#second journal

My second journal

Well I’ve officially become a fool. Like my last journal entry thingy. I know no one will read this. And I still don’t care. But i still feel the great need to write about how I feel. See my mom is very disappointed in me because of a lot of things. And she asked me what I thought love was and so many other things. And when she did I was stuck. I had thought for so long that I knew what love was. But I realized that I don’t. And I was played by guys. I thought they liked me only to find out they probably talk to other girls just like how they talk to me. And fuck that hurts so much. Because I usually feel special thanks to them. And now I know I shouldn’t. Because that’s dumb. I’m dumb. And the saddest part is. I will probably still fall for the same shit again. Idk I’m just. Idk.

1. There's nothing wrong with you. Maybe that's not true right now, as you write this, but one day it might be. Maybe you'll wake up and find this to be one, long nightmare. I don't know.  2. She's gone. Stop pretending that there's something left between you guys. It's been years. Get over it, kid. 3. Another reminder to get over it. Seriously.  4. It's normal to be uncomfortable in your own skin. That will change. You'll feel more yourself than ever before if you be patient.  5. Good things happen to those who wait. You've been waiting a long time. It'll come soon. 6. Everybody makes mistakes. It sounds like that cheesy Hannah Montana song, but it's true. You're not the first person to fall victim to drugs and alcohol. There were countless people before you and they have conquered the addiction. They won the war. They are better and they are happier.  7. You don't need the drugs to be happy. Before they came along, you were happy. I know that's foreign to you now. You barely remember that life, but it could happen again. Never say never.  8. Forgive yourself. It'll be a challenge, but it's not your fault you took the wrong path. It's time to let go.