#scottishtransman

Haven’t posted here in forever. Life is busy (not really) but just can’t seem to find the time to write everything down. It will happen eventually, I promise.

Another little comparison - July 2017 (Pre T) and then March 2019 (1 Year on T)!

Such a wonderful difference and my guy just loves wearing shorts anytime he can.

I haven’t got as far as explaining where we are at yet but I’m continuing our journey each week and we’ll get up to date ASAP.

Thought it was important that you see some of the small (but amazing) changes actually happening. My guy was never hairy and so something as little as this - went ALONG way!!!

• First picture is pre T (Unsure when, Mr found this on Snapchat)

• Second picture was just November 2018 (I love to fill my phone with more facial hair *progress* pics)

So... we are now counting down the last few days before my guy goes in for top surgery.

We have been very calm up until now and I think it’s now, after 2 months, slowly hitting us what will be happening.

We’ve had crisis talks since Friday (now Sunday) about how we’re both feeling or not feeling. I’ve been trying my hardest to reassure my guy that everything is going to be okay and only get better.

I can only imagine these feelings will be getting stronger and his body gets ready for the relief.

I’ll be sure to update you all.

6 days!!!!!

Today is the day my boy goes in for top surgery. We are currently procrastinating and leaving everything to the last minute. We are nervous but at the same time not really bothered. I know this is going to change as soon as jump into my car and have to leave to go to the hospital.

His admission time is 3:30pm with surgery expected at 5:00pm. The poor soul is now not allowed to eat and by 2pm today, not allowed to drink anything either. Lucky enough, I’ve managed to keep myself full and watered with him. I don’t want to eat when he can’t!

I’ll make a little post in the next few days just to let you know how he’s getting on and what happened in pre/during and post surgery.

On that note, phone’s away, wish us luck! (Mostly him, but me to stay strong) !!!!!!!

So I’ve kinda touched on how I felt each post I’ve added. Mostly my guy’s feeling but just touched slightly to show how easy it is to understand and help someone going through this.

From the minute he told me, I never even considered us not being together. I never ever thought of not being able to cope with this. Yes, it could’ve been because we were only together 2 months before he told me what was going to be happening and as much as we knew each other previously, we lost touch.

In those 2 months though, I fell truly, madly & deeply in love with the soul!

To me it was ONLY a name change, a pronoun change and changing from ‘girlfriend’ to ‘boyfriend’. Now some people may think this is hard, some people may struggle with those changes but want to be supportive. I don’t know why I’m like this - I was never like this from what I can remember. I never ever thought I could be so strong for someone and it’s definitely brought the best out in me.

In saying this, I never used his name for a few months, just always called him ‘babe’ or ‘baby’ - maybe this was my way of subconsciously coping with the name being something different from what I had known.

With the physical changes - I was super excited. Constantly taking pictures and using them as comparison to him, even though there were no huge differences.

For someone who had NO hair anywhere before (My absolutely dream), he has done extremely in less than a year for the growth everywhere. I know I said in my previous posts that the hair growth wasn’t huge but it’s a MASSIVE difference from what we had noticed before T.

This is a picture of his lower back, somewhere that never ever had anymore than 20 strands of hair. Not even exaggerating.

Now he’s as hairy as ever and loving it. I think it will only get thicker and darker in the months to come as he’s quite thick and dark everywhere else.

(I hope you like my moon pic, don’t want to get flagged as being inappropriate with a little boy booty hanging around!)

Finally, after 24 - almost 25 years, my guy is finally getting hairier in all the dream places.

Here’s to the future!

A little headless shot of me leaving the hotel at 8:20 in the morning (the morning after my guy had surgery). This was literally 4 and a half minutes after my boy telling me I could come in to his room at the hospital anytime.

I slept like a baby that night (SURPRISINGLY!!) whilst my Mr had about 3 hours, at most. He is not impressed by that but I was emotionally exhausted.

I have never got up and dressed so quickly just to get to his side.

This was the first night we hadn’t spent together in over 1 year and 5 months and it was horrible.

I had a card at the ready to try and make my guy feel better and I never want to see him in that state again!