

a jewish kid who is 10000% okay with being jewish. and pansexual

and its nice to see someone her age still be close to their religion and also be connected with their sexuality

i mean granted hes still figuring out some things but its okay bc theyre young

OH!! its around this time that maureen goes thru what she called “hijab puberty”

where now instead of slip ons shes wearing actual wrap arounds and playing with styles

(its v exciting and luke may have cheered really loudly the first time she went to school with it)

anyways so school goes on the work gets harder and maureen still deals with a lot of internalized lesbiphobia

she also deals with literally every str8 yt boi calling her a terrorist or yelling slurs at her

and yeah whatever she gets used to it

she puts on a brave face and rolls her eyes at them

(the ironic thing is, even tho theyre making fun of her hijab, even tho her hijab is partly why theyre being jackasses to her, its also become her shield)

it gets easier to ignore them

in the meantime she goes shopping with her ami for different styles and colours and texture and has fun

she looks for kameez shalvaars to wearing during eid bc why not

she gets her mehndi done by luke and tells him how her day is going

she joins simons band and suddenly clary is everywhere and her feelings just wont go away

but its okay. because shes getting through life with her friends and its okay

and this is really long and is kinda a mess but i love maureen

i love muslim maureen

i love luke

i love muslim luke

and i love my kids and i swear i have a million hcs but heres a story? about muslim maureen and muslim luke meeting

WIAT I SAW THAT YOU SAID MAUREEN WAS A GONNA BE A MUSLIM IN YOUR FIC...ohmyogshsh pls, Muslim people never get any rep and it would mean the world if you did it, you're absolutely amazing btw <3

Hope you feel better soon, drink tea and have a warm hot bottle nearby 💟💟💟

...I completely forgot about this.. but i am betting on Magnus watching it with him as well and they both have their different favourites which causes a rift between the two. meaning that Alec has to choose a side

tbh i could write a fic on this

i have so many ideas on them having a playing argument while Alec thinks its real for like 10 minutes before claiming theyre ridiculous :D