#seagull rambles

He contacts me again more recently asking if we can speak candidly and basically asking if we can be friends. I'm extremely hesitant and he's already given me red flags but I said we could try. I can't say I'm emotionally invested and fine with cutting this off at any point but I am curious as to what his goal is. I'm convinced it's just to play out some fantasy of what it would be like if we were close and 'daring' but just being friends. He definitely has unresolved feelings and I'm not trying to lead him on or hurt him further. I may not be in a strict monogamous relationship but that doesn't mean that door is just open. Idk how to feel or what to do bc I don't really have any close friends to talk to.

sexual harassment? yeah boi. My ex and i were emotionally abusive towards one another and I’ve grown since. I’m still harsh with words and I wish i wasn’t. I’ve had guys that I’ve been on one date with continue to text me once every few months. one has lasted over a year, and once i got fed up and answered and he was surprised i actually responded. i’ve had males tell me how i should be and act. I’ve had males threaten to find me. I’ve had males tell me how I should rule my poly relationship. I’ve had a guy take advantage of me after clearly outlining what i wasn’t ok with. I’ve had males drive out to me when I told them not to and never indicated i wanted to deal with them. this especially makes me have anxiety attacks. I hate male anger and violence and their boy humor. I’ve had them act conceited just because they’re a year or two older than me and moved out of their parents house. I don’t hate all males, moreover i see everyone as a person UNTIL they act shitty or i learn more about THEM. if a male becomes shitty towards me then he’s a /guy/ idk what else to say right now but those are my issues and honestly my main one is my parents.