I’m Still Here
Taking a little break from tumblr...I am so thankful for each and every comment and message but my heart needs some space. I am home from residential and as hard/strange as it is to say...I’m so proud. I showed up each day and fought for the life I want. I let others hold hope until I was ready to take it back. I came back to life. Like everything, I did this with my whole heart. I shouldn’t still be here, but I am. I’m not done fighting, I am still rising. I made it. My recovery isn’t perfect, but I wouldn’t want it to be. I still get very high and very low daily, but I am embracing the messiness of my sensitive heart. I still have a lot to learn (heres looking at you, intuitive eating). There is so much uncertainty in my life right now but few things are constant: I have a family that loves me, friends that stayed by my side as I saved my life, a team that shows up to bat for me daily, a new found trust in God, and a soul that longs for connection and coffee and buying all the pens. I am finally getting a chance to see Sam fully alive and that is a Sam that I want to know better. I’m sure I will be back but for now...Carry on, warriors <3Â
