#scillae

So it’s been a while since I’ve posted here. But now more than ever it has become important to be consistent with sharing things I’ve made. It’s always a struggle when contemplating whether to post something that I am not proud of or that I can see needs serious improvement, but being self-critical has become more of a hindrance than a motivation. After listening to Amy Morin talk about perfection and how it can hurt instead of help (one of the points she covers in her book 13 Things Mentally Strong Women Don’t Do, definitely on my TBR list), I have been actively checking the way I think when I make decisions. Life is short, and it’s never to late to start being aware of where I should be investing my time and effort, and where I should let go. It doesn’t have to be a drastic change, even one small bold step at a time will accumulate and contribute to a healthier future. 

So here’s a mock book cover for a book I wish exists. As I did my research on mermaids and its variations throughout history, I found myself wanting more on critical discussions on the mermaid(not just the popular Hans Anderson’s version but other depictions that came prior to and after it; sirens, atargartis, suvannamacha, mami-wata, etc. ). Including topics like how their stories have been a solidification of culture’s perception of women during their respective time period, as well as, how these recorded narratives have continued to perpetrate contemporary ideas of being female. Discussions on being the other, and superficial dichotomies are also fascinating topics to explore. It would be so neat to have a book that compiles the various iterations of this creature throughout history along with critical discussions. 

Spr ‘16 | Visual Strategies Editorial Assignment   Spot Illustration for article ‘Evil Office Mates’

Coming up with conceptual ideas is definitely not my strongest point. But it’s been a good learning process so far; learning to eliminate, capturing the essence of the assignment, and how to present it in the best way pertaining to respective requirements. Hopefully conceptual ideas are something you could eventually improve on, though I’m not too sure, it would be nice. Don’t want to pigeon hole myself into a too specific niche.

Did not plan on candy colors, but as with everything else, more time equals gradual improvement on control. 

‘i wish for life’

A present I wrapped last year.

my first love

oh well, it happened like a year ago, he was my best friend and we fell for each other. at the beggining it was so so cute because we never had drama, it basically was like if we were still best friends but with the kissing and stuff. i was completely idiotized by him, i loved him so so much. but we started to fight for stupid shit all the time and  he started to do and say things that really hurted me (and still hurt me), suddenly, all he was interested about was sexual, at a point he barely cared if i wanted to touch his dick or not. we were together for 8 months, it ended up bad, after we broke up, he made fun of my friends, my family and me and we never talked again. basically, he made me very happy and very miserable at the same time lol.

thanks a lot scillae!